Alice
Nakarating ako sa may dalampasigan, malayo sa bar, malayo sa ingay, malayo kay Carter
Patuloy sa pag agos ang luha ko. Kilala nya ko. Alam nya kung sino talaga ako. He didn't deny it. He knew all long. He'll send me home when he gets what he wants
He's engaged and he didn't tell me. Tangina ginawa nya pa akong girlfriend!
Hindi ko ininda ang malamig na dulot ng pang-gabing hangin. Nagpatuloy ako sa pagtakbo hanggang sa may isang malakas na kamay ang pumigil sa braso ko
"Alice, please listen to me" he begged
Napapikit ako ng mariin at winaksi ang kamay nya na nakahawak sa braso ko
Pinunasan ko ang mga luha ko at hinarap sya. His eyes were pleading. He looks like he has a deep problem. But who freaking cares?! I certainly don't!
"Is it fun?" mapait kong tanong. Ayaw maawat sa pagtulo ang mga luha ko
"Masaya bang paglaruan ako? Ang paniwalain ako?"
"Alice please---"
"Masaya ba?!" I snapped
Hindi sya sumagot at nanatiling nakatikom ang bibig nya
"A-alam mo kung sino ako noong una pa lang di ba?"
"Yes..." mahinang ani nya
Napapikit ako nang mariin at tumingala. Oh God! This is so painful!
I wiped away my tears and strengthen myself. I need to be strong to get the answers that I want. To say the words I have for him. All my frustrations and pain
"W-why you didn't tell me?"
Please don't tell me because I didn't ask. Because if you really care even if I didn't, you'll open it up because it is important, it was part of the reason why I'm here
"Kapag sinabi kong kilala ko kung sino ka talaga, lalayo ka. Hindi mo ako hahayaang makalapit sayo" malamlam ang mga mata nya habang nakatitig sa akin
"You'd run away again"
"Natatakot kang tumakbo ulit ako palayo, natatakot ka kasi masisira ang plano mo" I suppressed my tears
"How much Carter? How tempting is his offer for you to decide to do this to me?" my hands turned into fists when he didn't give a word about it
"I-is it necessary to play with my feelings just to take me home?" nabasag muli ang boses ko
"How c-could you pretend that you love me---"
"Do you really think it was all pretend? That I didn't love you? Hindi mo ba naramdaman?" nagtagis ang panga nya
I smiled bitterly
"You're a good actor. You made me believe since the beginning. Don't blame me if I question that love you are talking about. Because for me it was nothing but a pretentious idea"
May dumaang sakit sa mga mata nya. What is that pain for, Carter? Para panindigan ang pagpapanggap mo?
"Alice..." he walked closer to me and reached for my hand
I shoved his hand away
"Don't touch me!" I exclaimed
"I love you and---"
"Shut up! If your definition of love is lie and pain then no thanks! There are people out there who truly loves me! I also love myself so shut up because I don't need your stupid love!" tinulak ko ang dibdib nya gamit ang mga palad. Siguro dahil sa panghihina ay napaatras sya at muntik ng matumba
BINABASA MO ANG
CDS 1: Blazing Desire
Roman d'amourR-18|Mature Content Alliciana Acosta ran away from home. She was sick from everything including her parents. Her father was pushing her for a pragmatic marriage and that's against her principles She found herself in a province which is very far from...
