Bleed out /// Wilbur x reader (fem)

Chapter 2 // getting to know you

//trigger warning for this chapter// 

you get a message... its Wilbur, you quickly press on the notification to see what he has said 

                                Wilbur :)

Wilbur: hey, it was nice talking to you today 

you: hey, it was nice talking to you too 

Wilbur: do you have a pc?

you: yeah I do 

Wilbur: do you have Minecraft?

you: yeah I do, why so many questions?

Wilbur: no reason :), what time are you going to sleep?

you: not sure why?

Wilbur: wanna play Minecraft with me?

you: yeah ofc let me get my pc set up :)

you download discord as he'd mentioned about it earlier, you quickly make an account and message him your username, he sends you a friend request, you quickly accept and hop into a call.

"hey" you say happily "hey are you okay?" he asks "yeah I'm okay, nights are the loneliest for me are you okay?" you explain "yeah I'm okay I'm glad I'm here to keep you company" he sympathised "thank you it means a lot Wilbur" you tell him "call me Will, we're friends you don't have to call me Wilbur" he says you can hear his smile "okay, Will" you explain with a big smile.

you think to yourself "he considers me as a friend" a wide smile makes its way onto your face  without you realising you gather your thoughts and log onto Minecraft, you and Wilbur start building houses and talking. you two talk about yourselves, you quickly learn that his favourite colour is teal, his favourite animal is an orca and that he is very interested in Geography.

"y/n tell me about yourself you haven't seemed to want to tell me about yourself but I'm interested" Wilbur says with slight concern "oh I never really talk about myself because it can become a really dark conversation and the last thing I want is to scare you away" you say tears almost filling your eyes, you quickly dry your eyes and compose yourself before he can respond. "but y/n you're not going to scare me off, I ask because I care, I want to know all the dark things because I'm your friend" he says the sadness becoming more prominent in his voice. you pause for a little.

"the thing is I'm a massive mess" you let out a little laugh to try and make it lighthearted "I have body image problems, I struggle with self harm and suicidal thoughts I've tried to take my life many times, this is why I don't have friends because it drives them away" you finish there realising you just let it slip out, you feel a tear roll down your face without realising you were tearing up. there was a big pause after you said that, he was thinking.

"y/n I know how you feel, is there anything I can do for you, I can try to help you. I want to help you after all that's what friends are for" Wilbur says with sympathy in his voice. you stayed quiet because you didn't know what to say, you never meant for that to slip out, you were going to keep that secret. 

"y/n you didn't mean to tell me that did you?" he says "no I didn't" you say timidly "its completely okay you know I'm not going anywhere. I want to help, you just need to tell me how I can help you" he says reassuringly  "just talk to me that's all I need I've spent so long alone with no one to talk to" you say tearing up again "so that's exactly what I will do, come on lets play continue playing Minecraft and talking so we can take your mind off it" he says lifting your spirits.

a couple hours go by when you realise its now 4 am, you finally feel calm and happier talking to Wilbur helped you he was so reassuring and kind. "hey will, I think I might go to sleep now if that's okay" you say with a smile "yeah that's okay you don't need to ask me you know, are you sure you'll be okay tonight" he says "yeah ill be okay" you say trying to reassure him, "okay message me if you need anything okay" he says gently "I will, thank you" you say "okay well I hope you sleep well. Goodnight y/n" he says calmly "goodnight will" you say smiling.

the call ends, you hop into bed and set some alarms you wanted to fix your sleep schedule so you set alarms to wake you up at 9 am. you put YouTube videos on to fall asleep to and within an hour you fall asleep.

~nightmare~

you have a nightmare about your ex and all the awful things he did to you, you're in his room and he's shouting at you. you notice your shaking and its hard to breathe, he starts pushing you around you can hear him shouting but you can't make out what he's saying until he grabs you and screams in your face "DO YOU UNDERSTAND" you nod not knowing what he's talking about. he shoves you on the floor.

you wake up suddenly and in a cold sweat, you look at the time and its 8 am. you don't try to go back to sleep, instead you get in the shower. you didn't put any music on this time you forgot too, you just wanted a quick shower. the nightmare made you unmotivated you didn't want to do anything but stare at your wall all day. 

as you get out the shower you get a message from Wilbur.

                             wilbur :)

Wilbur: good morning, did you sleep well?

You: yeah. it was ok

Wilbur: are you sure? that message seemed a little blunt

You: yeah sorry I had a nightmare that's all

Wilbur: that's okay, would you like to talk about it?

You: not right now if that's okay

Wilbur: yeah that's okay if you need me, message me I have band practice ill speak to you soon

You: okay I hope you enjoy it

Wilbur: I will thank you, take care 

after your conversation with Wilbur you went to get a coffee because your urges were getting really bad, you pick up your favourite coffee and go for a walk down Brighton pier.

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authors notes

hi guys I hope you enjoyed the 2nd chapter I'm really excited to write the rest I have a lot planned for this I hope you're just as excited let me know what you think. Remember to take care of yourselves, eat if you haven't and don't forget to drink water.

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