Bleed out /// Wilbur x reader (fem)

Chapter 5 // spending time with you

~trigger warning for this chapter~

Wilbur is outside and you're wearing an oversized t-shirt and yoga pants, as you make your way down to the reception you can't help but smile at the fact he wanted to spend more time with you. You finally had a good friend all your other friends were two faced and toxic, as your walking out the doors you realise that you didn't get a jacket and your scars and fresh cuts were out, you crossed your arms attempting to cover them up as you know it was too late to go back up to your room because Wilbur had already seen you and was walking over.

You carry on with the plans you made with Wilbur, you hope that he doesn't notice you're really hopeful because it was dark outside and you were only going for a walk. As you're making conversation with him he mentions that he wants to take you somewhere, he mentions that he likes to go there when he's anxious so you accept and follow him.

As you make your way to the place he wants to take you, you notice that its beach and he walks over to a pile of logs and asks you if you mind if he lights a fire, you say that its okay because if you said no he would know something was wrong, you sit on the ground and start talking about anything to make sure he doesn't notice your arms. it was going well until you notice him look down at your arms.

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~Wilbur's POV~

I looked down at y/n's arms because something caught my attention, I know she mentioned struggling with self harm but I didn't know it was this bad. I wanted to mention it but I know that is the wrong thing to do with someone who struggles with self harm. As she saw that I had noticed I hear her let out a sad sigh "I'm sorry I completely forgot to put a jacket on I was rushing to get ready" she said with sadness in her voice "no its okay, why didn't you tell me it got this bad" I say to her holding back tears, I really cared for her more than i'd cared for anyone. "I didn't say because you would ask me why" she says as a tear rolls down her cheek "I wouldn't because its up to you if you tell me" I say reassuring her. there's a long pause.

I thought she was going to stop talking until she sniffled and said "I do it because I hate myself I can't stand looking in the mirror, I punish my body because its not good enough, I wish I was normal and didn't do this" she says now crying her eyes out, "you don't need to hate yourself, you're gorgeous and anybody would be so lucky to have you." I say as I wipe her tears and pull her into a hug.

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~Your POV~

As he called me gorgeous I got the feeling of butterflies in my stomach which was weird I haven't felt that in so long but I only thought of Wilbur as a friend I was stunned. I couldn't speak, as he hugged me I whispered "thank you so much" I could only whisper, I felt weak with this feeling of butterflies mixed with sadness and confusion.

Eventually I got my thoughts and feelings gathered and we sat there for about 2 hours talking about your self harm struggles and how he could help you, it seemed he really wanted to help so you and him come up with a plan, he would check in with you everyday. you realise how late it was and told Wilbur it was now 4 am and your train was at 7am, you both decided to head back to your hotels. Wilbur walked you to the hotel you were staying at and then walked back to his.

You made the decision to not go to sleep, there was no point your train was in 3 hours. You hopped in the shower and spent an hour thinking in there. when you get out you chose your outfit for the day and laid on your bed waiting for Niki to wake up.

Niki wakes up around 45 minutes later and starts getting ready, before you know it time flies by and your getting your stuff ready to lave and get the train. As you get to the train station you have 10 minutes to kill so you walk to the Starbucks that's not far from where you are, as you're walking you're talking to Niki who's just behind you and you bump into Wilbur, you weren't paying attention and didn't even see him walking towards you. You bump into him and turn around abruptly saying sorry over and over again "y/n its okay don't worry about it". "how do you know my-" you look up and see that its Wilbur, your cheeks turn a crimson red. 

You say sorry trying to cover your cheeks, he giggles "where are you guys going" he says in a sweet voice. "where just going to Starbucks" you say still blushing "do you mind if I come along my train is in 10 minutes I have time to kill" he says. "yeah of course" you and Niki say together. "you're getting the same train as us I think" you say "that's great" he says happily.

A 30 minute train journey later and you're home as your getting of the train there are so many people pushing past you and shoving you, you stand closer to Wilbur to feel a little bit safer as he directs you out of the crowd you get a phone call from an unknown number...

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author's notes

hi everyone I hope your all enjoying the story thank you for reading it means a lot, also im sorry for the short chapter I will get chapter 6 out later today its currently 4:30 am for me I stayed up writing this but I will put the next one out in a few hours. make sure you remember to eat and drink some water I care about you all I love you stay safe

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