Abused

24| ABUSED

It was a few days after and today was the day Ellis was going to see Meredith for the first time since she had woken up. Meredith was finally ready to see Ellis as she felt more comfortable and at ease.

Meredith was sitting in her bed reading a book when she heard a soft knock on the door. It still made her flinch but not as much as it used to. The door slowly opened to where she could see Derek walk into the room.

"Hey" he smiled walking towards her.

"Hi" she gave a small smile.

"How do you feel?" he asked before placing a kiss on her forehead before pulling down the sidebar and sitting next to her.

"I feel fine. I'm a little tired though" she sighed as she placed her hand on her chest after closing the book and setting it down on the side table.

"Are you okay? We can reschedule if you need" he said as he gently picked Meredith up a bit and placed her down next to him, wrapping his arm around her back.

"No. No, I want to see Ellis today. I've missed her so much even when I was in a coma. I want to see her" she said as she started breathing through her mouth, laying her head down on Derek's chest.

"Okay, if you think you're ready then we can see her," he said as he rubbed his hand over her head.

"What happened to Ellis when I was... asleep?" She asked picking up her head and resting her face in the crook of his neck, breathing softly as she felt his Pulse against her forehead.

"I took care of her, she spent the nights in my office as did I. She coloured then she would ask about you, and when she met Ella she always played with her, she still does. But she wouldn't ask about you as much and I think that was because she wasn't sure if you were going to wake up and didn't want to ask. After all, she was scared I was going to say that you wouldn't. I think she was scared you were gonna die, we all did" He told her.

"Thank you, thank you for taking care of her for me. You didn't have to do that" she said as she teared up.

"I wanted to, in that time I really noticed how similar you two are, your giggle, your hair, your smile, your face, your stubbornness. She got it all from you" he smiled.

"I'm glad she's more me than she is Finn" she sighed playing with the collar of Derek's blue button-up shirt that had three buttons undone.

"You're okay with talking about him?" Derek asked a bit shocked that she had mentioned his name.

"No, not really" she closed her eyes "I just had dreams about him when I was asleep," she said in a shaky voice.

"What were the dreams about?" He whispered

"I don't want to talk about right now"

"That's okay, you can tell me when your ready" he whispered back and kissed her head before running his fingers through her hair with the hand that wasn't wrapped around her stomach.

"Please don't hold me there" she looked down at his right hand that rested on her larger belly before pushing it off.

"Sorry" he whispered and wrapped it around her waist, just a bit higher than her stomach.

"Is this okay?" He asked

"Yea, I'm just going to figure out of to lose the weight without being able to get out of this bed" she sighed before nuzzling her face back into the crook of his neck.

Derek was thinking about asking Meredith if she thought she was pregnant but he didn't want to scare her or but any thoughts in her head that would stress her out, she had enough on her mind the number one being losing the eight that she had gained while in a coma.

"Do you wanna take a nap before Ellis comes?" He asked noticing her eyes shutting and her breathing steadied.

"Mmhmm" she hummed, she bent her neck a bit to his throat softly before cuddling closer into Derek, wrapping her arms around his waist.

"Let's lie you down" he whispered picking her up and gently laying her back down.

"No, I want you to stay" she pouted as he was about to get out of bed.

"Okay, but tell me if I'm hurting you or making you uncomfortable," he said before laying down. She cuddled back into his warm embrace and nuzzled her face between his throat and chest.

"And one of the nurses will be coming in here soon to change your bandage" he whispered as she started to drift off to sleep.

He manoeuvred himself so he was laying on his back comfortably either Meredith still tightly cuddled into him. He also noticed she was much more attached to him than she was before. He figured it was because he was the first one she saw when she woke up.

He gently picked up her arm and looked at the thick bandaging that was wrapped around her arm and hand, he wondered what was going through her mind when she did that to herself. The pain she was feeling. How terrified she must have been about something when she decided to do something like that with something just as simple as a fork.

They now had to be very careful about what they left around or what utensils they gave her when being her food. He thought more about the dreams Meredith had when she was asleep, she said they were about Finn which automatically meant they were bad dreams rather than good dreams.

He gently rubbed her back leaning down to press a kiss to her shoulder trailing soft kisses up to her cheek, resting his face in her warm neck as he started to feel sleepy himself.

He closed his eyes and began to drift off to sleep at the comfort of her being awake and being with her, finally being able to talk to her and her being able to say something back.

The one thing Meredith being in a coma taught him was that they didn't have all the time in the world and if he wanted something real with Meredith they were going to have to get through this and he was going to have to build up the courage to tell her how he really felt. He wasn't quite sure if she saw him as nothing but a good friend or if she felt the same way.
The reason she was being so clingy could have just been because she was scared and needed someone but he hoped that it was more than that.

His mind then went back to the fact that she could be pregnant. He had asked Addison about the ultrasound but she didn't seem to want to tell him much, all she had said was that it was best for Meredith to hear it first and that if it was okay with Meredith he could be there as well.

He had then asked her if Meredith was pregnant he remembered Addison's face drop when he said that and that had just confirmed his question.