It was the next day and Meredith still slept in her bed which was something she had to do to be doing a lot now for her to recover from her injuries. She had still had some bruises most of her cuts had healed but her incision still needed some more time to heal.
Derek wanted to talk to Meredith Today about the marks on her wrist but he would wait until she was alone and not with Ellis. Today Meredith's mother was taking Ellis to the park which Meredith wasn't too sure about it because she didn't want Ellis getting taken.
Meredith had told her mother, Derek and Addison that she wasn't going to allow it but Ellis promised her that she wouldn't let her out of her sight and eventually Meredith didn't want to argue anymore so she gave in, but she prayed that Ellis would be safe.
Meredith had slept the entire night as did Ellis but just in Derek's lap, and Derek slept on the chair it wasn't too comfortable but he would deal with the back pain another time. Right now he needed to speak to Meredith.
He walked down the hallway and slowly opened the door and saw Meredith sitting in her bed reading a book.
"Hey" he whispered
"Hey" she looked over to him and smiled a bit.
"I needed to talk to you," he said as he sat down in the chair next to her bed.
"What about?" She asked as she closed her book and placed it on the side table.
"It's about last night," he said as he leaned forward and put his hands together
"Okay," she replied as she leaned back and pulled her knees up and turned to the side so she was facing him.
"Last night when I brought Ellis back down here after she fell asleep in my office after she coloured I tucked you both in and I saw a few red marks on you're right wrist," he said as he watched her face went white
"What?" She asked in disbelief
"I decided to ignore it and figured that you just had an accident and ended up hurting yourself, but when I went to fluff you're pillow I found the fork that you put behind there," he said as he looked up at her from where he was sitting.
Meredith didn't say anything because she didn't want to lie but she also didn't want to tell the truth.
"You can't do this to yourself, Meredith, you have so much to live for, you're an amazing surgeon in both general and neuro not many people can do both, you're an amazing mother to Ellis and you're the most gorgeous woman person I've ever seen in my entire life, you shouldn't do that to yourself" he as she looked back at him with tears in her eyes.
"It's not that I want to hurt myself I just feel like.." she started
"Like you deserve it?" He helped her
"Yea, I married a terrible man and let him hurt me to a point where it hurt my daughter and I wish I hadn't done that," she said
"The only good thing that came from being with Finn is Ellis I just wished that her conception was a good memory" she sighed as a tear rolled down her cheek.
"I know, but at least she looks like you" he smiled
"Yea" she smiled back. Meredith was also very thankful that Ellis looked exactly like her rather than her looking like Finn, she would still love Ellis of course, but it would just be hard having to look at his face on an innocent child. She was also very thankful that she had a girl rather than a boy, she would love to have a boy maybe one day, but not with Finn with his blood he would have turned out doing the same thing Finn was doing to her. Even tho Finn was in prison and she knew that everything that happened was still eating away at her and it would be hard to cope with it all.
"It is almost time for your breakfast, will you eat?" He asked her
"Yea" she smiled even tho she knew she wouldn't.
Right as then Ellis started to stir awake. She sat up and cuddled into Meredith's chest.
"Do you breakfast, Ellie?" Derek asked her
"Yea" she whispered
"Is it okay if I take her to get something to eat outside of the hospital?" He asked
"Yea, I don't want her having to eat hospital food," Meredith said as Derek stood up and carried her in his arms.
"Derek?" Meredith said before he left the room
"Yes?" He said as he turned to look at her
"Can you bring mine and Ellis' suitcases here from my hotel?" She asked shyly
"Of course, were the key?" He smiled
"It's in my bag," she said as he took the hotel key from the bag and kissed Meredith on the forehead before leaving with Ellis leaving Meredith alone in the room.
Derek was out taking Ellis to breakfast while Meredith sat in front of her breakfast that the nurse had brought her. She wanted to eat but she also didn't, she knew she should but she also shouldn't.
She waited until the nurse left and then waited a bit before taking the fork and putting it in a napkin and putting it under her mattress and then paged a nurse.
"You paged, Meredith?" The nurse asked as she came back into the room
"Yes, you Umm, didn't give me a fork" Meredith smiled a bit
"Oh sorry, I thought I did. I'll go get you one" the nurse smiled and left the room to get her another fork.
once the nurse left she put the food in the napkin once again and threw it in the trash and took some tissues from the side table and crumbled it up and threw it on top of the food that was in the trash.
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Abused
Fanfictw: mention of physical and verbal abuse and maybe physical abuse and mention of rape Meredith is a 33 year old surgeon who is new Seattle grace she is the new head of general who is married to her husband who isn't very fond of moving away from Bo...
