ambit. [hs au]

Chapter 34

A/N: Friendly reminder we're back to Birdie's P.O.V :)

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"Fucking nothing, I guess."

The words I spoke are still echoing in my mind as I get back to the VIP lounge, the loud music beating in the nightclub now suddenly making me uncomfortable.

Buzzing through my veins, the alcohol is still making me dizzy, but not nearly as much as I would like to be right now. I want to go fucking numb out of my mind, but at the same time, I also know it's not happening tonight; tonight, I just want to go home.

I guess that's what fucking happens when you try and plan things out; everything blows up in your face. I mean, I didn't actually plan anything, but I did have expectations. I expected to arrive this fucking club, maybe dance a little, laugh with my best friend, meet Harry and taste those sinful lips of his again. I expected to maybe fucking go back home with him again, and experiment that high only he can provide me.

But of course, I was fucking wrong.

Not only did he choose to be with another woman tonight, but he also said it to my face; he doesn't want to be seen with me.

I mean, why would he, really? It's not like I can even blame him, for fucks sake. I wouldn't want to be seen with a fucking whale like myself, especially when everybody knows the type of meat I'm used to eat.

He wants to be related to women like Vivien. Skinny, blonde, tiny. Women that looks great in any outfit, that looks like fucking models. Of-fucking-course he would be ashamed of being affiliated to someone who looks like me.

My eyes get blurred suddenly, but I blink the freaking tears away. I'm not fucking crying, not tonight, not in here. He doesn't fucking deserve it. Taking a deep breath, I plaster a smile on my face, stepping inside of the VIP room, and the first thing I acknowledge is Sadie and Luke glued to each other, their mouths attached to one another like their lives depend on it, bodies tangled like a damn puzzle.

Oh, for fucks sake. Is this night being written by Stephen Fucking King?

I mean, I know I gave them the green light, but it still feels awkward. I guess it's just because I was just dumped by the guy I thought I was dumping Luke for.

"Hey, where were you?" A blue-haired figure practically jumps right in front of me, not giving me time to react to the new couple, and I blink several times to focus on Josh's face, only inches away from mine. "I missed you." He says, the liquor in his breath making me dizzy.

"Hi, I was, uh... At the loo," I mumble, taking a step back, suddenly not at all in the mood for his flirtation.

"Cool, wanna drink?" He asks, giggling his eyebrows.

I give him a tight-lipped smile, "I'm good for tonight, thanks."

"Really?" He raises his eyebrows, looking disappointed. "Come on, kitten, let's have some fun," he grabs my hand, tugging me with him.

"Yeah, no," I shake my head, jerking my wrist from his touch. "Thanks, though."

He steps closer to me, not getting affected, and sneaks a hand down to my waist. Huffing, I slap his hand away. "Hey, just don't, okay?" I hiss, glaring at him dead in the eye, and he shrugs, mumbling a quick whatever under his breath and walking away without looking back.

Suddenly, I feel too exhausted. I just wanna leave.

Taking a deep breath, I stride towards Sadie and Luke. Though I definitely don't want to interrupt them, I really need to talk to her; we agreed I was going to spend the next few days with her at the hotel she's staying at, and I'm going back there right now. I don't think she'll want to go back with me, and that's okay, Luke can take her back later.