cry for me, jakehoon.

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꒰ chapter thirty six ꒱

"i want to love you." niki mumbled, tears rolling down his cheeks as sunoo tried pushing him away.

"you can't! you won't be able to deal with me! you'll leave me!" sunoo said, shaking his head, closing his eyes shut.

the two boys were currently arguing, and it all started with niki seeing sunoo cry. the dry tear stains were showing, and his puffy eyes were noticeable, but the thing is, he's scared what if niki was just like sunghoon?

"just go away! i don't need you anymore!" sunoo said, glaring at the boy who tried holding onto the boys hands.

"you're useless to me! i seriously don't love you!" sunoo said, niki then managed to hold onto the olders hand.

"please, i want to help you... i want to be there for you." niki pleaded.

this was the first time someone has ever begged to stay. "what's so special about me! there's really nothing!"

"you know that i'm a monster! you know it!" sunoo shouted, holding in the tears that wanted to fall. "the stuff i did to you! i hurt you and you still love me.."

"i did everything just so you could hate me, i wanted to make you suffer! but why are you here! why are you here again!" the boys voice cracked, he was getting choked up by the tears, he wanted to cry.. he needed to cry, but not infront of him.

"niki, we don't deserve each other, we were never meant to be." the boy bit his lip, his voice became quiet and his head lowered.

it should've never been
us in the first place.

but why do i feel something
when i'm with you...

niki placed his hand on the boys chin, and gave the boy a little peck to calm him down.

their eyes met and sunoo immediately felt comfort, he always noticed the way niki would stare at him, it wasn't a stare of disgust especially since he had hurt the younger multiple times, but it was eyes full of trust, it confused sunoo, it truly did.

"i know what you did was shitty but it was because someone in the past hurt you, you're in denial because of what they have done to you. "

i know how it feels to
love the wrong person.

"baby, if i wanted to leave, then i would've but i trust you." niki says as he caressed the boys warm face.

"i trust that you can change, i truly do, i see it right through your broken eyes, your eyes tell a heartbreaking story."

my whole life... it wasn't a mess until i got hooked up into euijoo and jakes mess.

"i just don't know who i am anymore.." sunoo let out, a tear rolling down his face as he began to wail, loud sobs and whimpers filled the silent room while niki comforted the boy with a hug.

"sunoo, you can still be good, it's not too late to tell someone about what's bothering you."

it's because of jake... no scratch that...

it's all because of euijoo..

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sunghoon smirked, pressing send as he shut jakes phone off, and stared at his lover peacefully sleep.

he would only love me if i become even more stronger. sunghoon smiled, pecking the boys cheek as he put his head on the boys chest, hearing the boys heartbeats.

sooner or later-... he giggled at the thought that ran through his head.

he knew he was crazy, he already knew it, just not too long ago he was just so done with the world he did not care a bit but that was when jake came into the picture.. jake completely brought sunghoon back to his old days, the older just motivated him just by his charming moves, he truly loved jake... or did he.

the world is filled with so many lies, and some people are just good actors, just like both jake and sunghoon, manipulating each other back and fourth, gaslighting each other and fighting for dominance.

"we are perfect for each other."

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