Chapter 48

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by tippilanea7x

by tippilanea7x

Matt's POV

In hindsight, I would have done everything differently, I never would have suggested to Ana that we try for another baby, looking back now, I really wished I hadn't.

Ana was a wreck. The whole way through this labor she was only concerned about the baby and me, and she was being so brave and strong, I loved her so much more for that.
I felt helpless watching her, she was in so much pain and I did everything I could to make it better for her.
"Are you ready?" I whispered in here ear as she was getting comfortable.
It was time, soon our baby was going to be born, we were going to become a family.
"I'm ready." She whispered back and I kissed her, this amazing woman whom I loved more than anything else in the world.
I should have told her that then, I should have told her that every minute we were there in that labor room. I just should have told her.
The midwife got ready and I held onto Ana, helping her get comfortable.
We waited and waited and nothing happened, Ana was getting upset, but finally, finally she gripped my hand and started pushing.
I should have stopped everything there and taken her home, forget the baby, we didn't really need one.

I could only imagine the pain she was in, I could see it in her face, I could hear it in her voice. There wasn't a thing I didn't know about Ana.
"Okay Ana, now relax." The midwife directed.
Ana layed back and closed her eyes, breathing deeply.
"You're doing so well." I whispered kissing her.
Those kisses I'll cherish forever, and her smile, I could never forget her smile.
"Our baby will be here soon." She whispered.
Yes, yes it would.
It was time again and Ana began pushing again. It was a long cycle of Ana pushing and resting, pushing and resting.
The door opened and another midwife walked in, looking.
"It won't be long now Ana." She said, and I watched her.
I watched her lean over and say something quietly to the other nurse, then I watched her leave.
"I have to push again." Ana groaned, grabbing my hand.
"Ana, I need you to hold off for a minute."
But Ana couldn't, she couldn't stop it and she sat up again and pushed.
"Ana, you need to close your eyes and relax." I could sense the worry in her voice. "Matthew, can you do me a favor and press that button behind Ana's head."
I looked, it was the call button and I pushed it , and even as I pushed it I knew something wasn't right, as the door flew open and the doctors started coming in I knew something wasn't right and as I looked down and saw all the blood, I knew something wasn't right.
"Push Ana." The doctor commanded.
She looked at me and she smiled.
"Don't baby." I whispered. "Please don't push, don't do this anymore."
She gripped my hand. "You'll be okay Matt." She whispered. "You'll be fine."
I stood there listening to Ana crying, listening to the doctor's yelling and then listening to our daughter cry and I knew then I wasn't fine. I'd never be fine again.