Best Friends! Really? Part Two (Avenged Sevenfold)

Chapter 20

How horrible, poor Jim. I felt bad for him, what kind of a woman would do that. We stayed at Brian's pretty late, I was tired and worried about Sophie, I don't know, she just didn't seem herself, maybe getting worse.

God, I was sick of worrying about everyone else, I was the one getting married very soon, I should probably be worrying about that.

"I'm going to bed." I told Matt, heading upstairs, he seemed quiet and off too.

I got ready and was so happy too climb into bed, I just started drifting off when Matt came in, he went into the bathroom then got into bed.

I rolled over and looked at him in the dark.

"Hey." I said, snuggling up to him.

"Hey you." He wrapped his arms around me.

"You okay?" I asked him.

"Hmmm yeah, just thinking about Jim."

"Yeah, she told me she was sick of the whole band thing." I would tell Matt, but no way was I telling anyone else.

"She did? In what way?"

"She was sick of him coming home late, drunk, running off when someone called."

He layed there and didn't say anything.

"Matt, what's wrong?" His silence was bothering me.

"Well she's right really isn't she, I mean we all do it." He rolled onto his back. "It's not fair on any of you."

What? What the fuck did he mean? "What do you mean?"

"Come on Ana, your life revolves around me." He was getting snappy. "And don't lie and say it doesn't, it does."

"What are you saying Matt?" He was beginning to scare me.

"It's not fair on you is it? Why should you have to wait around for me?"

"Matthew stop it, please."

"Why? I'm only telling the truth, maybe if Jim realised it, it wouldn't have been such a shock."

Fuck.

"I don't know Ana, maybe we shouldn't get married."

There it was, what I was waiting for, I knew it was coming. "You don't want to marry me?" I whispered.

"What?" He turned back towards me. "No Ana, fuck no, that came out wrong, I mean maybe you should marry someone else."

"How could you even say that." I cried.

"Argh fuck, what am I even saying."He started kissing my face. "I couldn't live without you, I just don't want you to wake up one day and do what Lilah did."

"Matt I would never, I could never, why would you even say that?"

"I just want you to be happy." He murmured.

"I am, with you, I don't want to be with anyone else but you." I kissed him.

"Good, thank fuck, I really mean it, I can't live without you." He'd been so insecure lately.

"It's settled then, we're still getting married."

"Yes we are and we will live happily ever after." He kissed me this time.

I giggled. "I hope so."

"We will. Now what is under this shirt." He whispered, sliding his hand up there. "Oh my god Ana, nothing."

I layed there laughing while he pulled my shirt off.