Monster ≫ h.s

1.4

🎵 mad hatter by Melanie Martinez

m a i s y

"It's okay, m-maybe I could try again." I said looking down.

His jaw was clenched as he looked at me from the couch, he looked so very tired. He shook his head repeatedly. He simply nodded, I resumed my position in his lap, he found his lips to the exposed crook of my neck quickly. I let out a gasp, as a sharp pain traveled through my neck. I pushed against him, after a few seconds he released me once more.

"I...should start learning how to compose myself better around you."he stated.

I nodded before sitting down beside him, I fiddled with my hands looking down. Quite frankly, I was still a little embarrassed by the whole situation. He had this look on his face, and I couldn't explain it if I tried.

"Can I be honest with you?" he asked.

"Haven't you always?"I countered.

He simply nodded before continuing, "Well of course, but- I want to share some things with you. Things that you won't particularly like to hear. But you need to hear them nonetheless...understood?" he spoke.

"Yes."

"As you might already know, I'm involved in a very dangerous, dark, illegal trade. I'm in charge and I hold the power. I'm very important in this industry, which makes you very important as well. Not only to my men but other men as well, your a target. A weakness to myself, I'll admit it, because its true. And if we're being honest, you could very well be my downfall. "

"I don't want to be." I responded.

"Well you are, and I'll be honest...I've done horrible things, would you care to venture what they could be. I won't hide anything, its no use." he said.

"You said...before- that you killed people." I responded uneasily.

He clasped his hands rubbing them together, "I have killed, to get answers and revenge. I've killed people in self-defense, and for pleasure."

I looked up at his last remark. I swallowed the saliva that I had unconsciously saved up in my mouth. I tried to steady my foot that wouldnt stop fidgeting.

"Pleasure?"I repeated.

"Precisly, I told you I wasn't a good man. It gives me a small amount of amusement and I don't know exactly why. Maybe the way they scream, the way life seeps through them. The power, its an exhilerating feeling. Its not right, I'm in no way justifying what I do, but it helps me."

I shifted uncomfortably, "You, you are evil, a little crazy to be honest."

"The best people are." He laughed.

"B-but it's wrong." I whispered.

Harry had a gleam of something in his eye, I couldn't place it, "Angel theres a lot of wrong in this world. Theres tons of fucked up stuff happening every single day, Consider it a favor, ehh?"

"Would you do me a favor?" I asked.

His smile dropped and his eyes darkened, "No, as much as I should, as good as you are for a world like this...I couldnt. No- anyone else...but I would keep you. I'm a bad person Maisy, I am evil, and I've done much worse than kill."

"Oh."

I truly didn't want to have this conversation but he kept pressing on. I didn't want to know all of this, it would only lessen my apprecation of him, make me think of him as a-a monster.

But isn't he a monster? A cold blooded killer whom receives pleasure from death, from the loss of a life, wouldn't that make him a monster? Wouldn't it?

Yes, he was a monster, and the darkest kind. The kind who lured you in with desire and lust, whom let you believe in safety and comfort when destruction and heart ache was his only goal. A disguise.

"Do you find me repulsive?" He asked.

"I'm not entirely sure, in a way. I think your insane, really I do. A sane person couldn't find pleasure in doing evil things. You're not right and your mind set scares me. I find you unpredictable, and that's an issue."

"Is it really?" He asked baffled.

His tone of voice implied that he didn't care what I thought, truthfully it sounded like he was mocking me and I didn't appreciate it in the least.

"Yes." I said loudly.

His laughter once again filled the room. I was beginning to be annoyed by his presence, normally I was so calm. He was always so caring and sweet when we were alone...but today he was harsh and unforgiving to the poor souls he had taken.

He grabbed my wrist yanking me closer to him. My eyes widened in fear, and I felt the exhale of his breath on my neck.

"Don't raise your voice at me ever again! Do you understand? If you ever do something like that I'll punish you." He growled.

I closed my eyes, I didn't trust myself to sound confident as I spoke?

"Do you understand" he said with great intensity.

"Yes."

"Good, you want to know something else angel. . Just earlier I thought about fucking  you senseless but I decided not to. I can make good decisions when I want."

The thought of him forcing himself upon me was scary. I know I wouldn't have been able to stop him. My size and power against his was near nothing. I shuddered thanking whatever changed his mind.

"anyway, I'll make an attempt for you. I'm attracted to it....the darkness."

I shook my head disagreeing with his statement, "no Harry I don't think your attracted, I think you are the darkness."

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Chapter inspired by ahs. I'm excited as hell for : AHS HOTEL YES LETS GO IM READY

But First of all this is disgusting, the writing sucks in this chapter, but I badly needed to update so I apologize for that. Second of all I Had strep throat and honestly felt like I was going to die so I took a break to make sure my mental/physical health was okay.

I've missed you, seriously don't hate me to much, I already feel like crap for making you guys wait so long. I'll try to keep the updates coming regularly from. Now on much love as always.

Oz.