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17: Sick

IAN's POV

Hindi ko alam na panandalian lang ang saya na 'yon. Things passed by real quick. Nagdaan na agad ang isang taon na nagt-trabaho ako sa Maynila.

"Sabi ko nga, 'wag na. Ang kulit nitong si Mavrix. Parang walang tiwala e 'no?"

Tumawa ako kay Ino. "May okay 'yan! Para sure..."

Tumango siya at nag-isip. "Ikaw?"

Nagkibit balikat ako.

Kung sasampa ako sa barko, mas maraming mangyayari. Kaso ngayong may naghihintay sa akin, parang hindi pa ako handa. I'm in a good relationship right now. Maayos rin ang trabaho. I don't have any goals aside from waiting for my mother to completely heal. Gusto ko rin dito dahil kay Mark. Masaya.

"Hindi ko alam. Ayos naman dito."

"Ayos nga. Pero alam mo 'yun... mas maganda doon. Makakapagtravel kahit papaano. Ay sus. Ayaw mo humiwalay sa jowa mo!"

Tumawa ako. "Wow, ha. Palibhasa magkasama kayo ni Mav e. Edi kayo na!"

I am genuinely happy for them. Mabuti nga si Ino, alam na alam kung anong gusto niya. May plano at handang handa ilaan ang oras para sa bagay na gusto niya. Dati, ni wala akong alam sa mga bagay.

Nang magkaisip ako, nakuryoso ako sa ginagawa ni Mama. I wanted to become a tour guide like her so I started doing it in high school. Nang magkasakit siya at tumira kanila Tita, I noticed how Ino help the business so I did it too. I like that simple life, I even wanted to have my own resort so I took my course. That turned out to be good. I eventually liked it and I found out the likes. But that's because I like learning new things. I wonder if I'll continue doing this? Just keep on exploring? Even without a destination. Just going with the flow for the time being.

I thought things will just be as it is.

Ayos lang naman na ganitong halos isa hanggang tatlong beses lang sa isang taon ang uwi ko sa probinsya. Akala ko ayos lang na ganoon kasi wala naman akong ibang iintindihin.

"Tita?" Balisa ako nang makarating sa Ospital.

I immediately took an emergency leave when I heard the news. Nanlumo ako nang makita ko si Mama na nakahiga na naman sa puting kama. She was fine a few months ago!

Suminghap ako bago nilingon si Tita.

She looked so worried, I noticed that she's still crying.

"Cardiac arrest po? Tita, pagaling na si Mama bakit..."

Umiling siya.

Hindi ko maintindihan kasi unti-unti na bumabalik ang pagsasalita ni Mama. She was near on being normal even if she's hopeless to walk properly.

I was so confused and worried.

My Mom almost died this time. The doctor said that if she woke up and have a heart attack or stroke again, it might be her last. She's so weak right now. Baka hindi na raw kayanin kung aatakihin pa ulit.

I was crying the whole night in the Hospital.

I didn't know what caused her shock. She's always calm as the sea. But when a huge waves crash, she could wrath as the thunder. I am being harsh to myself just by thinking about negative things.

Wala pa ako sa wisyong bumalik sa trabaho. I even wanted to take a break but we need money right now.

Walang pahinga sa loob ng isang linggo, I accepted offers from VIP guests even when I'm devastated. I even exchanged schedules.

Working hard for my mom's recovery, I thought she would be fine without me.

Akala ko lang pala.

Bumalik agad ako pagtapos ng isang linggo dahil ooperahan si Mama ngayon. I can't believed Mark will know about what happened. Bumisita siya sa Apartment dahil naramdaman niya sigurong pagod ako lagi at hindi siya kinokontak pabalik. He's not busy so he keeps on lurking in the Hotel the whole week.