The Maze Runner imagines

63//Newt

Please don't read if you suffer from depression or suicidal thoughts.. This chapter deeply touches over these subjects and could be a trigger,keep that in mind.

"Y/N?" Your boyfriend Newt's voice calls as he walks to you and finds you under one if the beds,wi tears in your eyes "Y/N.. You've been scaring me recently.. What's going on?"
"I'm so alone Newt.."

He lies down so he's beside you,just not under the bed.

"You're okay Y/N."
"No I'm not."
"Why didn't you tell me this. You said to me you were fine."
"I'm telling you now,I know you're the only person I can trust."
"Y/N nothing bad is going to happen,I'm going to take care of you."
"It's too hard."
"Here."

He pulls you out from the bed and you fall into his arms,your limp body not being able to barely move so he carries you to the forest,lying you down in a field of flowers as he lies next to you.

"Can't you hear that?" You whisper.
"What?"
"Grievers."
"Y/N,we're safe here."
"No I can hear them."

The roars and clanks rattle round your brain..

"Y/N."
"Can't you hear them?"
"Y/N there's no Grievers so cut it out."
"NO!" You scream,cupping your hands over your ears as you start to cry "You... You almost died."
"Y/N I'm okay now."
"I'm too scared."
"There's nothing to be scared of." He holds you tighter against him as you start to cry.
"I love you Newt.. I. Love you so much."
"I love you too,just talk to me,I'll make it all better."
"How can you do that.. How can anyone possibly shucking do that!?"
"Y/N,please."
"I'm not strong like I was before,this place has made me weak."
"What can I do?"
"I need to go to the bathroom,I'll see you soon."

You kiss him then walk away,locking yourself in one of the stalls as you crash against the wall,sinking down to your feet as you cry,louder and louder.

"Y/N!" Alby yells knocking on the door "Can you come out please?"
"I'm busy!" You cry "Leave me alone."
"Now Y/N."

You open the door to see him standing there,he smiles at you peacefully.

"You want to tell me what's going on Y/N?"
"No."
"You need to stop scaring us.. Newt's going out of his mind."
"I can't!" You push past him and run to the Maze walls,just about to run in as Winston and Gally grab you,holding you back.
"STOP IT!" You yell "I WANT TO BE HURT.. I WANT TO BE GONE!"
"You don't mean it.." Winston says.
"Yes I do."

As Newt runs to him he holds you tight in his arms as you feel him cry into your shoulder..

"It's okay.." He whispers,stroking your hair "Y/N it's all gonna be bloody okay."
"How can you promise that?"
"Because bad things aren't meant to happen to beautiful people."
"I'm not beautiful."
"Yes you are."

As you feel the tears fall down your face he scoops you up and carries you to the homestead,lying you down on the hammock then getting a blanket and pulling it up to your chin.

"I'll be back in a second Y/N." He says,stroking back a loose strand of your hair "Stay here love."
"Yes Newt." You whisper as he gently kisses your fore-head then walks away,so you just lie there as you notice Minho,your friend,walking up to you.
"Everything okay?"
"I don't know.. But thank you Minho."
"Just watch out for Newt. He's not completely stable,I never knew why."
"I do.. He tried to kill himself,I was there when he did. He had to rebuild himself,had to re-discover everything again-How to laugh,how to smile,how to love me."
"Just stay strong for him Y/N."
"That's why I'm still here."
"See you later."
"Bye Minho."

He walks away and Newt comes back with food as he hands it to you.

"Thanks Newt."
"That's okay."

Once you've finished he curls into your arms,as you hold him tightly,never wanting to let him go as you let your eyes close.. Ready to face another day,as long as he had hold of your hand.

Okay so yesterday night I watched a film (Jack,Jules,Esther and me) It had Alex Flores (Winston) in as he main character and OMG,he is so amazing. His acting had me in tears. The movie understands the struggles I sometimes face and was amazing and relatable.. It really made me smile.

I don't know if I should watch Insurgent or not.. Hmm...