Collin
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Ever since I was ten years old, I've felt myself floating outside my body.
I'm disconnected from this body I'm supposed to live in. I have no connection to this world anymore.
Everything hurts. My head and my eyes. Fuck, it's so cold.
I want so badly to want to be here for her. I wish I was strong enough. I really fucking do.
I don't want to hurt her. She makes me selfless. God, there is nothing I wouldn't do for her.
If she asked me for a fucking star, I would do my damn best to give her what she asked for.
I can't, though, and I'm tired. I'm so damn tired. All the time. How do you cure eternal exhaustion?
She lights up my world. Everything about her. She is perfect in every way. There's not a single fucking thing I'd change.
I look at her, and I feel warm. Something inside me shifts, and my mood is instantly better.
She's my person. My only person.
She saved me, but...
well, I guess I'll never truly be saved.
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Lost in July
RomanceCollin Fitzpatrick has suffered from depression since he was twelve years old, crushed by a darkness with no name, living in the shadows of his trauma. A boy who's spent most of his teenage years wishing he wasn't living at all. When Collin's parent...
