The Heartless Girl || Completed ||

Make It Right

" Tae , I... I'm scared. " I say looking at his hopeful eyes. He frowns .

" I'm scared I'll hurt you. I'm scared I won't be able to give my best to you when you deserve the best of the bests. Look at you now . You've confessed your feelings to me . You've told me how important I am to you . But I don't know what to do . You're thinking I don't like you or I can't love you. But it's not like that . One part of me wants to say it back to you , wants to hug you tightly . It wants to forget about everything & move on with you. But at the same time the other part of me keeps asking me , ' what about Jungkook ?' How can I forget about him & move on ? How can I live happily with my love after making him stuffer like that ? I don't know what to do, Taehyung. I'm messed up & I don't want to pull you it this mess ." I say honestly as a tear drops from my eyes. He slowly reaches for my cheek to whip it but I hold his wrist. I hold his hand tightly & continue ,

" I ... I do have feelings for you . I do like you . Maybe more than that. Maybe it'll take me some time to love you as much as you love me . I thought I'll never be able to live freely again but you changed it . You changed me . You've made your way to my heart so easily yet secretly . My heart that I thought doesn't even exist. Yes , I still feel for Jungkook. He was my first love . The first person I gave my heart to . I thought I've given my heart to him & he never returned it . I called myself heartless cause I couldn't feel it . Whenever I touched my left chest I just felt an organ pumping blood to keep me alive that's it . But you made me realize that's not it . You make it alive again . You make it feel . For you . I thought I'll never be able to give my heart to someone else but you stole it without even me knowing. But whenever I want to admit it my mind goes back to Jungkook. And it makes my heart ache. You deserve better Taehyung. You deserve someone who'll love you & only you. You deserve to be someone's one & only not also . Yes, I have feelings for you and that's why I don't want to hurt you. I don't want to see sadness in those beautiful eyes. Do you know which part of you I love the most ? " I pause looking at Taehyung who's staring at me intensely. Water gathering in his eyes as it kept flowing from mine.
" You're boxy smile. I love your smile the most. It takes all my pains & worries away. I want to see that boxy smile always plastered on your face. But look at you now. Eyes shining with tears. Hurt evident in them as they take in my each word. I don't want to see it. I want you to be happy, to be loved. If I can give you that by pushing you away than so be it . Your happiness is what matters for me. This is love for me. To sacrifice your own happiness for the person you love. I failed in this when it came to Jungkook but I don't want to repeat it . I've already hurt someone I loved , I don't want to hurt the second person. But I also don't want to push you away. I know if you'll go away from me, I'll break down. I know there will be no one to save me from getting lost in the darkness this time . But I also don't want to be selfish. I'm so confused & it hurts. " I say as tears escape from my eyes. His hold tightens in my hand .Through my blurry vision I see him whipping his cheeks with his other hand . It really hurts me whenever I see him sad . But if I ain't seeing things, there is a small smile on his heart shaped lips.

" You said, you want to see me happy right ? You said, for you love is to give happiness to your partner. To do anything to make them happy. You said, you have feelings for me . " He says as he holds my hand with both of his . " Then please don't push me away. Like I always say , you'll never hurt me by being with me. You are my happiness, Y/N . I know it's hard for you to make a decision. I know it's hard for you to forget about Jungkook. But trust me , I don't care if I'm not your one & only love . I know how important I am to you . You're ready to scarifies your happiness for me . You're ready to give up the second chance fate has given you to live freely for me . It's enough for me to know how much I mean to you. " He says & whips my tears .

" Close your eyes & think . Would Jungkook be happy if he knew that you're hurting yourself? Would he ever want you to be sad & dark because of him ? Would he ever want your goofy self to fade away? No right ? He loved you & as you said, love means finding happiness in your partner's happiness. Love means getting hurt seeing your partner hurt . Won't he be hurt if you keep pushing your feelings & hurting yourself ? " He asks .