Purity

Prom shopping

It's been a couple days since I've heard from Maximo God it's sad how Addicted I am to this boy I am but that's all love and I hope he's okay I still only had that one text from him but it's better than nothing, I mean that is what I tell myself.

*alarm going off* "ugh for fuck sake why do I even wake up" I sighed slamming my hand on the alarm and turning it off, I rolled over and checked my phone to see if I had any messages of Maximo still nothing a full 2 days I sighed and got up walking to the bathroom and switching on the light

then I got a phone call it was from Jacob I picked up straight away "what's up?" I asked down the phone "after school we need to go prom shopping we have prom in 5 weeks then graduation and fuck me I haven't planned at all" I heard him sigh on the other end "don't worry everything will get booked in just in time and what shopping place?" I asked "Searching just as you said that" he laughed "okay what about Melina's works?" he questioned "sure" I just agreed with him

"okay see you at school love you" he said "love you" I ended the call and went and got dressed walking downstairs

"and don't you look well" my mother's eyes examined me "I feel it" I smiled with an eyeroll after it "no sleep?" she said placing her coffee down "not really hey is there anymore of that coffee" I said pointing "in the coffee machine Farah" she pulled a face "ok no need for the sarcasm" I pulled a face back at her "no one's being sarcastic" she laughed at herself and I just got my coffee and left for the walk to school

I put my headphones in and blasted my music I needed it so badly, why the fuck was I feeling like this so early on a morning and all of a sudden I was great a couple days ago this feeling is awful.

at school, I sat down at the lunch table with Thalia and Jacob and placed my head on the table closing my eyes for just a moment of peace I could feel their eyes pierce me "what" I grunted looking up at them "nothing" Jacob said and they stopped starring "no please do go on say what's on your mind" I yawned "Farah we we're just concerned" Thalia added smiling "don't be I'm brill" I smiled at her

Jacob's POV

all the years I've known Farah she's only gotten like this when a relapse comes on and every time she swears she's clean but me or her mom or even fucking Landon find some sort of stupid buzz drug and she denies it like it's nothing

but then again I am Jacob I can just overthink things she's probably missing Maximo or tired so I brushed it off "ok I booked three spots at Melina's works for 3pm" I said drinking my soda "I can't wait this is my first time actually going to a dance" Thalia laughed "for real?" I looked at her "yeah always got brought out of school before I got the chance but this is prom ain't no way I'm missing this" she said eating her chips

"yeah I'm excited too I'm thinking red or something" Farah leaned back in her chair and smiled "red is your colour" I looked at her and she just looked back with a sad but happy expression on her face "anyways guys I'll pick you both up so be ready" I said getting up and walking to class

back to Farah's POV

I watched Jacob walk away I could see he was worried for me when I sat down but there really was no need to be I just miss my boyfriend

as the school day came to an end I headed home to change into something easier to try prom dresses on with and get my money of my mom "hey mom I need the prom dress fund" I said smiling at her "oh you're going today?" she looked at me "yeah Jake booked it" I replied "okay well your hair makeup and nails we're all booked last week" she said passing me the dress money "okay great see you soon" I walked outside and waited for Jacob to pull up

and then I seen him with Thalia I got into the car and drove to the shop

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the dress shop was amazing I seen so many dresses I liked and tried on "hey guys what do you think of this?" Thalia opened her curtain and done a twirl "you look so pretty" I replied "that flatters your skin so much" Jacob starred and admired her "ok this is the one" she turned around and looked at herself in the mirror again

Thalia's dress

Farah's dress

Jacob's suit

after that we all went to get some pizza and we all went home. "hey baby where's the dress?" my mom said running to me excitedly "here" I smiled and showed her the dress "oh wow see I knew you'd pick red it's always flattered you" she said admiring the dress "you hungry?" she added "no we got pizza after we went shopping" I smiled and walked upstairs "ok try and sleep tonight your SATS start tomorrow" she said smiling "oh I forgot about that" I sighed "you'll do great baby keep your head up" she walked into the kitchen

I got to my room and tried not to breakdown I was so scared for SATS and then losing my place at NYU i just needed a relaxer so I texted my dealer not for hard core drugs just some weed just so I could actually sleep. he texted back straight away told me to meet him 2 blocks away

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"haven't seen you in awhile" he said stepping out the car "yeah been busy" I sighed "so what's up?" he said pulling out the bag of weed "look I'm here for what I'm paying for not a chat" I rolled my eyes pulling the bag and he snatched it back "stop Farah" he rolled his eyes "stop what I want my shit and then sleep for a fucking week and you're stopping that right now" I grabbed it and left the money on top of his car

"You're dumb for thinking I'm just going to let you do that, are you okay?" he sighed "Taylor I'm fine goodbye" I looked at him and walked away and I got home and smoked then fell asleep for the next day