The Suicidal Girl

•Twelve•

|| Ryan's POV ||

I ran out of the classroom trying to breathe. I was having an anxiety attack because someone was saying things. I can't breathe, my chest is heavy, I feel like my heart has sunk into my stomach. The rooms spinning, I'm shaking. I need to breathe, I can't. Calm down. Breathe. YOU NEED TO CALM DOWN RYAN JUST BREATHE!

What is that noise? Buzzing, buzzing. It's my phone..

Addieee😍: Ryan, I don't know if you're busy or not but call me when you can. I love you, hope you're okay❤️.

I called her, hoping she would answer.
"Ryan?" I tried to catch my breath.
"A-Addison, I-I can't br-breathe.." I heard her moving around loudly, "Okay um take a deep breath and tell me what caused it." I took a deep breath, "I was sitting in class thinking, then someone came up saying things."
She sniffed, "Can you FaceTime?" I nodded, "Yeah.."

I answered the FaceTime while she said, "What kind of things?" I swallowed my breath, "They said how we weren't gonna ever happen and you would cheat on me and that you don't love me.." She looked up through the phone with a hurt face and tears in her eyes, "Ryan.. I love you, more than anything. You're my hero, you have saved me. And I love you. If they say that we are never gonna happen then it's their lose. They don't know that. And I.. am not one to cheat. EVER. Who said this anyways?" I smiled at her tiny rant, "This girl who likes me.."

She threw her arms in the air then crossed them, looking down, "Of course." I frowned then noticed that she wasn't at school, "Why aren't you at school? Thought you had a test or something." She chuckled, "that's what I wanted to tell you. Well after getting slapped in the face by Jacob my English teacher was ranting about something then someone asked him how he felt about 'emos and suicide and depression' his exact words were 'Emo's are nothing good. They dye their hair inappropriate colors they hurt themselves so people feel bad for them. And they only care for themselves, acting like they don't give a damn about anything or anyone while they think of suicide. Like Addison.' So I got up and wrote on the board, 'Mr. Cane sucks ass' and told him that if he wants to say shit like that and point me out then he has another thing coming. Then I spit in his face and walked out."

I nodded, "Wow, that's hot. But that doesn't explain why aren't at school." She blushed and smiled. Wow that blush is so cute. "Well Mr. Strider sir, my mom got a call from the school and had to go to a meeting and I have been suspended for two weeks." My eyes widen, "Mrs. Page you are full of surprises." She giggled, "Thankyou. Well aren't you gonna go back to class?" I sighed, "I don't wanna." I watched her shake her head and laugh, "Well one of us needs an education." I smirked, "We're both street smart. Why don't we drop out?"

She sighed, "Because you can't until eleventh grade. Sadly." I nodded, "Right, well i guess I'll go. I'll text you." She smiled, "Okay, love you!" I nodded, "Love you too" after she hung up I walked back inside.

|| Shane's POV ||

Where's Addison? I haven't seen her all day and she isn't answering my calls or texts. I hope she's okay. I decided to leave early. When I got home it was quiet, "Addison... Are you there?" I heard footsteps and saw her walking down the stairs, "Shane? What are you doing home?" I crossed my arms, "I could ask you the same thing." She better have a good explanation. "I'm suspended. For two weeks." She said walking to the kitchen.

I raised an eyebrow, "What. Did. You. Do?!" She looked at me and laughed, "Spit on a teacher and told him off."
"You think this is funny Addie?! I'm supposed to watch you and make sure you don't do stupid things!" She scoffed and crossed her arms, "And who said that?! No one! You think you have to take care of me?! THINK AGAIN! I can handle myself. Ass-" in that moment I kissed her. I don't know what came over me, but I did. She tried to push away but i wouldn't let her, I pushed her on to the couch and pinned her by her wrists. She was moaning and screaming in fear as I kissed down her neck. Lydia popped into my head and I got off of Addison.

Addie fell to the floor coughing, with tears in her eyes, I looked at her wrists and noticed I had a pretty hard grip since her wrists were marked red. "A-Addie.." She shook her her head and stood up and started walking up stairs, I grabbed her forearm and she yanked away. "Stay away from me.. Just stay away!" I looked at the fear in her eyes, "Addie.. I'm sorry. Please.." She shook her head and run up to her room. Fuck. What did I just do?! Wait until she tells Ryan. He'll come down here just to skin me alive.

|| Addison's POV ||

I ran into my room, bawling, my wrists hurt and were bright red. I have to hide this from everyone. No one should know what just happened.. I almost got raped by my step brother.. I can't cut or anything. I promised Ryan i wouldn't. Ryan! Oh god no no no. I feel horrible! I have to tell Ryan! But, if I do then what if he thinks I didn't try to push Shane off? This isn't good. I need to slow down. That's it. I'm going to bed and I'm going to try and calm down. I wiped away my tears and sniffed. I changed into some shorts and a sports bra then silently cried myself to sleep.. Or nap. Whatever. I wanted this to be over with. And I want to be far away from Shane.