A Part Of Me // Dreamnap

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Dream had taken a pair of Karl's sweatpants and a white t shirt. He looked a mess compared to the other, but he couldn't be bothered to put on one of Karl's nicest clothes and getting dressed up for a day out.

Finished, he walks out of Karl's room. He sees the other standing in the living room, who looks up to see him.

"Ready?" The brunette asked.

Dream nodded in response.

Karl grabs keys off of the table in front of him before walking towards the door, Dream trailing behind.

They walked out the door, Karl letting it slam closed behind them.

And finally, after Karl locks the front door and takes his key in hand, they walk towards the car and quickly get in.

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It didn't take them long for them to end up at a small corner restaurant.

It was a small Chic-fil-a which had been surprisingly pretty empty for a Saturday.

Dream waited as Karl parked the car before they both went inside together and ordered food.

After ordering, they both opted to sit outside, seeing as the weather was nice out for a change.

The two boys sat across from each other, putting both of their phones down before Dream started to speak.

"I know we said we wouldn't talk about him, but can we?" Dream said quietly, looking at Karl before looking back down to his hands.

"You can think or talk about him Dream. I just said that because I don't want you overwhelming yourself."

Dream hummed in acknowledgment.

"Well," Dream started. "I don't know what to feel." He said.

Karl furrowed his eyes brows in confusion.

"Before I left to come here, I talked to him— about everything." Dream said. "And he told me that he didn't mean to hurt me, but I don't even know if he feels sorry for anything. He never said it— so I—" Dream stopped, looking up at Karl.

"Do you think he'd regret it," Dream asked in a quiet voice.

"At all?" He added.

"I think so. I think he knows he messed up." Karl responded, and Dream nodded to the others words. "I remember talking to him when you got here about what happen— I know he regrets it."

Dream's eyes become a little less narrow. He never found out what the two talked about.

"I don't think he's doing the right thing, though," Karl said.

"You didn't say anything bad, did you?" Dream asked.

He didn't want Sapnap hurt.

"I told him the truth." Karl said. "I might have been a little blunt," Karl said, emphasizing the word. "But I told him my honest opinion."

Dream's breath hitched anxiously. "And what was that?"

Karl's expression stayed still. "That I wouldn't see him as the same person after what he did."

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Sapnap hasn't left him bed since he texted Karl.

This breakup has made him lose more than he's ever imagined.

He knows that it's all his fault, but he can't help but deem Dream as selfish.

He left Sapnap alone, and he's been realizing the time with the blond away will only become more and more of a struggle.

Sapnap was left alone in their room, stuck with his own feelings. Guilt and regret stayed anchored in his chest, filling his lungs and driving the feeling through his entire body.

He's tried to text a message to Dream, but nothing would go through. He felt hopeless, had Dream blocked him too?

The thought that he would never be able to talk to Dream ever again he rang through his mind, despite the fact that he was living in the blond's house.

His pillow had been wet from constant tears, full of nothing but regret and hatred towards his own actions.

He needed Dream right now, and the boy was out of contact. He wouldn't dare to text Karl either; he's already asked enough from him.

"Fuck you, fuck you, fuck you," Sapnap whispered under his breath, squeezing his eyes tightly shut as more tears fell onto his pillow.

He didn't know who his words were directed to, in all honesty.

Maybe they were directed towards Dream. For leaving him and being so hard on him. For blocking him and making Sapnap feel so alone. Since Dream had been so selfish, completely leaving Sapnap and focusing on himself.

Maybe they were directed towards George. Maybe it was since the brit had blocked him, making him lose his other best friend as well in this whole mess. Or maybe it was for not even saying goodbye or anything at all before stopping any contact. Even though George lived thousands of miles away, his presence or knowing that he could talk to him would've made Sapnap feel a tiniest bit better. But he messed that up too.

Maybe they were directed towards Karl, for letting Dream leave so easily. For saying harsh words that stung his heart and humiliated him even more. Maybe it was towards Karl, seeing as he was the one who partially ended his relationship with George. Maybe Karl was the reason he was losing so much.

Maybe they were directed towards himself for starting this whole mess in the first place. For cheating, letting his lips connect with another's, who weren't Dream's. For letting Dream leave him so easily, letting himself fall into his own pit of loneliness. For letting himself feel so lost as he laid alone. For lying to George, telling him that nothing was wrong when he knew more than anyone that something was wrong.

Maybe it was for letting himself go so far with this problem that it became harder getting out of it than getting into it.

Or maybe it had been because he stopped loving Dream at a point.

But in the end, he wouldn't blame himself. He convinced himself that he was only at fault for cheating.

Karl had added on by letting Dream leave. George had been rude, blocking off contact so easily, like it was nothing or something incredibly simple.

And Dream. He was selfish for leaving, letting his emotions get to him so easily letting Sapnap sulk alone.

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AN

wow, sapnap does NOT have the right mindset... oops 😅

anyway hope you enjoyed!!