The Soldier's Luna (Bucky Barnes x OC)

Chapter 16

I woke up feeling decently well rested. I haven't felt well rested in a long time. Remembering that Bucky was in the room, I looked around to see he wasn't there, but something else was. Instead of Bucky, a long stemmed white rose was resting on the pillow next to me. Smiling, I grabbed the rose to put it to my nose. I bit my lip to stop my smile from getting any bigger, but my heart wouldn't stop beating so hard against my chest. I decided to wear a dark blue short sleeve shirt and black jeans today. I unraveled my braid to see that there were cute soft waves that formed. I ran my fingers through my hair to separate the waves a bit. Once I was satisfied with how I looked, there was a knock at my door.

Hoping it was Bucky, I quickly opened the door to see that it was Natasha. "Oh, morning," I said to her.

"Morning? It's almost one in the afternoon."

I frowned looking at the clock. "Oh, wow, I really slept in."

"I wanted to check up on you," Natasha said and held up a mug. "I also attempted on making your coffee. I hope I did it justice."

I smiled and walked to the bed with Natasha following after she closed the door. I took a sip of it, "It's not bad. A little too much sugar, but it's actually really good."

"Yeah, I couldn't remember how much sugar you put in. So, I was praying the number was right, but now that you said it's too sweet, I know to put two cubes and not three. I see you slept on your bed." Natasha raised an eyebrow as she noticed the rose. "What's this?"

"Bucky was here last night. Before you say anything, no we didn't have sex. We just cuddled all night. It was nice. It made me feel safe."

"Even with all that happened to you?"

"Yeah, it still did, which sounds insane, I know, but it still felt right."

Natasha didn't say anything for a moment. She just stared at me. "You are really falling for this guy. I'm happy for you because you deserve to be happy, but just be careful. I don't want you to get hurt."

"Do you think he would hurt me?"

"He has the tendency to not let anyone in, Iliana. I'm sure you can understand why. The only person he really talks to is Steve, but that's a given because of their history. I saw the way he was with you yesterday. He was going off on Tony the whole time when they were up at the control room. I swear, Barnes would've killed Tony, if he could. He was the first one to run inside that room the moment the simulation stopped. And how he was with the video, Steve and I never saw that. We could see that he really cares for you. If he ever hurts you, it will only be because he was brainwashed again."

I rubbed my arm, thinking about what she was saying. "You know, I've been scared of the Winter Soldier for so long. I keep telling myself that Bucky and Winter Soldier are different. It's still a part of him, just like Luna is a part of me. I can try to erase the Luna, but I can't erase what I did. Maybe, the best way to heal is to accept that it'll always be a part of us. It's something that can't be erased from our lives. It's just something I got to grow around. The more I grow into my own person, maybe that part me would feel smaller."

"You know you're pretty wise for your age."

"Technically, I would be in my forties right now, so it makes sense that I am."

"Still have moments where you do seem like you're in your twenties though. Oh, I don't know if you heard or not, but Tony and Steve thought it would be best if you didn't go to the concert anymore."

"I figured I wouldn't," I admitted to her. "Plus, I don't think I would want to either."

"How are you handling Jonah's death?"