Finding My Safe Space

Chapter 1

Now I know kung bakit mukhang minamalas ako ngayong araw. At naiwala ko pa si JJ! Kasi naman, how dare that bastard show up in front of me like that? It must have been good if he learned manners, but nah....it would be end of the world if ever he did.

That arrogant jerk, maybe I should make him eat his confidence because it's too much na. Years passed already, pero mas lumala pa yata siya.

If you're wondering who he is, huwag mo ng isipin because it's really not worth your time. Like him, hindi worth it.

And I hate that there's a point in my life that I considered him important to me....that I considered him as someone closest to me.

But then...no!

He ruined my highschool life, so it's certainly just right for me to assume that he considers me as an enemy rather than a friend.

"I hate you Crispin Yeshua!" I gritted my teeth bago gigil na sumakay sa SUV namin.

"Is mom home already?" I asked our driver.

"Yes, Ma'am."

I gave him a nod and fixed my hair before taking a nap because the traffic's really making me feel bored and even more irritated.

Pagkarating namin sa mansion ay nakasimangot akong bumaba, my cute pomeranian dogs immediately greeted me pagkapasok ko sa main door, but I am not in the mood to play with them.

"You look grumpy. Are you okay? Did something happen at school?" mom asked when she saw me, lumapit ako sa kanya and gave her a kiss. It's like kakauwi lang din niya because she's still in her corporate attire.

"I'm okay." I answered, gaano man ako kainis sa gagong 'yon ay hindi ko ugaling magsumbong. And besides...anghel yata ang turing sa kanya ng parents ko.

That's how good he is in deceiving people!

"Crispin's home. He might go there to meet you. I know you missed him!" mom excitedly said.

Napangiwi agad ako. Like, eww. No freaking way.

"Uh, I saw him already." Kibit-balikat kong sagot bago tumalikod. "I'll just go to my room, mom."

"We'll have a dinner later with your Tita Chelsea, and of course, with Crispin. So you should prepare." My brows immediately furrowed because of what I heard.

What?

No! But then...

"Do I really have to go?" I asked but I think it's a wrong move. Bakit naman ako hindi pupunta? It's not like I am scared of him.

"Yes, baby. Hindi mo ba namiss 'yong Tita Ninang mo?" Mom sweetly asked.

"Uh, I missed her. Okay, I'll go." Even if I hate Crispin Yeshua to the core, I'm still excited to see Tita Ninang, which is unfortunately his mom, I haven't seen her for a year na kasi eh.

When I entered my room, I sat on my bed and inhaled loudly. I pressed my temple when everything about him resurfaced inside my head.

My mom and his mom were bestfriends, even our dads. They've known each other since childhood as they both came from prominently rich families. But even though our parents were friends, Crispin and I never became close.

I mean...I never had a memory of hanging out with him. All we did were just going to swimming classes together, attending kumon together, learning to play musical instruments together, and go to the same school together.

That's all. Hindi naman kami masyadong nag-uusap, wala naman kasi akong sasabihin sa kanya, at mukhang gano'n din naman siya.

He's like an air kapag bumibisita sila sa bahay. He'll go to my room dahil lang sinasabi ng parents namin, pero ang ginagawa lang naman niya ay manuod ng tv, while I'm also doing my own stuffs.