Finding My Safe Space

Chapter 9

I rolled my eyes. What's with her? And I don't like her stares because it's like she's implying something kasi. Anyway, I don't care about her thoughts, kung masama ang tingin niya sa akin, edi masama. Basta I know that I did nothing wrong, after all I am the one who know myself better.

I just stared at the piano after that, trying to fight my strong urge of playing it. I am really pitiful, it's just a good thing that people are unaware. The meeting resumed and buti nalang ay wala naman silang natanong o nasabing something uncomfortable. Napapadalas lang ang pag-irap ko dahil nahuhuli kong nakatingin si Crispin sa akin.

What the hell is his problem ba?

Because I'm annoyed with him, I just focused my attention to JJ while he's explaining something. Hindi ko naman mapigilang maamaze habang nakikinig, he's really good in communicating, it's so nice na halos every trait ng guy na gusto ko is nasa kanya na. I sometimes wonder if he's into dating or wala ba 'yon sa mind niya, o baka naman may girlfriend na siya?

My attention went back to the demon in front of me when I felt a soft kick on my leg. What the heck? Gusto ko siyang awayin pero hindi ko magawa. Ano ba kasing problema niya sa akin? What a bully! Masama na tuloy mood ko after noon hanggang sa matapos 'yong meeting.

When the meeting ended ay pasimple ko siyang nilapitan para maapakan paa niya. He deserves it after all, but it's annoying kasi aapak palang ako nailayo na niya agad.

"What were you trying to do?" he asked while raising his brows, it's like he's trying to mock me pa. What a jerk?

"Bully," I said and gritted my teeth. Nahuli naman ng mata ko ang nakatingin na si Florence. Isa pa 'to, what the hell is her problem? Kanina pa siya nakatingin gamit ang nakakaannoy na stare niya. Hindi naman sa may pakialam ako sa iniisip niya, naiinis lang talaga ako sa tingin at presensya niya in general. I just feel like she's a two-faced bitch kasi, anyway that's a bit judgmental na. I should stop it already.

"Uuwi na ako," paalam ko. I didn't bother looking at the others, kay JJ lang ako nakatingin habang nagpapaalam.

I got busy after that meeting dahil sa papalapit kong birthday party. As usual, my parents hired party organizers and designers for the event. Meeting here, meeting there, and everything, that's why I was so all around.

"Are you okay, Ma'am?" my PA asked. I told her to get me water and after that ay naupo muna ako.

I didn't feel the stress no'ng mga nakalipas na years because mom and dad were there for me, pero ngayon I don't know, I barely see them at home and it's making me so sad and worried. Sad kasi hindi na kami nakakapag-usap ng maayos, kung nakakapag-usap man ay super quick lang 'yon. And I'm worried of course, dahil sa problem ng company, although they affirmed na madali lang naman iyong ayusin. Pero hindi ko pa rin maiwasan na mag-isip ng kung ano, I always wonder if everything's really okay.

"Ma'am, phone call po, 'yong organizer po." Tinanggap ko 'yong phone at tubig na iniabot ng PA sa akin.

"Hello, Jane. Is everything set already?" I immediately asked.

"Ayon nga Ma'am, we have a problem. Your parent's secretary called na ilipat 'yong reservation sa kabilang hotel, sa mas mababa yong cost. I am thinking that it could be because of the expenses pero malabo naman yata, knowing that you're the daughter of one of the wealthiest business personalities here in the Philippines." Napatayo ako because of what I heard.

"W-What?" Hindi ko makapaniwalang tanong. And my heart sank thinking that we might be really going bankrupt.

"I really don't—."

I ended the call and immediately dialed my mom's number, nang hindi sumagot ay si papa naman.

"Why weren't they answering me?" I'm really worried, pero sana talaga mali lang ang kutob ko.