Running away through destiny (Montelleano Series #1)

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After our bonfire we cleaned up and enter our room, all of us are exhausted but we enjoyed everything. Dumiretso na ako sa cr at nag linis na ako ng aking sarili, there is a mini veranda in each of our room and I saw Brent busy typing over his phone kaya lumapit ako sa kaniya to tell him na tapos na akong mag gamit ng cr.

"Hey, I'm done" I said at tinapik ang kaniyang likod, napatalon ito ng konti at tipid na ngumiti sa akin. Okay? What was that?

I just laid down on our bed since masyado akong napagod ngayon, but I'm not yet sleeping. I'm still conscious of what's going on around me.

Bumukas na ang pintuan ng cr and I assume na tapos na si Brent maligo, I remained my eyes closed and pretending that I'm asleep.
I heard his phone rang and accidentally heard their conversation.

"Dad, will you please stop blaming my Mother? Ikaw ang may hawak ng kompanya kaya wag mo sisihin si Mom!" He said and ended up the call, Naririnig ko ang mga mahihinang paghikbi nya dahil alam kong sawang sawa na ito sa problema, hindi ko maimulat ang aking mata, imulat ko man ay nakatalikod naman ako sa kaniya. All I can feel is his heavy breath, naramdaman ko din na napahiga na lang sya sa kama and I presume that he's asleep.

"I'm tired,everything is fucked up" he whispered. I can hear him, I can feel his pain but I don't know how to comfort me when I'm also facing the miserable part of my life.

Naramdaman kong umusog sya palapit sa akin. I was shocked when I feel his arms wrapped around my waist, I didn't bother to turn around or to protest but I remained silent and pretending that I'm asleep.
Nararamdaman kong nababasa na ang aking likod dahil sa kaniyang mga luha, "I know that you're awake, you don't usually sleep in that position but I will just assume that you're asleep. Let me stay like this for a while Tin" he said and I didn't react but I just held his hands that wrapped around my waist and let the darkness lead me to sleep.

I woke up into Brent's arms and he's slightly snoring, I just laugh at it dahil para itong bata. I just take a bath and went down, I also took some sandwiches and milk sa dining table dahil dadalhan ko si Brent, all of them are busy on their phones and planning what activity we should do for today.

I opened the door and I saw him stretching his arms and yawn. "Hoy good morning!" I said and tossed him the sandwich, buti nalang nasalo nya. He just smiled at me and opened the sandwich, nilapag ko din ang gatas nya sa mesa. "You looked like persia a while ago" I said at sinamaan ako ng tingin. Persia, he's our cat, but persia stays on Brent's house dahil hindi ko ito kayang alagaan back then.

"You missed persia?" He said and I just nodded, after eating ay nagbihis na kami and today I just wore my black two piece covered it with cardigan and white shorts dahil medyo masakit na ang sikat ng araw, while Brent just go for a simple black sando and white shorts, we always wear the same shades kahit hindi sinasadya.

We all enjoyed our activities for today, buy souvenirs and trying some delicious delicacies here in Tagaytay. Took a pictures of the said tourist spots and adventure some islands that some foreigners wanted to do.

We returned to the house and took a picture of sunset. But I planned to stop by dito sa malapit na coffee shop, I told them not to accompany me dahil gusto kong mapag isa muna, trying to feel the breeze of Tagaytay.

My phone rang as I received a phone call from an unkown number.

"Hello?" I said

"It's me your Aunt Letisha" she said, it was Ashley's Mom. I just angrily sipped my Iced coffee before I answer.

"What do you want?" I said and I heard some footsteps rushing towards me, nagulat na lang din ako na nasa harapan ko na sya.

She dragged the chair in front of me and sit down.

"Didn't expect that our Valentine is here hanging out with her friends, and her so called "childhood bestfriend" She sarcastically said

"What do you want?" I said, "Why are you so stubborn about handling me your Dad's company?" She said na mas lalong ikinainit ng ulo ko.

"You are the one whose stubborn here" I said, I remained calm as I don't want to stoop down low just to reach her level.

"You know what Tin? You're just making your friends miserable. Why don't you ask yourself, bakit palagi na lang nahihirapan si Brent? Bakit kaya palaging magulo ang buhay ni Brent?" She said na ikinagulat ko, ano naman ang kinalaman ni Brent dito?

"Anong connect naman ni Brent dito?" I said at hindi ko na napigilan pa na tumaas ng konti ang aking boses.

"Honey, if ayaw mong gawin ang gusto ko then I will make you suffer, or should I say uunahin ko muna ang mga kaibigan mo, wala ka namang mga magulang para pag buntongan ko ng galit diba?" She said and poured her drink on my coffee, afterwards she left and I remained seated while catching my breath. How long will my friends suffer from this?

I just paid for my bill and stormed out, I find some convenient store near me and that's when I decided to buy five cans of beer. Nasa dalampasigan ako ngayon, medyo malayo sa bahay na tinutuloyan namin. I promised to be back after 9:30pm and it's already 8:15 kaya madami pa akong oras para tumambay dito, walang masyadong tao sa parte ng isla na ito kaya payapa akong nakaupo at pinagmamasdan ang langit.

Tears falling down, I just opened the can and taste the bitterness of the alcohol. "They say beers usually taste sweet when you are happy and taste bitter when you're anguish" I said to myself.

"They really want me down to the point that they will go through my weakness"

"Whenever I runaway they are always there keep on chasing me."

After I finished the 4th canned beer I took off my cardigan because I'm starting to feel the heat caused by the alcohol. I open the last can kahit alam kong hindi ko na kaya. I was not in my right mind when I decided na mag tampisaw ng saglit sa dagat para lang mahimasmasan ako ng konti.

Lumapit na ako sa dagat and the water is just on my knee level, safe for me not to panic. I just keep staring on the deep wide see. "If I do this, will I be free?" I said out of nowhere while tears started to fall down. "Will Brent's life will be okay?" I said, I wanted to calm myself but I can't.

"Will I be not their burden anymore?"

One step forward

"Will Khiera be able to go to Med school?"

Three step forward, I don't know what I'm doing.

"Will Kuya Hiro no longer sleep late because of my Dad's paper?"

"Will kuya Miguel be able to provide abundance to his family?"

"Will Elle be able to have good future with her sister?"

Tears won't stop as I took my last step, I was in the middle of the sea, facing my phobia and following the reflection of the moon, the water is on my neck and it's hard for me to breathe.

""Tin why don't we live together? Tutal ayaw ko naman sa parents ko at wala kana ding parents"

A flashback of little Brent telling me if we can be together. It slapped me back to reality and how dumb I am to end my life like this, I started to panic and turn my back to rush back at the sea shore. Pilit kong kinakalma ang aking sarili dahil malayo na ako sa dalampasigan nang matapilok ako sanhi na bumagsak ako sa tubig at pilit na iahon ang aking sarili.

I screamed and keep paddling my hands, It was too dark and I doubt if someone will see me, Pilit kong sumigaw at iahon ang aking sarili sanhi na makapasok ang tubig sa aking bibig at ilong, I can no longer hold my breathe and I'm tired lifting up myself, unti unti na akong nalulunod at nawawalan ng pag asa. "I'm sorry Brent, I'm sorry" the last thing I whispered. I'm just ready to accept my faith and let the darkness devoured my consciousness.

Finally, I'm free