First Reality...Now Love

CHAPTER 21❤

Jezzica we have to talk its important...

"what do we have to talk ABOUT ALL I WANT TO KNOW IS IF MY BABY IS OKAY ??? i don't care if you don't want her/him ...not now all i want is to know is if he or she is okay...."

"last time i checked that baby is mine to and it takes two to make a child and i want to keep ours because it was made out of love ...i love you Jezz and i wont leave you alone in this ..."

"what happened then you have to tell me if you love me ..."

"fine ....the doctor said that our baby is in critical conditions ...they don't know if it is going to make it ...that's why they need you to stay here a few days to monitor you ..."

so your telling me that i could loss my baby.... that's all it took for me to burst in to tears it was like i was crying waterfall's....i didn't know what to think all i could think of is how i would loss my child like my mother lost my twin sister ....

i know its bad to think like this but at least she made it till birth i haven't even had a chance to know how it feels to be pregnant...

"babe why are you crying i know this upsets you but you can still have your baby if you stay here and take care of yourself ... "

i knew what he was saying was right but i couldn't think positive right now it made me so upset to have to feeling that i might loss my baby....

should i tell him about my twin sister....i haven't told him before i mean some people know like Andrew and Zoey but besides that i think that's it .... i mean i should tell him i love him and i trust him he's the only person i feel safe with and can trust to tell him anything... i take a deep breath and begin to talk ....

"i have to tell you something an i don't know what your going to say but i need you to listen to me and you will understand why I'm crying like i am.."

"Jezz don't tell me that you were pregnant before there was US???"

"NO !!! of course not you idiot you were the first i ever did IT with ..."

"okay well now that i know that ...I'm listening ..."

"that's what i was asking for ...okay what i have to tell you is hard for me to talk about ,but I'm ready to talk to you about it ...So when my mom was pregnant she wasn't only pregnant with me ...she was going to have twins ....i would have had a twin sister but ...their was complications with my mom giving birth ..."

i stopped and took a deep breath and looked up at him he had my hands in his reassuring me that i was okay and that he was there for me ...i just gave him a weak smile and kept talking ...

"the only solution was for the doctor to save one of us...."when that sentence came out i couldn't look him in the eyes i started to cry even harder then before...

"i cant finish telling you its to painful to remember ...this is why i don't want to loss my baby ,it would feel as if i lost my sister again ....i know it doesn't make sense but that's how i would feel..."

he didn't say anything but i felt him move and soon enough i was in his arms he was laying on the hospital bed with me in his arms all i did was hug him as tight as i could because i had a feeling that soon i would loss him but i cant explain why....but i wasn't going to tell him that ...

"everything is going to be okay babe... our baby will be okay i know that because you are strong and you will pull through this ..."

"thanks for being here with me but you have to go home and sleep you have to go to work tomorrow...and you should probably call your brother as well..."

"i already have he told me to tell you to stay strong and that he would give Andrew you work from school for him to give to me and i could bring it to you to do and i can turn it back in for you ...and with work don't worry about it I'm going to take some time off to be with you ...'

"thanks for taking care of my school work for me ...but you cant take time off of work for me ... you have to pay bills ..."

"Jezz your my girlfriend and your having my baby so i do need to be here for you ...and work can wait ...I've been meaning to take a few days off anyways ..."

"Fine but don't take days off of work just yet wait until i have to go home because the doctor said that i would still need to rest after I'm out of here ..."

"okay Ill hold off on getting days off but ill visit you after work and ill tell Andrew to check up on you when i cant make it ..."

"okay ...seem like a plan.."

after our conversation the doctor came in again and told me that i was doing much better ..but that it would still take time for them to know if the baby will be okay ...so i would be on a monitor for the time being ...i could here my babies heart beat and it was the most peace-full sound i have ever heard after having dinner i feel asleep listening to my baby's heart beat Sanchez refused to leave after the put the heart monitor on me because he feel in love with the sound of our baby's heart beat ...

he decided to leave early in the morning to take a shower and go to work...but meanwhile i was fast asleep listening to my baby's heart beat and this gave me ....

HOPE....

its been days now and i was feeling better and i had a little dump now the doctors gave me the clear to go home yesterday but i wanted to stay one more day just to be safe ...

now i know my baby is safe and healthy ..I'm still scared because anything could happen...but I've been trying to stay positive...

the school has called me to check up on me and to find out why i wasn't in school ... so i told them the truth well almost the whole truth ...what i did say was ....

that i was in an accident and that i was pregnant so i had to stay in the hospital for them to keep an eye on my baby and make sure it was safe before i could go home and back to school ....they also know that i will be out for another week for bed rest at my house i told them that Andrew will be taking care of me and bringing me my work from school ...

when in reality it will be Mr.Sanchez doing it ...

i actually think it funny how all of this is working out me dating my teacher and getting pregnant by him...then pretending that Andrew will be the one stepping in to take care of me when its my English teacher doing it ...also how no one has found out in school about any of this ...

it wont be funny when they do....