JEZZICA’S POV;
Two weeks have passed since I’ve had the argument with Mr. Sánchez about the way we feel about each other… the one where I told him I don’t love him when I do he’s the only person I love more than myself …which worries me …what I may be capable of…
Lately Mr. Sánchez has been very chill since I confessed to him I really didn’t love him… when I know I do… we haven’t had homework for the past week …don’t get me wrong I’m not complaining, but shouldn’t he assign homework… we have been watching a movie this week and all we do is write a summary about what we watched… if you ask me that’s not learning…
“Mrs. Reyes would you share your summary with the class.”
“What…. Um …No I wouldn’t like to share my summary with the class…”
“I’m sorry Mrs. Reyes but I wasn’t asking I was telling you to share your summary with the class.”
“And if I don’t???”
“Well Mrs. Reyes there’s the door…I don’t want to waste my time on students that don’t want to participate in class…”
Without me even realizing I was walking to the front of the class… when I was there I turned to Mr. Sánchez and handed him my paper and said “if you and the class are really interested in what I wrote why don’t you read it to the class???”
With that I walked to the door and turned to look at Mr. Sánchez and smiled at him… letting him know I wasn’t done with him …and I would be back…
After a few minutes of walking around the school I got bored… so I went to the restroom and decided to text Andrew….
Text;
J; hey what you doing???
A; Hm…after your little scene you left me alone in this class …with these people …
J; lol sorry
A; are you okay???
J; um …yeah why???
A; just asking your little scene seemed more then him just annoying you???
J; what no I’m fine …it’s just I hate when he calls me out ...when he knows I’m not paying attention to him…
A; okay I’m just asking… well I’ll see you in a little bit
With that the bell rang and I meet up with Andrew he walked me to class …we went on with our day …then lunch came around and we just walked around after the bell rang I went to class and went on with the dreadful day …before I knew it was time to go home…
On my way to the front of the school I decided to pay a friend a visit …on my way there I got a text from Andrew but I ignored it and kept walking… when I finally reach the classroom I was walking to I walked in without knocking…
Mr. Sánchez looks up and smiles already knowing it was me…
“What took you so long Mrs. Reyes I was beginning to think you forgot about me…”
“Oh Mr. Sánchez I could never forget you even if I tried… but I’m here to tell you that I’m sick of you calling me out in class when you know damn well that I’m not listening to you”
“Well Mrs. Reyes it’s up to me when I call you in class since it’s my class… it’s not my fault you aren’t listening to me in class when you are supposed to…”
“Yeah… Well it’s been hard to listen to you since you haven’t been teaching us anything in class ….all we have been doing is watching a movie… what are we supposed to learn from that???”
“Well Mrs. Reyes if you don’t like how I teach... well maybe you should…”
“I should what …switch classes…”
“Mrs. Reyes… that is not what I said…”
“That’s what you intended to say …and stop calling me Mrs. Reyes … I hate when you do that…”
“Well Mrs. Reyes what would you like me to call you???”
“Jezzica that’s what I want you to call me… you used to call me that all the time… the only time you would call me Mrs. Reyes was when you were upset with me… or when I did something to you…”
“Well you did do something to me…”
“And what would that be!???”
“You let me fall in love with you …and then told me you don’t feel the same way… I do for you…”
“Well what do you want me to tell you that’s how I feel and I won’t lie to you and tell you I love you to make you feel better because I don’t...”
“You know I would feel much better if you would stop lying to yourself …And I do mean to yourself and not me Jezzica …because you’re hurting yourself and me in the process…”
“To be honest im not lying to myself …I don’t love you…I only love myself and that’s the truth…”
“That use to be the truth… but that changed when you met me you know that …stop telling yourself different”
“Yeah well you can think what you want I don’t love anyone and if I ever told you I loved you well I lied …”
As I began saying what I said he got up and started walking towards me … I stood still showing him he had no effect on me …when in reality he did …he had this huge effect on me I start to fell butterflies in my stomach …I start to breath faster…and feel weak to my knees…and I can’t stop thinking about him even if I want to …but he can’t know that I will keep lying to him and myself and maybe it will become true…
“So if you don’t feel anything for me the distance between us means nothing to you???”
“Exactly…the space between us means nothing I feel nothing…”
He started getting closer to me…and my breathing began to quicken and I was just looking in to his green eyes that I get lost in every time I look into them…At this point there was no space between us…
“So if I kissed you right now you would feel nothing...”
“Yup I would feel nothing …because you mean nothing to me …nothing ...”
Before I could finish I was cut off by him meeting my lips and kissing me…he pulled away and looked in to my eyes
“Did that mean anything to you …?”
“No that meant nothing to me …it was just a kiss”
With that he kissed me again but this time I couldn’t stop myself I kissed him back and failed to stand my ground …we kissed each other for what seemed like a while and we pulled away …
“Did that mean anything to you???” he said with a smile on his face
“YOU know that meant something …this means more than you think to me I can’t lie to you or myself anymore I love you …I do and you knew I did …”
“Yeah I did just needed you to admit it …to yourself not me…and you did and I hope we can start over…”
“I hope the same…I want to be happy with you even if it’s just with you”
“So will you be my girlfriend now???”
“I would love to…”
With that he kisses me but we are interrupted by someone walking in on us …when I turn around I see Andrew standing there with a look I’ve never seen in my life and for the first time in my life I don’t know what my best friend is thinking or feeling...
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First Reality...Now Love
Teen FictionThis story is about a girl who has been through a lot and she has trust issue do to the things she's been through ....its hard for her to fall in love but when she does things might not work out the way she wants them to .....
