Y/N'S POV
I cover my mouth with my hands and a few tears start sliding down my cheeks
"H-how's Meredith?" I ask
"Callie told me that she fainted after she gave the news"
"I can't believe it...D-Derek's dead"
Arizona wraps her arms around my body and holds me close to her, I let out a few sobs and more tears slide down my cheeks
"D-does Amelia know?"
"No"
"What?! Her brother is dead and she doesn't know?" I shout
"Calm down...she's in surgery and you know protocol...Owen will tell her once she's finished"
"Alright"
I take a deep breath to calm down and grab a tissue
"I-i'm gonna go see Meredith"
Arizona nods and kisses me on the cheek, I show her a small smile and leave the room
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I walk around the hospital looking for Amelia and let out a frustrated sigh when I don't find her anywhere
"Something wrong doctor Y/l/n?"
I turn around and when I see Amelia's favourite resident my face lights up
"Edwards! I need your help, have you seen doctor Shepherd?" I ask her
"No...after doctor Hunt told her about her brother, she left without saying where she was going"
"Okay...if you see her page me"
She nods and walks away
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*A month later*
"I'm worried about Amelia"
"Why?" Maggie asks
"She's acting like everything is normal, she makes jokes about her dead brother...she's using dark humor as a coping mechanism"
"Some people take time to fully process the loss of a loved one"
"I know that but she's pushing everyone away. Everytime I try talking to her about Derek she finds an excuse to leave and then avoids me" I say
I run my fingers through my hair and a tear slides down my cheek
"I miss him"
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*Three months later*
I arrive in the ER and smile when I see my patient
"Hey honey, what's your name?"
"I'm Jennifer" she says
"Nice to meet you, I'm doctor Y/l/n and I'll be your doctor today"
"You'll find out why I'm sick?"
I nod and show her a smile
"Warren, present"
"Jennifer Evans, 7 years old. Her parents brought her here because Jennifer told them that sometimes her vision is blurry and that her head hurts" he reads her file
"Alright. Let's take her up to CT and page doctor Shepherd"
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Amelia finishes the surgery and we both leave the OR to scrub out
"Can we talk?" I ask her
"About what?"
"You know about what"
