Bella Twins Teen Years: High School Sucks

The Whole Story. (Nicole)

Nicole's POV
JJ and I fought a lot since I came home from the hospital. I guess my mom told him I or he figured out that I took prescription drugs for my leg. He decided he was going to ask rude questions and make mean comments during our dinner about it. Why are you so stupid? He asked. That's really rude. I hope that's a joke. I said. At first I didn't know what he was talking about. You took random pills after school started and got really high. Then you took someone else's medicine. He said. That's stupid and so are you. No joke. I thought you would have seen the effects of drugs this summer but... I stopped him. It has nothing to do with him. I did it to help me you wouldn't get it. I said. How does taking pills that could have come from anywhere help you? I snorted them I didn't swallow pills like you think it was to relax. Oh well excuse me, that's a better way. Great job Nicole you were really relaxed while you were screaming and yelling things that were unrealistic. Taking someone else's pills that's genius too I think I'll do that to help myself become stupid like you did. It's probably your fault that Brie became the way she is now. I did for pain that's not even close to true I love her so shut the fuck up. I said. Oh what if I don't you'll get high again? No I'll punch you in the face! I yelled.

It got worse after our visits with Brie. Before we went I told JJ not to say anything about how any of us felt mainly my mom. Brie can't feel sad during this time she has to get better. Of course he did the opposite of what I said.

What the hell is wrong with you?! I yelled when I got home. I told you not to tell her about mom! I yelled. She needed to know she sounded like an idiot it's not like I told her everything! She thinks it's her! I yelled. It is Nicole. You didn't have to tell her! At first I thought it would just blow over, then she went to the hospital and I was really scared but I was hoping she would be fine. Then when she started screaming and throwing a tantrum and I got even more scared and worried. Now she's just stupid. How's she stupid? I said. She's not fat and oh "I don't deserve to eat." That sounds smart. You know what actually that would make sense to you because your always high. I wanted to grab him by the neck and show him how "high" I really was but I didn't. There's way more to want she has then that. Way more. You didn't let her finish I said. Her stupid...He started. No! Your stupid, dip shit! I yelled. Did you know she tried to kill herself? What? He said. People at school were bullying her they never stopped so she tried to kill herself at soccer in the locker room. That's why she was rushed to the hospital. She's extremely depressed. How come you didn't just tell me that when it happened or when I asked you!? You treat me like I'm 6 it's really annoying! He yelled. He was crying. It's hard to talk about and you get so worked up and mad. I'm sorry. I said. I love her too Nicole. But you hurt her...No your just a really sick person. You told her to kill herself. I really hate you knowing you said that to her. She's my twin sister and closest friend. Your lucky your still alive because I wanted to kill you when she told me that you worthless piece of shit. That's what you are not a person. If she kills herself because of you, your dead. That's not a threat that's a fucking promise. I hate you. Your a worthless and I hope...This is my fault great! I know Nicole. I suck. I'm worthless. She hates me and will try to kill herself because of me! I was so confused and upset she hates me and I'll never go back to see her. I felt a little bad. Knowing it hadn't effected Brie too much. I didn't think she wasn't going to do it she was doing a lot better. JJ no she's getting help. I told her she was fucking messed up too and that she was a freak! I'm done! I hate this. I hate myself! He went in his room and slammed the door. I heard him kick or punch the wall a few times. I didn't even fucking mean it I care about her! Fuck everything! I hate my life! He yelled. And he hit the wall again.
He was really mad and upset.
So was I.
Now he just won't talk to me at all. I was really glad I was seeing Brie today and it was our birthday. I had a great plan we were going to out to a club with fake IDs. It was going to be amazing. I got all dressed up. I looked really sexy. I got Brie-zee a similar outfit. So she would look really sexy too. This way they would defiantly let us in with the IDs and our outfits. I went and she wasn't on board at first but I talked her in to it. We made sure no one was looking which was hard but we made it out. We are going to get caught. Brie said. We will not. Your going to change in this restaurant and then were going to get something to eat. We went in and she changed in the restroom. I don't like this and thong feels weird. You look really great I hugged her. You'll get used to it. No I'll take it off. She said. No we have to make them think we are 21. At this point I don't even want to know lets just go out. She said. We went out and sat down. I'm getting fries,chicken fingers ,mozzarella sticks and a shake. What do you want? I said. You want them to think your 21 or 6? She asked. Not here who cares, and chicken fingers and fries are not just for six years olds. What are you getting? I asked again. Nothing. She said. Brianna. I said. You need to get something. I'll have some if yours. She said. That's fine. I said. I ordered. What are those bracelets for they are really pretty there's so many. Oh and the rubber band. Thanks I made them to cover my cuts and scars. Your still...No that's what the rubber band is for. Oh I said. It made me sad. Then, the food came. I was really hungry. I started eating. Brie was not eating but she was smiling and staring at me. What the hell is wrong with Brianna? I asked. I love watching you eat it makes me feel really good. I love you to death but, that's weird Brie. How many drugs do they give you a day because I'm pretty sure your high. I'm not high. She said. It makes me feel better to watch you eat and enjoy it. I never will but you are. I really like watching you. Okay stop saying it and eat I handed her a fry. No! She yelled. Brianna! I yelled back. No I have a chart to eat and everything I have to like 3 sometimes 4 times a day! I'm not doing extra! She yelled. Brianna just eat one. No! I'm so fat no one can understand that! I only eat so I can leave that hospital! She yelled. People in the restaurant were looking at us. She starred snapping the rubber band on her wrist and breathing weird. I was starting to think I should have left her at the hospital. Brie I'm sorry please stop doing that. The rest of the night will be great I promise. After I ate we went to a club, and like I thought they let us in. We went to the bar and got some drinks. We drank a little and decided to dance in other part of the club. We took our drinks and left. The music was great and Brie and I were having a good time dancing. Then I guy came up to me and started rubbing my arms and kissing my neck. I realized it was a guy from last summer. Hi Nicole. Stop! I said. I missed you so much. Come back to my place it will be just like old times I was sad when you stopped... I said stop! I yelled. Brianna quickly grabbed me and we left. That was close we'll go to another club and...Who the hell was that man Nicole?! I froze. Did you know him? She asked. Yeah. I said. I felt sick. Why do you know a grown man? She said. Brianna you can't tell anyone if I tell you. I won't. She said. No one knows. I said. Last year, well the middle and the end of freshman year, and around the time that dad left. I was selling me body. What! She yelled. Brie I know I don't it now please. It was him and one other guy that's all. Was he a grown man too? She asked. Yeah 35. She looked disgusted. That's illegal! What happened? She asked. I started to cry a little. We had sex four times maybe five they would pay me a lot of money Brie. Then I thought I was pregnant. I was crying really hard. Brianna hugged me. It was so scary! I said. I'm sorry. I wish you told me. I could have helped. She said. Why did you...sell your body. I was and am sad and worthless. I thought. Now I'm even more sad and depressed. For the money. I lied. Well not it wasn't really I bought some drugs to get high with some of the money when school started. That's when I knew I was falling apart a little, but I had soccer before this whole thing. I didn't want her to be upset so all I said was the money. Nicole. I know I'm whore alright I know. Stop saying that! She yelled. Stop saying slut too. I mean you use them too much. Don't call me that don't call yourself that. Alright. What about sluts at school? She glared at me. Fine but no, unless your talking about AJ. God I hate that bitch! She got suspended for along time. They realized she lied thank god. I said. Dolph's done for the year he was fined and might go to jail . She said. They found his tape. Why is going to jail? I thought. What? I said. They had sex that's all. He um he um. He Uh um. What Brianna talk! I said. She started to breath weird she leaned on my he...raped me. She whispered.