Bella Twins Teen Years: High School Sucks

Broken (Nicole)

Stephanie Nicole's POV
I was broken. I hurt myself so bad at the only thing I live for and now I can't even play. I hate my life. To top it off I'm in rehab now. I told my mom I can stop. You told me that last time. She said. I only need it so I'm not in pain. So I can play soccer. My leg hurt so bad after my surgery. They rolled me on a bed to a hospital room. It was small there were two beds, a certain that separated them, two chalk boards, two couches, a window, and a tv in the in the middle. This is your room. For the next two weeks. The doctor said. Shit! I thought two fucking weeks. The doctor helped me in the bed. Do I have to share a room with someone? Not right now the doctor said. Honestly, I didn't like not having Brie sleep in the same room with me. It made me feel empty. My mom and sister had to leave because of the stupid rules, for visiting if you have a serious issue. And apparently I have a drug problem. So mom and sister can't stay more then an hour and on certain days. They make me helping myself seem like the the worlds biggest issue. A doctors assistant walked in to my room. My heart skipped a beat. He was so fucking hot oh my gosh. Hi. He said. Hi. I said. I'm just he to take your vital signs. Okay. I said and smiled. Are you going to do that for the next two weeks. Yes. Is that okay? Yes it's great. I love you. I meant that. Fuck! I was so embarrassed. He laughed a little. After he was done he asked if he could get me anything. My leg really hurts. Can I just take the medicine I had been taking? He looked at the my chart. No. Sorry it's really dangerous. That's also part of why your here. But it helps! I yelled. I wasn't mad at him I just needed that medicine badly. They gave you a little medicine. You can take it again in an hour. My leg hurts now! I said. Do you want Tylenol? That shit doesn't help anything! I'm really sorry. He said. Fuck it, whatever! I yelled. I was starting to cry. He came over. It's not easy. He said. I hate myself. I said. Why? He said. Because I'm here. I said. I'm stupid so I'm here and everyone hates me. Your not stupid. He said. Don't hate your self you seem like a great girl. I don't hate you. Do you think your family hates you? My sister probably does. I told her I hated her and said really mean things to her. I didn't mean them. She thinks I did though. My mom's upset and I just upset her more. So she probably hates me too. My dad left when we needed him most so that answers that. Listen, He said. I don't know your family but hate is a very strong word. Your sister doesn't hate you and I'm positive your mom does hate you. Why? I said. Because they love you. He said. How would you know? Are you and your sister twins? Yes. I said. Before I came in here. I was downstairs. There was a girl who looked just like you. She was in tears. Saying how she was so worried, how she was going to miss you so bad, and how she loved you. Oh. I said. So people care about you remember that. He said. I'll be back in like fifteen minutes. He said and left the room.
The next day I got up and put on a sports bra and a sweatshirt. I ate breakfast then they had me talk to a therapist. It wasn't to bad. It was kind of helpful. After that I had to go to a group. I went in it was mostly guys and on other girl. I sat down. Hey. One of the guys said. He looked like he was a few years older then me. Why are you here? He said. Why do you care? I said. I think I can help that's why. How? I said. We going to start. The lady who ran the group came in and said. I'll tell you after. I didn't say to much. I wasn't big on telling a bunch of people my business. The guy came over at the end. What did you take? The reason your here. It was for leg pain. I don't remember what it was called. Why? Was one of these three? He said. Yeah it's that one. I said pointing to the one in the middle. You want it. Hell yeah! I said. He took out a bottle of the pills. I went to grab it. Hey, it's not free. He said. I only have ten dollars with me. I said. Give me that but you have to pay me the rest tomorrow. How much more 30 dollars. Damn that's a lot. I thought. I need these pills though. Fine. I said. Here you go. Thanks. I said.
The pills were helping. The next day the doctors assistant came in my room with a nurse. Hi. I said. Hi. They said. I didn't know why they were both there. I need you take a urine test. The nurse said. Shit! My heart felt like it stopped. No! I said. It's not really a choice. The nurse said. I was scared. I started to cry a little. I thought you liked me. I said to the doctor assistant. I do Nicole, but you have to do this it's a requirement. Fine! I yelled. I hate this place! It fucking sucks! If you really did like me you wouldn't make me do this! The nurse helped me to the bathroom. I did want they wanted. Here! I said handing her the cup. I hope your happy! She left. The doctors assistant helped me back to bed. I took pills, okay! I yelled. I figured that out when you didn't want to take the test. What are they going to do?! I said. I'm scared. They will find out where you got the pills. Get you away from that source. Way too many people come in with drugs and pills they shouldn't have. They are going to make sure you stop completely. So basically they will watch you a lot more. Fantastic! I said. They are probably going to call your mom. Dammit! I said. Why? She's already upset because I'm here. Your mom needs to know and you most like have to stay longer. Why do I always fuck everything up! I said. You don't it's hard to stop taking pills like that. I know. That's why your here so we can help you. I guess. I said. I'll be back with the nurse you already know what's she going to say. I can't fucking wait! I said. You curse way too much. He said and laughed a little.