Bella Twins Teen Years: High School Sucks

Break down or Away (Brie)

Brie's POV
I was so hung over. Hi the assistant came in and said. Go away! I feel awful. Push yourself Brianna. You have a week and a half. What? I'll miss Thanksgiving. Yeah. It might be better if you do. My mom will be really sad how's that better? I asked. If you are really good you could leave by thanksgiving. Yes! I yelled. Which made my head hurt more. You have to be really good you always have eat, no leaving to get drunk, no losing weight, no exercising. We looked at each other. What makes you think I exercise? I asked. You gained some weight then you lost it. I'm not 100 percent because I've never seen it but they force you to eat what else would it be? He said. But I know a lot more then you think. Get up. He said. I puked in the trash can twice. Ugh. Fine, you'll do your therapy this afternoon. Drink water. He said.
They jammed everything into the afternoon it was hard and depressing.
You have a visitor. The doctor said later that day.
I went to the visiting area it was Eva. I thought she hated me why was she here. Um...Hi. I said. Hi Brianna I'm really sorry about what I did. Oh I said. I'm sorry I made comebacks about you being pregnant. That's not as bad I knew you had a problem and didn't do anything except tell people on our team and call you a slut. She said. You also said I was gross. Tears rolled down her face. I'm so sorry. I really like Seth. That's why but that's a really bad reason and I'm sorry. Does he know? I asked. Yeah. He told me he loved you. I don't love him. I said. Yeah I know he's upset he won't come to school and if he does he's high or drunk. He came the other day talking about "His Brianna." I made him leave he was really high. He would have got caught. Oh now I feel bad. Don't. He'll be okay. She said. School's hard. I'm glad you are not there it's starting to be too much for me. How? I said. People are mean. Home's not any better. Your parents are mean? I asked. No they are not it's just too hard. I don't want explain it. She said. What do they say at school? I asked. I had to punch someone before Nicole came back because they were talking shit about you two. Then, those guys didn't like that I punched their friend so they embarrassed me I'm front of a lot of people. What did they do? I asked. She rolled up her sleeve. There were some many cuts. Eva! I said. They showed them to all there friends and made jokes. Oh my god. I said. That's so sad I'm sorry. I was crying so much. I have them too. I showed her mine, the brackets help hide them. Not this many. She said. Maybe you should talk to someone. Can't you go back to group? That's really sad. I said. No one can help me Brie I'm too messed up. You should just get better. I felt bad for her. Eva your going to end up right ... I started. No just leave it. There's more. She said. Is it like the stuff before? I asked.
No it's worse one guy is threatening to...rape Nicole. He says things like It will be so bad I'll choke you with my huge dick and you'll die. People are encouraging him and...WHAT!? I yelled. All this stuff was going to my head. Nicole didn't tell you. She said. I felt like I suffocating I felt like I couldn't think or do anything. Brie it's okay it won't happen I'll make sure. That's really dangerous! I yelled. She keeps saying school's fine. It's really not when do you see her again? She asked. After you she called me I'm going to talk to her. Alright. It's kind of scary. Eva said. No it is very scary. She hugged me. Then she kissed me and then tried to make out with me. I pulled away after a few seconds. Eva! I said loudly. I'm going I'm sorry I'm an idiot I'm sorry. I'm going. Sorry! She yelled. I could tell there were tears in her eyes. I didn't know how to make it better. I didn't feel that way about her. She ran out the door.
A few minutes later Nicole came. She hugged me. Hi Brie-zee. Sit down Nicole I need to talk to you. Are you okay? Yeah are you? I asked seeing what she would say. Yeah I'm...Stop! I said. Your lying so stop. No I'm...Eva came today. Nicole looked down. She should not have told you. Nicole said. You are trying to get better I didn't want you to know. Does mom know? I asked. No. I'm not telling her she would say I deserved it. Nicole she would never say that. Why would you think she would? Because she thinks I'm a whore. I kicked her. Ow what? I told you to stop calling yourself that. Mom needs to know. She doesn't think your a you know what. Yes she does. She found me having sex with some guy I barely knew. What did she say? I asked. She was mad she grabbed me off of him. Then we went to the doctors. And? I said. I have an STD. Gross. I said I mean I'm so sorry. Will it go away? Yeah. She said it's gone. She went on about calling him or his mom to tell them I could have given him a std. She said she was embarrassed. I don't care she needs to know about this guy. What if he hurts you Nicole. He wants to kill me. Nicole you need to tell mom maybe even the police is he 18? I know how old he is Brianna we are super close. She rolled her eyes. You don't seem to upset Nicole. I said. I don't think he'll do it. I thinks it's so him and his friends can have don't kick, me slut and rape jokes about me. They shouldn't even say that as a joke and what if it's not and ...rapes you. I said. I felt my anxiety coming back. It doesn't bother you? I asked. It does a little Brianna but I'm not trying to show anyone that. They say have fun being raped everyday. It happened to me it won't happen to you! It's too scary and you have no control! I yelled. Then I had an anxiety attack. It's been a while so I was due for one and it was only five minutes. Brie-zee I'll be fine please your worrying me. She put me on her lap and hugged me until I calmed down from the attack. Tell mom really tell her. Okay. She said I will. Not today but I will. Today Nicole. She's in bed. When's she up? When she comes to see you. That can't be all. It's not but when she is she's crying a lot. Call the police. I said. No. Well you have to get help Nicole! I said. I can call mom and...No I'll do it. Bye Brie-zee. Coco I'm serious I love you this won't happen to you. I love you too. She said.

Your coming to work out tonight right? Emma said. No I'm not they said I could leave if I was good and my mom really wants me home for Thanksgiving. Emma looked shocked almost mad and left and came back later. Hi. I said. Your going to be so fucking huge. She said. Okay? I said. Your already fat as fuck. That's why I asked you to work out. What? Why? I said. I wanted to cry. Oh Brianna you stupid little bitch! Stop! I said. No your fat and your ugly. You look like a hippie and your hair is ugly and it's too long. That's what I am and before it was falling out. I said. Gross. She said. No one here likes you. Shut up! I yelled. If I don't they don't. Your jealous. Of an ugly, fat and stupid bitch yeah right. What was happening I told her almost everything. Your sister's also really fat. That made me mad. Why are there two of you when your both ugly and really fat. If I was the size of Nicole I would be healthy and with my family. Not fighting with a mental patient. I thought. I would tell her to vomit after she eats or not eat at all but probably both. Shut the fuck up! I said and flipped her off. You'll be here forever. Oh ouch. She said. At least I'll be skinny. That girl was wrong your dad left because you are fat and ugly but you are still a slut too she just forgot the main reasons. You want to know why that guy raped you? She gave me no time to answer. That guy raped you because he knew you are a little worthless, fat cunt. She said and smiled. I got up pushed her and I threw something hard at her. Leave you fucking messed up bitch! I yelled. I was just being honest Brie I wanted you to know the truth. I wish you were dead because your so ugly. She said. Later I walked out of my room I was trying finding something to hurt myself with. I walked past the shower aka the work out area. She's so fat and dumb, she needs to cut some of that fat off. Eve said. I hope she kills herself. Emma said. Get the ugliest off the earth. I broke down. I ran I found scissors, safety pin, and the whiskey the girls hid. I wanted to die. No one likes me. My family lied I am fat, ugly and worthless. I went to bathroom I furiously stared to cut my hair and drink. The stuff they said was racing though my head. I cut the fat on stomach with a letter opener. Then I cut my wrist near my vein with the letter opener too hoping I would die but I only passed out and yelling a voice followed. Still not with it I felt someone pick me up and I don't remember anything else.
I woke up it was morning but I was strapped down to a bed this was not the room I had been in it was a different scary looking room. I was surrounded by doctors. Where am I? I asked.