Bella Twins Teen Years: High School Sucks

Hope is gone. (Brie)

Brie's POV
I went in my room. I found a note on my pillow it said:

Dear Brie-zee and anyone who cares,
I hate myself. I can't do this anymore. My life sucks! My only dreams went out the window. No one fucking likes me they didn't care when I felt worthless, trapped, depressed, broken, and fucked over they wanted me dead or they just don't care if I'm living. I want to be dead. They would do things to hurt me. People used me. People leave me when I need them the most. And, well you don't care and won't care that I'm dead. Maybe you will. I doubt it but, I'm telling you why. But don't you ever say you are sorry that I'm dead you are not fucking sorry! Don't say you loved me or you cared about me when I was here. Or you would have helped me. So that's bullshit! This way you don't have to waste your time I was worthless and my life is too. Now no one I mean I don't have to suffer. Brie come when you miss me I want us to be together. I love you. I hate everything else so fuck life!
-Stephanie Nicole

I couldn't stop crying. I knew she was in the bathroom now. I felt the same way she did. Why should I suffer? I loved her and we could go together. This way I won't miss her and suffer alone. I went in the bathroom and I told her my plan. I got some bleach and we drank it and she had one of my blades so we cut really deep in to our skin.

Nicole fell back. I watched her. Three minutes later I didn't. I was really scared now. I lifted her out of the water. Nicole wake up! I yelled. Nothing but a motionless body. I was so scared. Why is she dying and I'm not?! I thought. I started to cry. I went to the the hall and called 911. I told them what we had both done.  I just should have waited because I passed out while I was still on the phone.
I woke because I heard my mom screaming and crying hysterically. It sounded like people were in the house. I heard the front door slam. I was outside. I could still here my mom screaming. Why wasn't I dead why didn't this work was all I could think any the moment. I was in and out mentally and physically for the rest of the morning. I do remember asking for Nicole. No she's a trigger for you and you are for her. It made me sad but I passed out again anyway. Around noon. I was completely with it. I was really tired but I had a sick feeling in my stomach. I realized after that I was home again. JJ ran in my mom's room where I had slept and I guess she had left me after the hospital. He looked really worried. Where? Is all I could make out he was starting to scare me. Did you here mom? He said. A little what did you? What happened? Yes I heard all of it. It's bad Brianna. I don't want to tell you. Where's my sister?! I asked angrily. I was not thinking clearly. I got up and walked over to him. I don't think it's a good idea because you are just starting to feel better with yourself. I guess you would find out any way though. Nicole filled the bath tub then I think she hurt herself, she got in the bath tub and... As he was telling me I started to remember. NO! I yelled. NO! I was crying really hard. I was having trouble breathing and I fell on the floor and screamed. JJ sat down with me. Please Brianna I...She's my other half! I yelled. I know but...I'm going to stab myself! I screamed. No you aren't! JJ said. She wanted me to
and I did! It didn't work and I don't know why! I yelled. What do you mean. You two talked about this?! A little but mom had her in here I thought she was okay. Not like me. You didn't think to tell mom she wanted you to kill yourself. I wanted the suffering to be over so I tried too. Brianna! He yelled you know what...Then he started to cry really hard. I hugged him. We got up I we went to Nicole and my room so I could get a blanket to go to his room. I went in and the the letter was on the floor. JJ opened it.
This is so fucked up what the hell?! He said. "Come when you miss me." That's disturbing. I'm going to stab myself in the throat until I die! I miss her! I yelled. No you aren't going to my room. He said. No! I fell on the floor and screamed. JJ is actually a lot stronger then I thought because he picked me up while I was screaming and took me to his room and laid me on his bed. I laid there and cried for about 20 minutes.
Then, I thought of a plan.