Happy or sad, calm or angry, it doesn't matter what or how I'm feeling, all the "normal" people experience emotions with ease, most of them at least. Me? I feel emotions so strongly, like 150% and sometimes it sucks, especially with negative feelings.
A
Afraid: when I'm afraid, I shake uncontrollably, I jump at the slightest noise or movement, I struggle to breathe, and my thoughts are all over the place.
Amused: when I'm amused, I can stare at the same thing for hours, and not notice time flying by, I can sit there for 4 hours, thinking it's only been 10 minutes.
Angry: when I'm angry, I'm so filled with rage, I feel like punching and kicking something, I feel like screaming and yelling, like breaking something, my mind races with violent thoughts, and I can't control it. It's scary.
Annoyed: when I'm annoyed, every single thing someone does, pisses me of, whether it be breathing, eating, or just existing, it pisses me off. I need to always watch my mouth when I'm pissed off because I don't want to lash out.
B
Bored: When I'm bored, I forget all the things that I have planned on doing for ages, let's say, I have felt like drawing for so long, but haven't had time, but when I have time and I'm out of my mind bored, nothing comes into my head, I have no idea what I could do to entertain myself, so I usually have to force myself to do something which makes me annoyed.
C
Combative: When I'm in the mood to argue, there's no holding back, I purposely make people annoyed to get them to argue with me, and I know how toxic this is and I hate that I do this, but I can't help it.
Confused: when I'm confused, I forget everything, what was I doing? Where was I going? Who was I meeting? Nobody knows, it's like I just forgot everything all of a sudden, and spawned into a world without an assignment or task.
Curious: when I'm curious, I go through so much to get the answers I want/need. Nothing can stop me, so when someone wrongs me or ignores me, I make sure they answer, and I know it's wrong, but once again, I can't help it.
D
Depressed: when I'm depressed, I feel so hopeless, so worthless and so useless. Like nothing matters, like I am nobody to anybody. Which is why I struggle with suicidal ideation. I feel like everyone is better off without me.
Disappointed: when Im disappointed, I get hurt, I cry, I feel angry, I feel hateful, because whatever disappointed me, was unfair.
E
Exhausted: when I'm exhausted, I just can't do anything, can't get out of bed, the slightest movement causes me to need a break, sometimes I might fall asleep sitting up or standing up, I might lay on the floor and end up falling asleep there, I'm so drained that it doesn't matter what the circumstances are, I just need to sleep.
G
Grateful: when I'm grateful, I feel the need to constantly thank people, to the point where it gets annoying and repetitive, for example, a friend borrows some money, and weeks later I might still be thanking them for borrowing money.
H
Hate: when I feel hateful, I get angry, so so angry, I'm filled with rage, and I act just as I would if I was angry.
S
Sad: when I'm sad, everything makes me want to cry, I constantly feel tears forming in my eyes, and no matter what, I just can't stop the tears.
Shy: when I get shy, I get quiet and withdraw myself from others, I'm worried about being judged and made fun of.
Silly: when I feel silly, I get loud and do silly things, sometimes to the point where it annoys others, or even annoys myself, I try to do things that may be considered silly, but in reality are just so annoying. Loud laughing, to the point where i start coughing is one example.
These are some examples of how extreme my emotions can get. It can get so exhausting to feel emotions when they're always so strong.
