Reverse operation // Thiam

Find me

"Theo?" I looked up again.

"Liam!" I said shocked. He smiled.

"Hey." He sat down opposite me.

"Look I'm sorry for earlier, it was stupid of me to be rude." He shook his head. I smiled.

"Liam remember. I'm gay gay. Not bi not pan I'm gay. I like dick and dick only." He laughed.

"I know." I smiled but it soon faded as I remembered my conversation with Mason. I bit my lip.

"What's wrong?"

"Liam do you ever have doubts about..." I paused, "About out relationship." Liam straightened up a frown settling on his forehead.

"No...what are you saying?" He said in disbelief.

"I just-" I shook my head, "I just don't know if being in a relationship is good for me."

"Oh."

"Liam please don't take this the wrong way. I love you, I love you so much it hurts but... I just don't want to keep hurting you."

"Hurting me?"

"Oh come on we can't even go a day without me saying something I don't mean or doing something that makes you mad at me! I don't want this to be like that. You are special Liam," I paused, "And I'm just Theo." Liam stared at me in disbelief ne tried to reach out for my outstretched hand but I moved it away.

"Just please go." I said shaking my head.

"But Theo-"

"Just go Liam!" I turned away from him staring at a bookshelf to my right until I heard him get up and leave. That was when I finally let the tear roll down my face.

I sat there staring at my hands wondering if that was really the right decision to make. Liam was right for me, he was so right for me in so many ways. But was I right for him? No... I just held him back.

I skipped last period staying at my spot in the library eventually making my way onto the floor in the gap between two book cases where I could be hidden. After a while my thoughts began to drift and my hands started to itch. Itch for that metal blade. I clenched my fists together squeezing my eyes shut hopelessly trying to block out the urge to do it. I promised I wouldn't. I took a deep breath and opened my eyes the build up fading away. I looked down and saw that the cuts that I had made towards other day had finally healed, I guess my body finally caught up with itself.

I closed my eyes again pushing a tear astray letting it roll down my cheek slowly. Then another, then another till I fell asleep.

When I awoke not only was it morning but my phone was blowing up from phone calls. I must've slept through the whole night. I picked my phone up reading some of the messages.

Scott Ⓜ️📞: Where are you?

Scott Ⓜ️📞: Mums getting worried please come home

Isaac 🧣: Melissa is freaking out without you here. Where the bloody hell are you!

Stiles 🚙: Hey I came round at four like you asked but Scott said you weren't home yet? We can reschedule if you need. I hope you're okay Theo 💕

Mason 📚: If you need anything just call, I'm here for you Theo 💞

Liam 💞: Um Scott said you didn't get home last night. Just be safe Theo. And I love you too by the way, so much it hurts...

I swallowed thickly thinking about how many people I let down last night. It was my idea to have Stiles and Mason round and I didn't even show up. Melissa was apparently worried sick, Scott and Isaac seemed mad. And Liam... fuck.

My phone began to ring and Liams contact name appeared on the screen. I hesitated before tapping the answer button and bringing the phone to my ear.

"Theo?"

"I'm here." I croaked out my morning voice very prominent.

"Holy shit where are you?"

"Liam I'm sorry. I'm so sorry." I shook my head feeling the tears pushing at the back of my eyes again.

"Hey, it's okay. Don't worry it's okay. Just tell me where you are and I can come get you!" I shook my head again staying silent.

"You still there?" I pulled the phone away from my ear hanging up on Liam. They'd find me soon enough, I just didn't want that to be yet.

I hauled myself up shoving my books from last night back into my bag. Plugging my headphones into my phone and shoving the earphones into my ears. Pulling my jacket on and tucking my phone into the pocket. I slung my bag over my shoulder and walked out of the Library. I clicked shuffle on my playlist and the song started to play.

You keep sayin' you've got somethin' for me

I walked through the hallways pushing open the doors into the school flinging them open just as cars started to pull into the school parking lot. As I walked heads turned in my direction so I pulled my hood over my head and continued shoving my hands into my pockets.

These boots are made for walkin'

And that's just what they'll do

One of these days these boots are gonna walk all over you

I caught a glimpse of Stiles' blue jeep from the corner of my eye and saw him standing there staring at me. I put my finger to my lips then turned around and kept walking.

Stiles would spill soon enough but at least this gave me a little bit of a head start before he told Scott. My phone started to buzz again and this time it was Scott's name that popped up. I answered it.

"Well to what do I owe the pleasure." I said crossing the road.

"Stiles saw you Theo. Where are you going."

"Wow it really didn't take long for him to spill did it?" I said turning around and walking backwards so I could see Scott standing in the school parking lot his phone up to his ear.

"Cut the bullshit! You've got a lot of people worried Theo. Just- just come home." My smile faltered.

"You're not worried about me. You're worried about what I could do." I leant against a wall watching Scott look around for me.

"Theo come home." He said firmer. That's when he saw me and I smiled.

"I don't have a home." I hung up and watched Scott pull the phone from his ear. I watched him turn around to tell everyone he'd seen me and I took it as my chance slipping out of view down an alleyway.

They'd find me, just not yet.

I ditched my phone close by to where Scott had seen me. I'd miss my music for sure but I wasn't about to let them call me again. Unluckily for them I knew beacon hills like the back of my hand, you have no idea how much scoping I had to do of different areas for potential candidates for the dread doctors. Beacon hills was just like a playground and I was the one playing in it.

I don't know why I wanted to run all of a sudden. The amount of favours the people I was running from had done for me. But I needed to be alone, even just for a day, alone.

Little did I know that day would turn into a week, into a month, into several... until I couldn't run anymore.

"HELP! HELP ME HE'S DYING!"

"What's going on ma'am?"

"I found him outside my house. He doesn't look so good! I think he's dying!"

"Put him over h- Theo?"

Are you ready boots? Start walking.