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The right place

I walk into my room slowly and lightly push my door it doesn't even close. I sit at the bottom of my bed and think

Is what I'm doing even right ?

Is staying away from Alex really what I want ?

This feeling of not knowing what to do is annoying and frustrating . Tear fall down my cheek which makes me even more annoyed I hate this, I hate this feeling, I hate not been able to change anything to change him.

Trevor pushes the door open slowly and make his way in, I wipe my tears away as he takes a seat next to me.
"Mia ?" He calls holding my hands and making me face him.

" I can't do this " I say in a shaky voice I don't know how many times I said this.
" It's ok Mia it's ok " he says brushing my hair. I place my against his chest
" I don't want to lose you Trevor and I don't feel like leaving you even" I say muttering into his chest.

He takes one deep breath in before he lifts my head and kisses me, I stare at him before I close my eyes allowing the tear escape before kissing him back, he puts his arm around my waist and pulls me closer, my hands make its way up to his hair I don't what I'm doing or what I'm even feeling. We break up, both of us breathing heavily a grin appears on trevors face making me smile soon after.

He gives me a kiss on my forehead.
"Get ready we going out for lunch " he says smiling before leaving my room. Once the door closes I fall back on my bed and smile to myself like an idiot. And in that moment I forgot everything all my pain, my lost, Alex, the pack, everyone. In this moment all I want to be is happy.

I don't have anything to wear !!!!

I wake up of the bed and make my way to the wardrobe I open it only to find empty hangers.
"All dressed ?" Trevor says from side of me I turn to see him dressed in a black tshirt and gray sweatpants. My eyes widen and I let out a small giggle.
" you want to wear couple clothes " I say almost squealing. He smiles at me before gently grabbing my hand and intertwine our fingers.

We leave the small cottage like mansion and drive pass the lining of trees. After a few minutes of driving I see a castle on a mountain cliff it looks so unreal.
"Where are we ?" I ask as I stare at the castle.
"Scotland " he says as we round the corner and a small city comes into view. We park in an empty parking lot and get off.

"Most of the stuff we need to do is in this area, we can just walk" he says as he walk towards me and leads me to our first destination.

The sign reads "The royal botanic garden", the dusty London style building, brown walls stands strong til this day, the blue and white windows around the dome at the top reflects the golden sunlight giving life to the flowers below. I open the double glass doors to reveal a....... it's just so beautiful I can't even comprehend.

"This is so beautiful " I say as I give a small twirl, the sounds of birds chirping in the far distance and the butterflies.

I look at Trevor who has his gaze fixed on me. I smile softly at him as a slight blush creeps on his face.

I let out a small chuckle as he stares at me startled.
"You're blushing !" I say smiling as I walk closer to him. His blush fades and his face holds a neutral expression.
"I won't be the only one blushing just now" he says with a mischievous smirk playing on his lips, he walks closer and my heart goes crazy.

"What are you going to do Trevor?" I say smiling as I back away.
"OH nothing " he says innocently as he grabs my hand before I can run, he pulls me towards him and I crash into his chest. 

"Trevor!!" I say as I try to free my hand while looking at him. He inches his face closer to mine and smiles before letting go of my hand.

" this is a public garden how come we the only ones here today ?" I ask as I look around. He shrug his shoulders
"I paid to have the garden for today " he says as he walks forward. He paid for this just so we could spend time here.

I jogged a little to catch up to him.
"You didn't have too" I say looking up at him from the side
"I know" he says as he looks forward. He stays silent for a while before he stops, I stop a few feet in front of him. He looks at the floor before he picks his head up to met my eyes.

"I wanted this..... a time for you to relax, a time for us to relax...iiiii" before he continues I walk towards him and hugs him. His body tense up before relaxing he takes a breath in and hugs me back
"Thank you Trevor " I whisper into his chest.

We spend the next few minutes in the garden, they had a small sitting area at the middle of garden. Leaning against each other we talking about all the times we had together
"You remember......." the sun was slowly fading in between the clouds creating a little ocean of cloud shadows on us.

"Let's see the rest of the garden " Trevor asked as he slowly moved away from me. I nod my head, we see every flower  available to mankind in every shade I could think of. 15 minutes later we make our way back to the middle of garden

And there in middle, a tiny dining table was set up, the chairs decorated with vines and flowers, the white table cloth decorated with red and light pink rose petals, soft instrumental music plays in the background. I start to tear up and for once it's not because of something bad but for once something happy.

A MINUTES LATER........

"Did you enjoy your garden lunch ? " He ask as holds and intertwine our fingers leaning in slowly by my ear as we make our way out of the garden.

I nod my head slowly as I look at him the cool midday breeze brushes his hair as he look straight ahead. I never felt so in love with anyone like this before, my heart just feels so full, I finally understand the love described in books.

We see a bunch of other beautiful designed buildings, amazing scenery and great people at the end we made our way to art festival. There were plays been recited, musicians singing, normal people taking part in competition.

We pass stalls with hand made necklaces, painting, food, books and my favorite art supplies. We stop by the art supplies I look through the supplies, I haven't painted or sketched for weeks.

We walk away from the stall and make our way to play been acted out it's romeo and juliet. We watch the ending scene.

Romeo makes his way to Juliets lifeless body, he let's out a cry of agony as he hold her body in his hands
He pulls out a bottle of posion and drinks it. Just as romeo dies Juliet wakes up to find Romeo next to her, she kisses him one last time before she takes his dagger and stabs herself...

The story ends there and the crowd claps at the end with a few roses tossed at the actors as the took they final bows. I turn to look at Trevor but his not there I look behind me but nothing, I make my way through the crowd looking for him amongst the sea of people.

"Trevor!!"I called out hoping he would answer but nothing. Where did he go no no he won't leave me here alone no he won't do that he must be here somewhere. I walk around close to where the play was but I still can't find him.
"Trevor!!!!" I call out one last time before I sit on the pavilion.

"Where are you Trevor ?"

Part 2 coming soon !
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