Sincerely, Vantae

Jin's Batter

More weeks passed and the beach's bipolar autumn—warm temperatures one day, unbearable rainfall the next, passed without incident. Without Lili.

According to what her mom had told me, she didn't think it made much sense for her to spend over a thousand dollars on a plane ticket to come home for fall break. I didn't get a chance to offer to foot the bill because I was too engrossed in the hectic insanity of law school and I couldn't catch a break to save my life.

Everyone in my program operated on a cutthroat level and had already developed close knit study groups, so it left me with a lone study partner. Eunha.

She was just as enthusiastic about the law as me: She'd scored a 180 on the LSATs as well, and her dad had influenced her into the career field, too.

"Hey. Do you want to split up the justice chapters again?" She tossed a few gummy bears in my direction. "Or maybe you just want to stare into space for a few more hours."

"We can split them up," I stood up and walked into my kitchen. "You want more coffee?"

"Yes, please."

I pulled out two mugs—noticing a new Post-It from wooshik on the cabinet door: "There's absolutely no reason why you still haven't fucked Eunha yet. That's the best way to get over LIli...Just do it."

I crumpled the note and threw it away.

"Can I ask you something, Vantae?" Eunha sat up on the couch.

"Anything."

"Are you dating someone?"

"I think you would know by now if I was. Don't you?"

"Not necessarily..." She blushed. "I mean, we do spend a lot of time together, but you always slip away for hours at a time on the weekends."

"To complete my internship hours." I smiled. "I'm pretty sure you do the same thing on the weekends."

"Oh, right..." she said, and then, as I placed the coffee in front of her, she cleared her throat. "Would you like to go out sometime? Like, as friends? Nothing more than friends?"

I hesitated, finally looking her over and paying attention to her features. She was pretty—auburn colored hair, bright brown eyes, and if it weren't for a certain someone, I would've once considered her one of the most beautiful women I'd ever met. "Sure."

"Great! This weekend all of the first years are going to dinner and a movie downtown. Is that cool with you?"

"Perfect...Which chapters do you want me to outline?"

We worked side by side until nearly midnight, stopping after we'd gone through two more pots of coffee. I helped her put all her things back into her backpack and walked her outside to her car.

"We got a lot of work done today," she said, smiling as I held her car door open for her.

"We did. I'm sure we'll get the highest scores again, too."

"I'm sure..." She hesitated a second, and then she stood on her toes and planted a kiss on my cheek. "See you Saturday, vantae."

"See you Saturday..." I forced a smile and waited until she drove off before walking back inside. I was about to collapse on the couch and call it a night, but I spotted a letter on the TV stand. Addressed to me in Lili's handwriting.

I quickly ripped it open and sat on the couch to read:

Dear Vantae,

Sorry it took me so long to respond to your last letter, but unfortunately not much has changed in my life since we last wrote. (Or spoke...)

I still hate it here. It's absolutely beautiful despite the lack of beaches in the part of town I'm in, but that's about all I can say...

Anyway, who would've thought you would be number one in your class? I mean, I knew you'd do well, but that's amazing. Good for you. Maybe you can be my lawyer if I ever open up my own restaurant? (Funny how I've never given much thought to that before, but that'd be nice.)

Also, THANK YOU for sending me even more of those jars of jin's waffle batter. Believe it or not, I've used them all and I've got my classmates hooked on the crack that is jin's waffles. Well, that's it for me for now...Let me know how you're doing and I'll try to write back faster next time.

Sincerely, Lili

Three Months Gone...And More

Dear Lili,

I refuse to believe that you're not checking your emails at all.

I could maybe understand if you're reading them and quickly deleting them, but could you at least respond to one of the ones I sent you last week (or at least this letter. At least THIS goddamn letter so I know that you're reading what I send you...) whenever you get a chance. I need to talk to you about something important.

Not much has changed in my life here at home.

Still in law school.

Still number one in the class.

Still missing you. (More than I'll ever be able to explain.)

Sincerely, Vanate

Dear LIli,

I need you to respond. Now.

Say something...Anything.

Sincerely, Vantae

Dear Vantae,

Happy Thanksgiving! I hope you enjoyed the holiday! (Please tell Wooshik I said hello!)

Sincerely, Lili

Dear Vantae,

Merry Christmas! Hope Santa brought you everything you wanted and more! (Thank you for sending me more waffle batter from Jin's! I've also mailed a separate "thank you" note just for that.)

Sincerely, Lili

Dear Vantae!

HAPPY NEW YEAR! Whoa, crazy how the past six months have just flown by, huh? All is well here—I'm officially my teacher's favorite student and I think I might have a real female BFF in Roseanne. (I think the distance made us stronger.)

Sincerely, Lili