SWEET AND SOUR || Kim Taehyung

68 - delicate

An irrelevant plot whispered in the background of my mind, the actors on the television only standing as a distraction as I stared off in thought.

I guess the only purpose of the television being on right now was to stop us from thinking about everything that had happened; well, to stop me at least, Y/n had already fallen asleep.

I slid one of my arms which lay weightless across her back up to her head, gently pushing back the hood which shaded her face.

She slept so quietly, so peacefully.

Her dark eyelashes, styled and manipulated by the tears she poured at school. This is more than enough to cause trauma, more than enough to leave a scar, a mental scar that is, as Bryce had already taken care of the physical scars.

There was still a bitter taste on my tongue. Maybe I'd never get rid of this flavour of contempt.

Will my mind ever stop. The repetition of horrific ideas that may actually be reality, I have no idea to what extremes Bryce pushed, but I'll only know if Y/n ever feels ready to tell me. But I can wait, and I will.

I blinked to keep my eyes from drying, it was easy to slip into a trance, where you completely forget to blink, the only thing important is that one thought that continues to run circles around you.

I now started to recognise the sound of other voices other than just my own in my head, I looked up at the tv, something was happening at a police station, wasn't sure what, and I didn't really care.

I wander what the police will do actually, the actual police. I didn't return after lunch. I couldn't imagine that it was that serious if I've had no calls or visits, but then again, I was no longer the suspect, I was now one of the victims.

One of the two..

I looked back towards Y/n, her fingers poked out from the sleeves of my hoodie and curled round each other.

She was so fucking delicate, so delicate that she could be shattered at any moment. I knew that she was on the edge, it would take one more thing, just one more moment of extortionate pain and suffer. It sounds unlikely that something like that would just come up, but that's all Y/n's ever seemed to run into.

But just because she's walking across a tightrope, it doesn't mean that she's not strong, because for her to be able to come to me afterwards, to smile and laugh, it's a miracle.

Just please, god, I know I've not been great, I know I have a lot to make up for, but please, give her a rest, let her sleep, let her live.

The strain in my throat was scratching for tears, begging for an expression of regret.

But I was raised and trained to block it out, although
something about her made my guards weak.

An aggressive pattern of vibrations suddenly called for my attention as my phone almost manoeuvred itself off of my bedside table.

I quickly reached over after hearing a small mumble against my chest, aiming to answer the call to shut off the volume of my ringtone before it woke y/n.

I quickly answered, speaking quietly, "hello?"

"Hi, Tae."

I recognised that it was Jimin immediately, and what more was that he sounded worried.

"Are you okay?" I asked.

He paused for a moment before a breathy laugh cracked through the speaker of my phone, "I put him in hospital by accident, I didn't know I was throwing punches that hard."

My eyes widened and the breath in my lungs rushed to my throat all at once, "hospital!?"

"Yeaah, I couldn't find it in me to stop really. Jungkook and Kiran had to pull me off of him."

I sighed, sitting up slowly, not to disturb Y/n.

"I'm not really surprised, I would have felt the need to do hospitalise him as well. But what does that mean for you, are you in trouble, or.."

"No, I got off the hook. I wasn't caught but I don't doubt that I'll be at least called up by the head tomorrow. I think we're all going to be talked to about the whole thing, with the police as well. It looks extremely suspicious that all of this is happening within the one day, and Bryce being involved with it all as well."

"That's cause it is fucking suspicious Jimin, they're all gonna find out about this, it's within our interest that he's called out, isn't it?"

I lowered my voice quickly, trying to stop my anger from taking control. I heard Jimin sigh, one of those sighs he exaggerates when I'm not thinking clearly.

"Tae, I don't know if Y/n's going to be so okay with talking about this to anyone. You know the amount of shit that actually happens and doesn't get dealt with because it's too difficult to face."

I looked down again, she was still huddled up within her own warmth.

He was right, I was thinking too forwardly.

"Bryce might even be let off with the whole thing. I don't think that he'll be coming back to school after all of this, so I wouldn't be surprised if he manages to snake his way out of it." 

I clenched my jaw out of frustration, there's no way the fucking cunt is running away from something like this, there's no fucking way.

"Taehyung. I can literally feel your anger through the phone. You need to calm down, this is for Y/n remember, if she wants to move on as quickly as possible then we're most likely going to have to move on."

The whites of my knuckles slowly started to loosen and I let my hands fall from the farm of a clenched fist.

It's for her, Taehyung.

I let my hand gently fall to her head, my hand pushing back the hood to expose her face fully. I stroked back her hair slowly.

Jimin was right.

She shouldn't push herself at a moment like this.

"Hey, maybe a good way to cope would be the trip to Paris, for the seniors."

I smiled gently, refusing to break the contact of my hand on her head.

"Yeah, maybe."

A few seconds of silence sunk in.

"And, Tae, maybe it will come to the conclusions that Bryce had some grudge against you and that's why he set you up with drugs, we'll not forget what happened today, but we'll move on, and we'll reflect on it. You know you've come so far, I would have never expected you to step down from a fight because you felt the need to be there for someone instead, it's truly remarkable."

A small smile found its way to my lips.

It was all thanks to her, that's what he come so far.

BUONANOTTE, BUONASERA, BUONGIORNO! I missed this so much, you have no idea 😭💕💕💕💕💕💕 I love you all unconditionally