Taking chances

Knocked down a peg

(Hey yall! Here's another trigger warning for those who need it. There are mentions of self harn and suicidal thoughts so skip the next few pages if you must)

*by the time jasmine got back to the flat, she had her thoughts and emotions all over the place and was seconds away from screaming*

Jasmine: *took a minute to take a few deep breaths and calm her thoughts. she has no idea how long she was sat there because the next thing she knew, she was startled by carlos knocking on her window then opening her door*

Carlos: *had seen jasmine sat in her car for 5 - 10 minutes so he had to go out and see what was going on.* hey... what you doing out here? *crouchs down by the driver side as he looks up at jasmine*

Jasmine: *bites her lip nervously* sorry! i just needed a minute! its been one heck of an afternoon. *laughs nervously*

carlos: *furrows his brows in confusion and worry* why, what happened?

Jasmine: i dont know exactly! its just that roxy was being very quiet most of the day. then when i asked her about it, she said she needs to figure it out properly before she can tell me. *furrows her brows because she is still trying to figure out what the problem is*

Carlos: *of course had his earlier suspicions circling his mind from what he saw a little less than a month ago. but he promised that he wouldnt talk about it because he knows that it might not be that at all and he cant risk loosing jasmine for his false accusations against her co-worker* im sure its nothing! lets just foget it for now and get you inside so you can get into your comfies and we can have that big cuddle session we spoke about earlier. *smiles as jasmine smiles back then takes hold of his hand as he leads her out the car and gets her bag from the passenger seat before locking up and going inside*

Jasmine: *walks in the front door and immediatly notices how elliot isnt in his usual spot on the couch. that usually means that he is hiding away in his room coz of high pain levels. that thought makes jasmine sad so she turns to carlos, about to ask him about it*

Carlos: *knew exactly what jasmine was thinking when she saw the empty space on the couch so he is quick to speak* he'll be ok! hes just gone down for a nap! i told him id wake him when we are ready for dinner. *smiles at jasmine in hopes that she wont worry too much*

Jasmine: *was very much concerned but she knows that there isnt muh she can do so she just needs to relax as much as possible and wait it out to see when elliot when he gets up* ok...

Carlos: *leans in to kiss jasmine* come on! lets get you settled. *hangs jasmines jacket on the coat rack then puts her shoes on the floor below it.* would you like to keep your bag in your room? *he knew that she likes to keep most of her belongings in the one place so she doesn't risk loosing it or forgetting where she left it*

Jasmine: *had that thought exactly* yeah! i'm just gonna get my pj's on! *gives Carlos one last kiss before walking off*

Carlos: alright! Ill be here when your ready! *smiles as jasmine turns to smile back before disappearing into her room*

*after carlos go some drinks and snacks set up for him and jasmine, he sat on the couch and thought about how much he really wants to message roxy himself. Less than a minute of holding himself back, he got up and went straight to his room to get his phone*

*carlos' phone! On the facebook app!
Conversation between him and roxy:

carlos: what the hell do you think you are playing at! *impatiently taps his foot on the ground while he glares at his phone as if it will make roxy respond quicker*

*a few seconds later! The 3 dots by roxy's name appears*

roxy: what are you talking about? *was also pissed off that she was being spoken to in such a way by someone she already hates enough as is*

Carlos: dont act so inoccent! You were giving her the silent treatment today and making her think that you hate her! We've already come close to loosing her because she overthinks like that and thought that we all hated her.

roxy: im so sorry she thought that! I didnt mean for it to happen and i tried to explain that to her today!

Carlos: yeah! Well you clearly didnt try very hard because she has been distant ever since she came home from work because of you.

roxy: im sorry! Ill talk with her and clear things up

Carlos: you better!

*turns his phone off and angrily slams it on the couch then crouches over, putting his head in his hands. After a minute or 2, he thinks about how jasmine has been in her room for quite some time. So he gets up and heads straight for her room, knocking on the door before entering*

Carlos: *walked into jasmines room and sees her clothes on the floor but no sight of jasmine. Then he looks around some more and sees that her bathroom light is on and the door is cracked open slightly* jazzy? ...you ok? *walks up to the bathroom door and leans closer to try and hear movment*

Jasmine: *had been taking her makeup of when she fell to her knees crying and muttering stuff to herlself because she has started to let the goblins in her mind convince her that everyone really does hate her. Today was just the cherry on top that pushed her over the edge* go away! *sounded so broken*

Carlos: *was immediatly panicked at heaing jasmine. But no matter how much he wants to just run in there and hold jasmine, he knows that it will just make her worse. So instead he just sits himself by her bathroom door and speaks softly, being careful of his words* come on jazzy! Ive got your favourite juice and snackes all set up for out movie and cuddle.

Jasmine: dont care! *tried to say in noncholantly but carlos knows better. He knows its just the goblins in her mind trying to push her away from everyone she loves, as if that would make things easier for her*

Carlos: you sure! Not even for some monster much crisps? *knew that it was jasmines all time favourite and she always had a hard time denying herself of them*

Jasmine: *thoughts about it for a moment before the goblin whispered in her ear again and made her curl up into herself even more* i said no! *raised her voice a little because she just wants all the voices in her head to stop*

Carlos: *was so worried about the state jasmine would be in. He was really hoping that she hadnt tried to hurt herself again but he knows that there is a big chance that she has. That thought alone made him more despererate to go in their and see her* please let me in jazzy! Im not gonna hurt you! *swallowed the lump in his throught because he was also wanting to cry just hearing the person he loved, suffer like this*