He is Mine (under revision)

Chapter Eight - *In Tears Again* -

 "Umm! Kuya Mark who is that lady with Anthon?"I asked kuya Mark. Believe din ako sa sarili ko, sobrang lakas ng loob para mag tanong.

And kuya Marck looked at me.

We are dancing now at that dance floor. Si Kuya Lloyd ang nag-aya sa akin na sumayaw kaya lang hindi ito pinayagan ni Kuya Mark, Kailangan pa daw namin mag bonding dahil ilang taon ako nawalay sa kanya. Kaya ito we are here dancing  kasama namin si Tita and Tito. We looked like a happy family nag papalitan pa sina Tito at Kuya ng partner, between me and Tita, kaming apat lang ang sumasayaw, family dance daw eh!

Sobrang saya sana kaya lang sobrang sakit din ng puso ko. 

Hindi ko kinaya kanina na harapin si Anthon at si Nina. Felt that I am so much in pain. Nag excused muna ako sa kanila  para pumunta ng restroom. I cried there, inside the restroom, I burst out all the pain inside my heart.

 Ng medyo gumaan na pakiramdam ko bumalik na ako sa table kung saan naroon sila Kuya. My heart bleeding every time I saw Anthon and Nina that they are so sweet. Ilang kurap nagawa ko just to stop the tears na gustong umalpas sa aking mga mata. Ilang lunok din nagawa ko just to clear my throat para hindi pumiyok boses ko every time na nag sasalita ako. In short. I am pretending that I am okay but deep inside me I am in so much pain! Ang hirap-hirap pala mag pertend.

Naging bato na ako sa isang oras pa lang na nakita ko siya. All my body is numbed just because of pain. I want to go home but I don't want to ruin the big night of Kuya Mark, I am sure he will asked me why this early eh uuwi na ako, alangan naman na mag reason out ako na I am tired. Very mababaw na reason. So I need to be strong, need to pretend that I am okay even though  I’m not, even I'm dead inside.  And just what I said I want to move fast forward. Silly! Maybe this could help me alot, that seeing him with somebody.  Hope I could do. Hope seeing him with that mean girl can wake my stupid feelings. I wish!

And now I am asking Kuya Mark. I want to know the true. I am ready to know who is that damn woman beside him is. The woman caused of pain in my heart.  She kills me a lot! I hate her so much! She's a witch!

And Even the true kills me. It doesn’t matter to me. All I want now is the truth. So that I can convince myself to forget him and start my life that he is not existed.  I am tired, very tired to keep this feeling inside my heart. Parang ayaw ko na. 

Gusto ko ng isuko pag-ibig na ito. Gusto ko na din wakasan kung anu man naka bigkis sa aming dalawa. But how? Ako ba gagawa ng way? Kaya ko ba? I don’t know naguguluhan ako. Mahirap pala talaga ang mag mahal! Sarap mag bigti! Packing sheet naiiyak ako!

I heard Kuya Mark sighed. He looked at me and smiled bitterly.

"Referring to Nina Brat? Kuya Mark asked me.

I nodded.

He just shrugs his shoulders, and I am thankful kasi tumingin ito sa gawi nina Anthon nag karoon ako ng chance na kumurap-kurap.