He is Mine (under revision)

Chapter Thirty Five - Tears Again-

@celynpretty and @bhe0012 Thank you guys!! Thank you very-very much! Thank you sa pag ti-tiis sa story ni Yana, Gab and Anthon…  Lapit na matapus…..

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“Gab I am sorry. Hindi ko iyon sinasadya. Please Gab please forgive me.”

“Hush! Enough! I understand you. Enough baby!. Always remember that no matter what I still here for you. I am still your baby Gab. The only man who really loves you! But always remember every good or bad happens there’s an end. I mean everything has a purpose. Baby sorry but I just want to tell you that I set you free. Please try to understand me. I love you very much and that’s the only thing I can give you to tell you how much I love you. You need to face you past, be happy babe, Im just here for you no matter what."

 

Lumuluhang napatingala ako kay Gab. I can’t understand him. Bakit niya iyon sinabi? Bakit siya pa ang susuko? Akala ko ba okay na kami?

 

“No babe! Please don’t say that! Please Gab. I love you. Why you said that? Gab just tells me are you kidding right? I don’t like your joke baby.”  Umiiyak na wika ko.

 

Gab cupped my face. He opened his eyes and looked at me. I can see in his eyes that his holding his tears not to falls down. I can see on his face right now that his hurting too. That he even doesn’t like what he says.

 

“I love you more Yana. Sobrang mahal na mahal kita. No I’m not joking, as much as early I want to set you free, na habang maaga hangga’t hindi pa ganoon ka lalim pinag samahan natin it’s better we end this. It’s too hurt to the two us to let go each of us, but if we keep this relationship long? Alam mo na sa wala pa din ito mapupunta. Alam mo na  hanggang sa ganito nalang tayo. Do you understand me babe?”  Then he hugged me once again.

 

No ayaw ko’ng mag hiwalay kami ni Gab! Nakikita ko sa sarili ko na siya na kasama ko hanggang sa pag tanda ko, na maging Masaya na ang lahat.

 

“No Gab! Hindi kita naiintindihan. Bakit mo ako itinataboy? Bakit nasabi mo na hanggang dito nalang tayo? Bakit na tatakot ka na tumagal nasimulan nating to? Bakit Gab? Mahal kita alam mo iyon. Kaya bakit ganoon iniisip mo? Akala ko ba ipag lalaban natin ito? ” Humihikbing sabi ko.

 

 

“Because I know you still love him. Alam ko na mahal na mahal mo ako babe! Walang duda! Sa ipinapakita mo, sa mga nagawa mo sa relasyon natin alam ko higit pa iyon sa inaasahan ko babe ang nagawa mo. Pero alam ko din na hanggang ngayon nariyan pa din siya, nariyan pa din naka kubli lang sa loob ng puso mo. At sa anu mang oras lalabas pa din iyang nararamdaman mo for him na mas matimbang siya kaysa sa akin.”

 

I pushed Gab. Gusto kung kumawala sa mga yakap niya. At ipaintindin sa kanya na nag kakamali siya ng iniisip. Pero malakas  siya at hindi niya ako binitiwan. He still is hugging me.

 

“How dare you to say that Gab.? Huwag ,mo ako’ng pangunahan! Dahil hindi mo alam kung anu man nararamdaman ko. Who are you to say that I still in love with him? Don’t say that. Dahil since you come for the second time in life nakikinita ko na ikaw na makakasama ko. Halos ipag laban ko kahit hindi tama kung anu man meron tayo dahil I’m not losing hope na one of this day we end up together. You and me against everything. I love you Gab please believe me. Please dont say  na mahal mo ako kaya pakakawalan mo ako.  Dahil sa tingin ko mahal ko pa rin siya? Akala ko ba ipag lalaban mo ako? Akala ko ba kaya mo’ng mag hintay hangga’ng dumating divorce ko? Akala ko ba nandiyan ka palagi para sa akin? Bakit ngayon?” I said between my sob.

 

 

“Coz I don’t want to be selfish Iyana! Yeah! For now kung pa pipiliin kita between him and I, I know mas pipiliin mo ako. Coz we shared a lot of happiest moment, not like him na puro sakit ang ibinigay sa iyo.  Pero kung bibigyan kita ng isa’ng lingo na makasama siya at makita mo kung anu pinag kaiba naming dalawa na mas masarap pala siyang kasama kay sa sa akin at pa pipiliin kita  between me and him? Sa tingin mo ako pa din ba pipiliin mo? Not babe! Not me! For now lang yan babe. Dahil sa naawa ka sa akin. Trust me. Please babe. Respect my decision. If we are meant to each other gagawa at gagawa ang tadhana ng paraan for the second chance. At iyon nalang pag hahawakan ko Iyana. Iyon na lang.” Then his voice cracked. He cries.  

 

“I hate you Gab you hurt me.”

 

“Because I love you babe.” 

 

At maingat na itunulak niya ako palabas ng kanyang unit. I was in the state of shocked! I want to go back inside his unit but it’s too late he already closed the door and lock.

 

“No Gab! You don’t love me. Pare-pareho lang kayo’ng mga lalaki.”  Umiiyak na nilisan ko ang lugar na iyon. This is not a good bye Gab. I know magi-ging okay pa din tayo. I know we are soul mates. Hindi man bilang lovers but as a friend. Pilit kita’ng iintindihin sa ngayon. Sana tama nga mga sinabi mo. Sana tama naging disisyon mo. And for the third time pakiramdam ko I am alone again. No one loves me. Ang sakit! 

 

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Boring UD!!! Wala lang!! Pa senti kuno ang peg ni edshotTol…. Stk…stk…stk….. ( hilo na naman si grammar at spelling oh!) I don’t care!!! Eh sa blanko ang utak eh!!! Keber!!!

 

Selfish –selfish-selfish!!!

Scared-scared-scared!!!

Face your fear!!!

Hurt????? Never mind!!! Really huh!!!! 

Hurt ng tooth ko!! Kumain lang ako ng spag at burger.... huhuhu!!! Ayaw ko kay Doc... L the dentist!! Takot kasi si ako........ Dolfe help me ha!!! Pls!!!!