He is Mine (under revision)

Chapter Thirty Four - Farewell -????

-Gab-

“Gab please talk to me.”  I closed my eyes and lean my back at my office chair as I read that text message from Iyana.  Ghaaddamn! If she really knows how I wanted to talk to her, I miss her so much. I miss Yana very much. It’s been 5 days since that incident happened in her unit. And that past 5 days was so miserable days in my life. Halos 3 days ako’ng hindi pumasok sa office. I stayed in my unit for the past 3 days at nag pakalasing lang ako. I want to talk to her, I want to fixed things and make up again with her but it’s not that easy. I am planning to end up what Iyana and I started. Hindi dahil sa hindi ko siya mahal! For Pete’s sake! I really-really love her so much. I am must crazy if she leaves me. Sa naiisip ko palang I want to kill his bastard husband. Bakit pa siya bumalik? Bakit kailangan na mag kaganito kami ni Yana? Pero kailangan eh, kailangan kung mag-isip muna…. Sobra ako’ng nasaktan…

What the hell?!! At tinabig ko lahat ng mga papeles na nasa ibabaw ng mesa ko. I want to freak – out! And cry. Naisob-sob ko ulo ko sa mesa ko. I am so emotional! F*ck! For the past months and days everything’s gonna be okay, smooth sailing relationship namin ni Yana, everything is perfect, we are both happy spending time together. All perfect! I thought wala ng problema pa. That we ended up in the church and we exchange our promises and I do’s. But now what?

“F*ck!” I shouted! On that way mailabas ko manlang sakit na nasa loob ng puso ko. It’s killing me! Is this they called karma? Because how many times I broke woman’s heart before? Is this my reward? Damn it!

My phone ring once again. Kahit hindi ko pa tingnan kung sino caller ko, I know it was her, I assigned that ring tone just for my baby Yana. Just for her.

I was about to cancel her call again, but for packing sheet! I am crazy to hear her sweet voice right now. Kung hindi ko pag bibigyan sarili ko baka ma baliw na ako.

“Gab! Please talks to me.” It’s Yana. Intro pa lang I know it she was crying.

Naipikit ko mga mata ko in frustration. Sa lahat ng ayaw ko ay iyo’ng umiiyak siya.  My heart cut into pieces every time I saw or hear her crying! I want the happy and carefree Yana. Not this one over phone. I am hurting. Sheet!

“Gab please speaks – up! Hindi ko na kaya to! Please can we settle this? Kung ayaw mo na then tell me, hindi iyong pag tataguan mo ako. Gab I love you. Please believe me.”

I swallowed hard! And I took a very deep breath. My heart tightens as I heard that 3 magic words from her. I want to express how much I love her too but I need to control myself just a reservation for my pride and for my aching heart!  

I drew a heavy breath. I know Yana loves me. No question for that! Before na naging kami I know that she learned to love me back. Pero hindi pa din na wala sa isipan ko ang sinabi niya sa akin dati na she is love over heels to his husband. It was just a past but still pwede ng ungkatin dahil sa kasal pa din sila Hindi iyon nawala sa utak, isa iyon sa mga naging fears ko. At ito nga dumating kinatatakutan ko. Ang tanga ko!

“Gab please! Huwag mo naman ako’ng pahirapan oh! Hirap na hirap na ako sa ganito Gab, speak-up say something bad, anything against me para maka ganti ka din sa akin. Please Gab.” She is sobbing. 

I looked up at the ceiling as my tears rolled over my face. F*ck! Do I am a gay? Damn this life of mine! I am old enough to cry just for a woman. For Pete’s sake Gabriel be a man!! Damn you!

As I hear Yana sobbed. Hindi ko na kinaya. It’s so very painful to me. Di bali ng ako nalang masaktan huwag lang babae’ng mahal ko!

“Hush baby! Don’t cry! Pumunta ka sa unit ko. I will wait you there. I love you baby and see you.” And I ended the call. I don’t want na marinig pa niya na nag babago na boses ko. F*cking sheet! I am crying right now!!!?  Ball sheet!!! Ganito pala ang nasawi sa pag-ibig.? 

Yeah! I considered this as a SAWI. May naiisip na ako ng mga sandaling ito kapag nag kita kami ni Yana. It's hurt but i need to accept the reality. And that bad thought’s make me cry again. F*ck Gab! Kelan ka pa natoto’ng umiyak!?? Fight dude! Don’t cry! But I need to….. I don’t know!!! Ngayon lang ako walang maisip na tama.

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-Yana-

 

Nang sabihin ni Gab na pumunta ako sa kanya’ng unit dali-dali ako’ng nag bihis at sumakay ng kotse ko papunta dito.Kahapon pa ako hindi pumasok sa office, last 3 days akala ko nag tampo lang si Gab, akala ko kusa siyang gagawa ng way para mag kaayos kami. Pero na alarma na ako ng since last five days ni isang reply sa mga text ko at tawag ko ay wala siyang tugon. Halos ma baliw ako! Mahal na mahal ko si Gab! Hindi ko kaya na maging ganito kami. Halos gabi-gabi ako’g umiiyak. Ayaw ko ng may nasasaktan ako, lalo na kung is Gab iyon. Malaki utang na loob ko kay Gab kaya hindi pwede na masaktan siya ng lubusan. 

I pressed the door bell of his unit! Kahit na binigyan niya ako ng key ng unit niya before hindi ko iyon tinanggap dahil sa I want to give him a privacy! Ayaw ko na halos wala na siyang itago sa akin, I want that he live his life not depending on me. I want him to have his life. Gf pa lang naman niya ako! 

I was about to pressed the bell once more as the door opened.

And I gasped as I saw the missy Gab! Halos umulan ng luha ang aking mga mata. Gab looks so miserable. Halos hindi na ito nag shave. Halos na ngingitim na din gilid ng mga mata nito. A little pumayat din siya. Gosshhh! Anu ba ginawa ko sa lalaki’ng ito? Bakit siya sobrang na apektuhan sa nakita niya? I need to explain. Ayaw kung makita siya ng ganito. Tila pinipiga puso ko! Sobrang nasaktan ako.

I bit my lower lip. Hindi ko talaga mapigilan sarili ko na maging emotional, dala na din siguro sa nangu-ngulila ako sa kanya at naa-awa ako sa nakikita ko.

“Hey baby! I told you don’t cry right?” He said. And he smiles at me, smiles na hindi umabot sa gilid ng mga mata nito.

As he hug me tight hindi ko na napigilan sarili ko na yakapin din siya ng mas mahigpit! I missed him so much! I missed my baby Gab. At umiyak na ako ng lubusan habang na ka sob-sob sa kanyang dibdib.

 

“Hey! Hush babe. Enough okay! Hindi kita pinapunta dito para iyakan ako." 

“Gab I am sorry. Hindi ko iyon sinasadya. Please Gab please forgive me.”

“Hush! Enough! I understand you. Enough baby!. Always remember that no matter what I still here for you. I am still your baby Gab. The only man who really loves you! But always remember every good or bad  happens  there's  an end. I mean everything has a purpose. Baby sorry but I just want to tell you that I set you free. Please try to understand me. I love you very much and that’s the only thing I can give you to tell you how much I love you. You need to face you past, be happy babe, Im just here for you no matter what."

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My UD for today!!

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