Scared To Get Close (Lee Malia/ BMTH)

Chapter 13- Blessed With a Curse

Everything I touch turns to stone, turns to stone. So wrap your arms around me, and leave me, I can't hold on.

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*Stephanie's Point Of View.*

Waking up the next morning and sitting up I find Lee's still asleep next to me.

Last night (or I probably should say early hours of this morning) I broke in front of Lee. I cracked. I told him about how I'm tired of having panic attacks and how I give up with everything. If he didn't calm me down like he did I may have said about Dylan.

They can't know about Dylan; I need to get my act together. If they find out about Dylan, then everything's ruined. This could ruin their career.

"Steph, you alright sweetie?" Lee asks as he wakes up slightly.

"Yeah, I'm fine." I smile slightly.

"No, you're not." He frowns slightly before wrapping his arms around me and pulling me down into his chest. "What's up?"

"Nothing, I'm fine." I sigh resting my head on his chest.

"You're not fine Steph, especially after last night." He says placing a small kiss on my head.

"It's doesn't matter Lee." I mumble "are the others awake yet?"

"Yeah, they are, they're probably having breakfast or something." He tells me before gently rubbing my arm "should we go join them, get some food, coffee?"

"Alright." I agree lifting my head off his chest before sitting up allowing Lee to also sit up being climbing out of the bunk.

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"About time you two woke up." Nicholls laughs lightly as Lee, and I walk out of the bunk area.

"Shut up Nicholls." I snap not being in the mood for his bullshit jokes.

"Woah, what crawled up your ass and died?" He asks which makes me glare at him resulting in him putting his hands up in surrender.

"Steph." Oli calls "a word quickly."

"What do you want Oli?" I sigh following him as he leads me to a slightly different part of the bus- honestly, I can guess what he's going to say.

"Why was Lee in your bunk with you?" Yup, I was right.

"I had a nightmare again and Lee woke me up before the nightmare did and then he just stayed with me." I shrug, I mean, it didn't mean anything to either of us.

We're just friends, best friends.

"I don't like how close you are with him Stephanie. I mean, the pair of you act as if you're dating." He says plainly.

"Oh, fuck off." I roll my eyes at him "You have no control in who I date. If Lee and I were dating, which we're not, it would have nothing to do with you. Also, you can't decide who I be friends with." And with that I start to walk back to where the other guys were with Oli following me.

"It does matter to me Stephanie. You're my little sister, I'm meant to protect you and make sure no one tries to hurt you!" he argues.

"Well, you're too late to carry that out aren't you?!" I rhetorically ask before realising what I had said.

Dylan.

I basically just said that someone did something to me and it wasn't just Oli I heard. Although I didn't mention his name, I suggested what he did to me.

Shit.

Why can I never keep my fat mouth shut?

"Stephanie, someone did something to you?! Who was it?! What did they do?!" Oli starts raising his voice slightly.

I can't tell them about Dylan and what he did to me. They can't know about his sickness and his twisted mind. I can't ruin the band.

And so I do the one thing I tend to do a lot when facing any problems.

I run.

I run to the bathroom and lock the door behind me.