Scared To Get Close (Lee Malia/ BMTH)

Chapter 17- The Sadness Will Never End

I won't give up on you, the scars won't tear us apart. So don't give up on me, it's not too late for us. And I'll save you from yourself, and I'll save you from yourself.

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*Lee's Point Of View.*

It's been 9 days. These 9 days have been some of the hardest days of my life. I want Stephanie back; I need my best friend back. If I lose Stephanie before I get the chance to actually talk to her about how I feel I'll never be able to forgive myself.

I know I shouldn't think about confessing my feeling to her, she needs friends who can be there for her when she wakes up. She doesn't need the pressure of a relationship; I just need to get the whole idea of this out of my head.

"The nurses have said that you seem to be showing good signs of healing now that your blood levels are returning," I say to her before yawning. "That means that whatever fight you have in you, start using it, we need you to come back to us,"

Letting out a sigh I gently lay my head down on Stephanie's hospital bed just next to our joint hands. The others had gone to get food and they had asked me if I wanted to join them, but I had said I wasn't hungry- the idea of food right now doesn't majorly appeal to me.

Oli and Tom seem to be coping much better than I am regarding the whole situation. I mean unless the pair of them get upset when they're not around me. Honestly, I feel the guys have changed the way they act towards me slightly ever since Stephanie ended up in here. I mean, yes, I was the one who found her which was a shocking and mentally scarring image and the two of us were close but sometimes I get the impression that they're hiding something from me. I think Jordan and Vegan are the ones who have changed the way they act towards me sometimes the most but I know why that is...

...It's because of what I told them.

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I don't know how long I had had my head laying down on the bed as I was completely lost in thought, however that didn't take me away from my senses.

"Stephanie?" I ask thinking that maybe I had just imagined something- I swear I had just felt her squeeze my hand slightly. "Steph, please, wake up. I'm here."

After another few minutes, Stephanie's eyes slowly opened, and she carefully turned her head to look at me sending me a small smile.

"Steph, you're okay!" I say as I see slight tears of joy cloud my vision and I gently give her hand a light squeeze.

"Are we in the hospital? How did I get here? Last thing I remember I was in the bathtub bleeding out." She asks in a voice just above a whisper.

"I went to check on you and that's when I found you in the bath unconscious. I dragged you out and phoned an ambulance." I explain. "I was terrified Steph. I thought I was going to lose you. Oli blamed himself a few times and Tom doesn't even know what to think."

"Is Tom here? Wait, are we still in Ireland?" She asks more questions.

"Yeah, we're still in Ireland, Tom is here, he's with the others," I inform her.

"Where are they? Are Mum and Dad here?"

"Your parents were unable to travel out here as their passports were out of date, I'm sorry sweetie."

"It's fine." She then slowly raises her free hand up to her head and rubs it slightly.

"Everything okay Steph?" I ask worriedly as I watch her.

"My head hurts." she complains continuing to massage her head to try and ease the pain.

"I'm going to go and get a doctor, okay?" And with that, I stand up and let go of her hand- not before placing a gentle kiss on the back of it.