Scared To Get Close (Lee Malia/ BMTH)

Chapter 22- Anthem

Someone call an ambulance, I got wounds to attend. Someone call a doctor, I fear this is the end. This happens all the time, this happens every day. But I never seem to quit, the wolves never stay at bay.

I hate to say "I told you so" but fuck it, I told you so and don't say a word, I already know.

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*Lee's point of View.*

I don't actually know why I'm sat here crying right now, but I am. The guys (except Tom and Oli) are all watching me, trying to comfort me, but none of them actually know what to say or do. They've all heard the conversation I had with Tom and Oli- well part of it anyway. They heard that something happened to her at the club, they don't know what, but they know. What's worst is if they heard Stephanie also heard and I know she's not going to want to talk to me.

I just wanted to help my best friend. I still want to help her. I love her and just want what's best for her so why do I feel so bad about this? I can hear Steph shouting at Tom and so no doubt the others can too but it's very muffled as it's a low volume shouting. The shouting soon stops, and Steph comes storming into the front lounge before staring at as all- this is when my breathing hitches slightly.

"All of you can stop looking at me like that right now. I get it, I'm the stupid 18 year old girl who got raped by her ex-boyfriend. there's not a lot you can do about it." Steph shrugs- her anger and frustration clear.

This is all my fault.

"Steph." I begin as I stand up walking towards her before gently taking hold of her arm- honestly, I have no idea what to say to her but I need to at least try and talk.

I need her to know that I told Oli and Tom to help her.

"Don't even." she glares at me with a warning in her voice "You're the last person I want to talk to right now. Why did you tell my brothers? You confess your love for me then betray me and tell my brothers what I told you? I hate you, Lee Malia."

She then pulls her arm from my grip and slips her converse on before walking out of the bus, leaving me standing there with a fresh lot of tears falling freely down face as the guys stare after her in shock.

I've completely fucked up. I've lost her now, she said it herself, she hates me.

"Lee, mate..." Jordan speaks softly putting a hand on my shoulder.

That's it. That's all it takes for me to lose it and completely break down into tears. I then see Tom walk in and I know he heard every word of what Steph said from the look he gives me.

"Something needs to be done." Jordan turns to Tom keeping his hand on my shoulder for a form of support. "Steph needs to talk to the police."

"But Jordan, why would she talk to the police? I mean she didn't even want to talk to us about it and she's known us for years so why would she want to talk to total strangers about it, police or not?" Nicholls pipes up.

I can't stay here; I need to lay down. My eyes sting from the amount I've been crying, and I just feel dizzy.

Walking away from the group I walk into the bunk area and lay down on my bunk. Laying there feeling the tears fall down my face I start to get a numb sensation overcome me as my breathing tries to regulate but simply can't.

All I wanted to do was to help my best friend. I just wanted to make her happy and carefree again. Call it selfish, I guess part of me wanted to help her become herself again so we would have a chance.

I've really fucked up now though, Steph hates me.

We're obviously done.