Dear Asha..it's been a month. I apologise for not sending you more letters.
I was trying to move on.
Forget about you.
To start a new life.
Without you.
But I cannot.
It isn't in my strength.
It is impossible, Asha.
So I here am; writing you even more letters.
I know I must look ridiculous.
Pathetic even.
Writing letters you will never see.
Letters you will never feel.
Not ever.
Because I do not know where you are.
Not a trace left of you.
Today I was went to our home.
Our old home.
Asha, the plants have all rotten.
Don't you care about them anymore?
Don't you care about me anymore?
I cannot put into words what you've made me feel after leaving.
We were sleeping. Cuddling. In bed. Azy beneath us.
Then it was only me. Only me and Azy in bed and you getting out of the house. Driving away. Leaving me. Leaving Azy.
And the fact that you did this together with James and Luke makes the pain so heavy.
So so heavy.
Why them too?
Was this a plan of yours all along?
The three of you leaving me?
No goodbyes? No explanations? Just like that?
I knew you'd always wanted to be able to start a new life. A new town, new job, new family...
But I wouldn't have thought to be included, Asha.
-Elany
