mixtape | yoongi

2.4 - d-day

the stress was eating me alive. 

i had seen yoongi a few times since i'd had the conversation with taehyung, but as the days grew closer, it became harder to act normal. for some reason my fear of yoongi being angry was beyond crippling. i knew that yoongi wasn't like that, he really was a big softie. but my anxiety ate away at me, giving only worst case scenarios. the boys and those who knew reassured me otherwise, though.

but today was the day. the mv was set to drop at 8 am kst - and then at 2 pm i was set to have a showcase / fan meet for the new album as a first drop while in korea. 

so far, things were going on normally. and now, at 1:30 pm, i was sitting in the dressing room at the showcase hall with hoseok. we had both already been fitted into our outfits for the shared main stage. while hoseok was dressed in an all black outfit, i was dressed in all white as a sort of yin and yang concept for the main stage. i'd keep the outfit on for the rest of the performances, of course, and thankfully it matched the album concept. besides the main track though, there were only 5 other songs had dances to them - so, half of the album.

devilish, cotton candy, light // dark, i dont need u, pinky promise, and all yours were the dance tracks, while the other six were standalone vocals only for the sake of time. not only that, but the showcase and the online streaming of it was rated 18+ due to the content of the songs and the fact that i refused to sensor them. korea was a rather conservative country, but i knew there were people out there that were waiting for this kind of music. of course, i did have censored versions of all of the songs for radio broadcasting, but for the showcase.... it was nerf or nothing for me.

so here we sat, getting the finishing touches on our makeup and talking about the choreography together to make sure we really hit the main parts perfectly, especially the part towards the end where hoseok was wrapped up in white bands that i controlled, signifying him being trapped in my web.

from the dressing room, i could hear the loud chatter from the fans filling the hall, and the call from the director that the showcase would be starting in 10 minutes. as hoseok and i got the finishing touches, we stood up and headed out to the backstage area.

the question i heard going around the most was, 'do you think j-hope will be here?', and 'ahh, they looked so good together, i can't wait to see the official choreography'.

with a quick high five, hoseok headed to the side stage to wait for his entrance time.

with a breath, i began to walk out into the now-dimmed lights, the sound of heels clicking playing through the audio to signify i was coming. the crowd grew silent, and in that moment, all of my stress melted away. i was in my element.

- - -

on the other side of things, yoongi and the rest of the boys were piled together in their apartment, playing on their phones and just hanging out on their day off. a few people questioned where hoseok had gone, but those who knew, knew. so... everyone except yoongi at this point.

"ooh, that artist nova is having a showcase today!" jimin exclaimed from his phone, looking up excitedly.

and apparently jimin.

taehyung and seokjin exchanged looks but stayed quiet.

 jimin bolted up from his seat and ran to grab his laptop, coming back and hooking it up to the tv to stream the showcase on the tv for everyone. after a thorough age checking due to the age rating, the stream officially came up on the tv.

"i wonder where hoseok-hyung is at," jimin sighed dramatically, "he's also a big fan of nova. we used to obsess over her music together."