Chapter- and I will, fix you.
Hayley's Pov-
"Is it ready?" I asked turning my head to Olivia and Emelie who were setting up the camera while I fixed my clothes.
They nodded nervously before pressing the live button, in a matter of seconds thousands of people joined some complimenting me the others too caught up in the drama I was about to unfold.
JJ has tried to contact me multiple times but after you block someone their chances are retry limited after that.
Stop thinking about him Hayley.
"Hi guys, it's Hayley. I'll wait for a few more to join until I get started on what I'm going to talk to you all about." The comments continued as I watched the amount of views go up, once it reached 100k and above I began the truth.
"Hi my name is Hayley for those who don't know, today I went to go see Jimmy and record together. I announced that I was going to be saying some stuff at 9 o'clock. I get it's 9 now. So, let's get started." I reminisced what I practiced and began my 'speech' if you'd like.
"When I was 15 my twin brother committed suicide by jumping off the Golden Gate Bridge. I thought that day, this isn't real. This can't be true. This happens to other people just not me. My brother would never no matter how bad. He was smiling this morning, he's fine. He's only hurt not dead." Tears filled my eyes but I pushed them away.
I was only getting started.
(Comments in live are in bold.)
User11038- Awh Hayley
User289183- We love you!!!!!
User33958- your so pretty Istg
Harrystylesss- Hope your okay, love you bro. 🙏🏼
Arianna- gone too soon 🕊
User299592- I wish I was you
User01995- if I was you I'd never complain again
User01995- your life is so easy.
Emeliegraycolex- love you baby
"My world completely flipped upside down that day, I didn't know how to live without my brother. For the very first time I was alone. This lead to a very dark stage of my life. One that was released online unwontedly and when I wasn't ready to discuss that information."
User91938473- shit role model
User9103958- why is she saying this on a child platform #cancelhayley
"I began to drink, smoke, get high, do anything to numb the feeling inside. This made me stop getting business deals, rightfully so. I had to work my ass off to get back up here, no one realizes how much blood, sweat and tears it takes to model. We starve are selves, we work out so hard that we pass out, we never feel good, we feel sick. We have to look the best at all times. No modeling agency wants an ugly girl."
User0104838- gross
"But isn't everyone ugly in there own way?"
User89- preach it sister 👏🏼
"No one is born pretty, no one is born skinny, no one is born model worthy , no one is the beauty standard until they work hard for it. I had an eating disorder from 5-14. Having an eating disorder meant that I didn't get my period for a while longer than children because I was so underfed. My body couldn't produce them chemicals. That broke me. I was stripped of that right because I wanted to look good, I wanted to be pretty, I wanted to impress people, I wanted people to like me, I wanted people to admire to be me. But now I pity those who want to be me. Because even I don't want to be me."
Usef24892- love you Hayley
Rekakap- your so pretty Hayley don't let what others say bring you down love, 💕.
"People think that just because your famous you don't get hurt by people, you don't get cheated on, you don't get betrayed, when in real life we get all of that. We just get it from a million more people. We get it from you."
Harrystylesss- facts tho
Dwaynejohnson- someone had to say it?
Oliviebaileyxo- love you girlfriend, say it louder for those in the back!
"You people make me sick, you belittle young girls until they commit suicide. Until they are another tragedy, until they are just another suicide count. You bully them. You betray their trust they put in you online. You want to know what else revolts me? When people hide in bushes and take photos of me naked or getting changed, in what sane sanity do you think that's okay? What makes it okay to take a photo of a 13 year old girl changing okay? Is it because we asked for it? Because we wanted to be famous? No girl asks to be exposed on the internet at a young age no one. So don't give me that fucking bull shit. Because all you people out there like those I just described aren't a fan of mine, your a coward."
Used919392919- amen 🙏🏼
"You hide behind a screen because no one can see you, you hide behind a screen because you feel powerful. When in reality it only makes you more weak."
"Bye guys, you won't be seeing me for a while, maybe two years, maybe more. I'll be okay though, because unlike you guys I won't hide but I'll concur. Love you all my supporters, Hayley!" I turned the camera off taking in a deep breath.
Shit that was depressing.
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