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Chapter 48|Fuck
I was fine.
It was nothing.
By the time I got back it was nearly four in the morning. My legs hurt, my arms were sore and my eyes killed. I just wanted to fall asleep the moment I hit the bed. I Chuck my shoes somewhere on the floor blindly walking in the dark.
I trip on a stair and nearly go tumbling down but I save myself with the railing. Without further falls or stumbled I make it up the strips and towards the room. I click it open slowly aware that Grayson and Elias are probably fast asleep so k shit the door quietly behind me. I see the outline of Grayson on the bed, a discarded ice pack on his ribs where he fell asleep.
I sigh softly and pick it up and putting it to the side. I lift the cover further over him looking towards Elias who is in a cot. I walk over smiling as he stares up at me with his tongue peeking out.
"What are you doing awake?" I whisper tickling his sides.
His small fingers wrap around mine with a strong grip. I smile softly and pick him up bringing him to the bed with me. The moment I sit down I realised a whimper, I snuggle closer in the bed bring Elias closer to me. Even though he's more interested in my boobs then snuggles right now.
"You just stayed up to keep awake huh?" I whisper playing with his fingers.
I feel the throb in between my legs, not the good kind either. I close my eyes trying not to groan out loud, Rey judging Elias I'm my hands with a wince I slip out of bed and head down stairs. I click the light on in the kitchen, heading towards the freezer. Placing the peas Grayson used back in I take out the ice packs, rolling my eyes it seeing why Grayson didn't just use them.
Going back upstairs I look down seeing Elias is asleep. I carefully place him back in his cot which is right next to Grayson side of the bed. I freeze when he makes a noise praying he doesn't wake back up. Luckily he doesn't and I'm able to slip into bed, placing the ice packs in between my legs.
I sigh in relief.
I can't help but think back to those girls, they looked so broken so fragile. I wanted nothing more then to wrap them in bubble wrap keeping them safe. I'll have to call him to break the news, I'm sure he'll be enlightened when I tell him. But for now, they needed to rest and heal up, they needed all the support and care they can get.
I look down at Elias my head tilting over to Grayson and I couldn't image any of them getting hurt. But I do know, I do at have to imagine because I've been there. I was the one left alone thinking the one of love is dead, I've been there and I'm still there in a way. I know Grayson is alive, right next to me I see him breathing I feel his warm skin I can see his chest rise with steady breaths.
A part of me is still there. Part of me is still mourning Grayson's death, still reeling in form the hurt the pain I felt. That part of me still thinks one day I'm going to wake up only for it all to be a dream, a painful and torturous dream. Part of me is still healing, working on myself.
What I'm most shameful of is that part of me is still struggling to trust him. Because I don't think I do any more, trust him that is, I know he had no choice and he was doing it for me. But I was left with this story of pain and loneliness.
I can't trust him to not do it again.
Is it wrong of me? Is it wrong that I'm lying here next to him with our son In my arms finding it hard to trust him. I love him. So why can't I trust him?
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