Stay

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Trigger warning mention of Panic attacks and abuse

Colby's Pov

"Thank you for earlier Colby" Marissa Said as I stood in the doorway of Sam and I's room. "No problem. Goodnight Marissa Sleep well" I said and smiled then turned and closed the door. I went back into the living room to where Sam was sitting and going over footage. I sat down on the couch and sighed as I scrubbed my face with my hands. "Hey you okay brother" Sam asked as I looked up at him. "yeah I'm good" I said as I pulled out my phone and looked through my emails. " Are you sure" Sam said. "I'm just worried" I said and put my phone down next to me. "about what" Sam asked. "About Marissa" I said and looked over at him. "What happened when Quin and I were in the ballroom" He asked. I sighed "We were walking around the suite so she could see it. And then she started breathing heavy out of nowhere and walked out of the room and locked herself in the bathroom. I followed and could hear her hyperventilating and crying so I unlocked the door and helped her calm down. I feel horrible it was such a bad panic attack" I said. "Damn I hope she's ok" Sam said as I nodded. "yeah me too" I said with a frown.

Sam and I ended up watching TV for about a half an hour. But I couldn't concentrate on the TV. I just kept thinking about Marissa. The way her eyes crinkled when she laughed, the way her hair naturally framed her face, the way she made me feel instantly comfortable around her,  her smile that could light up any room. I smiled thinking about the fact that she snuck into the ballroom for adventure.

I was interrupted by Sam. "Hey I'm going to bad man see in you the morning" he said. "Night man" I said as he left the room. I looked at my phone checking the time it was 2:45am. I made my way to bed and crawled in. I laid there for about a half hour before I decided to take a walk. I walked around the hotel before I decided I was gonna go for a drive to clear my head.

I went back to the room and grabbed my keys. When I made my way back to the elevator I saw Marissa standing and waiting for the elevator. "Marissa" I said as I got to the elevator. She jumped as she turned around. "woah its just me" I said as I held my hands up in surrender. She sighed as she held her chest. "You scared the fuck out of me" She said as we got on the elevator. "Sorry, What are doing up" I said as she looked at me. I could tell she had been crying Her eyes were bloodshot and puffy and she had tear stains on her cheeks. "I couldn't sleep" She said as she pulled her sweatshirt sleeves over her hand. I didn't notice until now that she was wearing my black and maroon take chances sweatshirt.

"I like your sweatshirt" I said with a smirk. She hid her face as she blushed. "Why didn't you tell me you were a fan" I said as she looked up at me and nervously bit her lip. "Because I didn't want you to feel like you had to be nice too me because I'm a fan" she said "Hey I would have treated you the exact same way if you were a fan or not" I said she just nodded and stepped off the elevator into the lobby.

"What are you doing" I asked as we both made our way outside. "I just needed some fresh air" she said and took a deep breath in. "I'm going for a drive if you want to join me" I said. "No you probably want to be alone" She said. I smiled "Marissa I wouldn't have asked if I didn't want you to come with" I said and held my hand out for her to take it. She looked hesitant as she stared at me with a confused look. "Its okay I promise" I said. She nodded and softly grabbed my hand. My hand enveloping her small one as we walked to my car. 

I opened the passenger side door for her to get in. "Thank you" she said softly as she got in the passenger seat. Once she was in I shut her door and jogged around to the drivers side and got in. I smiled softly at her as I started my car. "Where are we going" She asked as I pulled out onto the road. "I thought you liked adventure" I said as I drove. "I do when I know where we are adventuring" She said causing me too laugh. "Its more fun when its unplanned" I said. She just smiled and looked out her Window.

I pulled into the parking lot as Marissa looked around cautiously and confused. I Smiled and parked my car turning it off and looking over at Marissa. She looked a little confused and nervous. I leaned over slowly and she looked at me. I slowly grabbed her hand so she wouldn't flinch at my movements. I smiled and squeezed her hand lightly. "We are okay I promise" I said as she nodded. I got out and jogged over too her door and opened it as she was reaching for the handle. "You don't have to do that" she said. "I know but I want too" I said. I held my hand out for her. "ready for an adventure" I said and she grabbed my hand and shut the car door. "As ready as I'll ever be" she said. "good" I said and started making my way through the trees.

As we walked Marissa looked around cautiously. I Squeezed her hand showing her I was there and she was safe. 

We made our way out of the trees and onto a small beach. Marissa gasped as she looked out over the ocean. "what is this place" She said letting go of my hand and walking further onto the beach. " Sam was with Kat one day and I was bored so I went exploring and found this place. I come here when I need to think or I'm upset or just need sometime to myself" I said as I caught up to her. "Its Beautiful But why did you take me here I don't want to intrude on your safe place" she said as she sat down on the sand as the moon light illuminated her and the beach. "Your not intruding I wanted to show you" I said and sat down next to her. She looked up at me I got lost in her baby blue eyes. A spot of her left eye was brown interrupting the blue it was beautiful though. 

"Why are you being so nice to me" she said as I looked into her eyes. "Because Marissa your different there just something about you and I cant get you off my mind no matter how hard I try" I said. " She stood up "Colby you don't want me I'm broken and not worth your time. I'm loud and oppinionated I'm stubborn and anxious" She said as she started walking back towards the trees. I stood up and I followed her up the beach as she spoke. "I'm ugly and gross my life's a mess my depression is bad and I cant do anything without fucking it up or breaking down and getting hurt I have to go I'm sorry i..." she said but was cut off by me pressing my lips against hers. I felt this spark inside of me that I've never felt before it was like fireworks were  going of in my heart it was amazing. I broke away after a minute and grabbed her face in my hands Making her look at me "Stay" I whispered.