#1 In My Heart

Saturday

"Why are you two always at my place?" I walk into the living room to see Kats and Ei on the couch watching tv. "We're always so bored at our places" Ei speaks up. "I feel like the three of us never see each other" he whines. "WE SEE EACH OTHER EVERY DAY IDIOT" Kats chimes in. "At this point I'm just gonna make you guys keys." I realized what I said after it comes out. They both pause their tv show and turn to look me. Yep. I made it weird. I can't tell what they're thinking but I know it's probably bad. "YOUD DO THAT??" Ei says excitedly after a moment of silence. His reaction catches me off guard. "You'd want that?" I question back. "Sho. We have our own rooms here. Don't you think that's more weird than us having keys" Kats exclaims. They got me there. "I guess that's a good point. Wait. Have you been wanting keys to my place?" I look back at them. They have this weirdly evil but innocent look on their faces. "Noooooo" Ei says refusing to make eye contact with me. "Why didn't you idiots tell me?" I walk into the kitchen to grab a snack. "I thought it would be weird. And Kats said he wanted you to ask us instead" Ei says looking at Kats. "Do you guys just discuss me when you're not around me?" I laugh grabbing some soba from the fridge.

"Yes"
"No"
They both say in unison.
"So why do you talk about me?" I question, genuinely curious as to why I'm apparently always in their conversations.
"Uhm. That's a good question that Kats should answer." Ei says running away.
"WHERE THE FUCK ARE YOU GOING. HOW DARE YOU LEAVE ME OUT HERE LIKE THAT" Kats says running after him. I feel like I should follow them. But I also feel like I should stay put. I'm thoroughly confused here.
Kats brings Ei back out. Ei is blushing and Kats looks angry yet calm.
"Did you guys just have a weird make out session or some shit" I laugh.
"Did you just swear" Kats asks avoiding the question.
"Maybe. I think you're rubbing off on me. Maybe I just hang out with you too much" I respond.
Both he and Ei nervously chuckle.
"So are you gonna tell me what's going on? You can't live here if I'm not in the loop of whatever the fuck it is you two are doing." I can't tell whether I'm getting flustered or if I subconsciously activated my quirk due to being nervous.
"Live here...?" Ei says.
"I assumed if I got you two keys, you'd just be here full time. I mean you're practically here full time now" I trail off getting even more nervous.
"Do you want us to move in?" Kats questions.
"It would be kinda nice. I mean this place is a little empty and a little less like home when you're both not here..." I mumble.
"AWWWWW SHO MISSES US WHEN WERE NOT HERE!!!!!" Ei screams in excitement running to hug me before stopping in his tracks.
Kats gives him a look.
"So.... Anyway...... Its Saturday. Which means we have that thing tonight. Do either of you know who's week it?"
"The group chat mentioned it was Kaminaris week. He said that he made all of us reservations at some fancy place downtown" Ei says initiating the subject change. Thank god that weird conversation is over. Maybe we'll talk about it again. Mid thought I hear "any particular reason you changed the subject, Sho?" It's Kats. "I dunno. It just felt awkward. Like I was interrupting something between you two" I shyly say. "Nah you didn't interrupt anything. We were just shocked by all the sudden things you said. That's all." The air feels heavy. But I can't help but feel that there's a certain unspoken feeling. Love? No. That's not it. Hunger, maybe? Like a weird hunger. Not for food but for something else. Maybe I'm thinking of lust...? I'm just confused. It makes me want something. Something I only crave in dire situations to help my nerves.
"Whatcha doing?" Ei says as I go to the cabinet with all the leftover alcohol from the last party Ei and Kats threw. "Experimenting" I say taking a bottle down and grabbing a cup. "Hey. You have to be on your best behavior tonight and you can't do that if you're drunk" Kats says taking the bottle from me. "Fuck off. Give it back." I say. He throws the bottle to Ei. "Say please" Ei gives me a puppy dog face. "This feels like an oddly sexual thing" I say acknowledging the weird sexual tension in the air, causing Ei to drop the bottle in surprise. "GREAT NOW LOOK WHAT YOU DID IDIOT" Kats taking a moment to forget what I said but Ei's eyes are still locked onto me. Kats cleans up the mess.

"We're gonna be late. We have to hurry" I say scrambling into the car. The other two follow swiftly behind me. Kats surprisingly let's Ei take the passenger seat with zero complaints. "How are we always the last ones to show up when we're the only ones that have stayed in Tokyo. I don't understand" Ei says looking into the dining room of the restaurant to see some of our friends. I see Momo and Jirou and quickly make my way over to them. "Is this all of us tonight?" Looking around to see only a few of us. "Yep. Everyone else is either asleep or working on a case" Momo says as we all sit down. Kats, Ei, and I sit down next to each other. We all order drinks and food and start talking. Mostly reminiscing about old times. Or talking about how much we miss everyone.

"The three of you are awfully close now" Mina says pointing to us. Kats rolls his eyes, he probably wants to go home. Ei laughs. And I say "Yeah I guess we are." I think they all think we're dating or something but we aren't.

"How's Therapy, Todoroki?" Momo asks. I can physically see Kats get angry. I subconsciously put my hand on his leg to calm him down as I answer.

"Oh. It's good. I'm a lot better now. I don't have nightmares or panic attacks. I'm able to be open and honest about my feelings too since I'm actually able to identify them. Thanks!" I respond cheerfully. "And how's your family" she asks this time. I feel Kats get even angrier. I squeeze his leg to get him to chill. He's always so worried.

"My family is great. My dads working really hard to gain Natsuo's trust. Fuyumi is excited to see him trying. My moms back home. And my dad doesn't bother me anymore. He's waiting for me to come to him when I feel comfortable enough. I still see my mom, sister, and brother pretty regularly though.

"I'm really happy for you Todoroki" everyone at the table says. My hand is still discreetly on Kats leg. "Thanks guys" I say with a smile. I look over at Kats to see him slightly blushing. I wonder if he likes this. Let's experiment. I squeeze his thigh one more time to see the look he makes on his face. His hand immediately grabs mine. Interesting.

After dinner we all say our goodbyes. "See you guys next week!" The three of us say back. We get back in the car to go home. This time Kats is sitting up front with Ei in the back. I start up the car to drive back to the apartment. The weird tension feeling is back in the air. Is it because of what I did at dinner. Probably. It was kind of fun making him flustered like that.