#1 In My Heart

Tell Me

Todoroki POV

"I feel like you got this big of a place thinking we'd eventually move in" Ei says as he's putting clothes into the closet. "No. Not originally anyway. At first I liked having this all to myself. It was nice and quiet. I had the library built. Then I built the office. But the more you two came over, the more I realized I kinda missed when we lived in the dorms. I thought I was better off alone after we graduated. But that couldn't be further from the truth." I respond. "Wow. Your therapist needs a bonus." Kats laughs as he's passing by. "Yeah I think that's the most you've ever talked about your feelings." Ei retorts. "I'm still not that great. But I'm getting there" I flash a smile.

"Did you know I talk about you guys to my therapist?" Kats enters the room with a confused look. "Oh?" Ei says practically reading Kats mind. "It's never anything bad. Mostly it's just bragging about how cool you guys are. Except..." I trail off. Unsure if I should even be talking about this. I mean it's weird, right? This shouldn't be something we casually discuss. We're friends.
We're friends.
We're friends.
But...
"OI!" I come back to Kats trying to get my attention.
"Sorry. What was I saying?" I suddenly become really nervous.
"Nope. You're not saying anything. I don't like the way you just spaced out like that. If it's gonna make you spiral again, don't speak." Kats says. His voice sounds angry but the way he talks, I know he's worried again. 10 years later and I still worry the shit out of everyone.
"I wasn't spiraling. I was thinking." I say back.
"Thinking about what?" Ei says, going against Kats wishes. He leaves the room and sits on the couch. "Don't worry I'm listening" he shouts from the other room but we all follow him anyway. I got into the kitchen to grab some water. They're watching my every move. I can feel it.

"At my therapy session Tuesday. We were discussing... something... and her words kind of stuck with me." I turn around to both of their eyes on me. "Discussing what" they both ask. "Uhm. Well. How do I put this. The three of us..." I say under my breath. Ei gets off the couch and walks over to me. Kats trailing slowly behind him. "The three of us?" Kats questions. I was sorta hoping they didn't hear me, but I'm also glad I didn't have to repeat it. "Yeah. Like how there's this weird tension in the air all the time now. And how when I take care of you guys when you're drunk, I want to kiss you on the forehead when I leave your rooms. And like how when Ei and I cuddle..." I stop, thinking I've said too much. Usually I'm pretty good at reading them now, but in this instance I have no idea what they're feeling. And that terrifies the shit out of me.

There's a kind of awkward silence again. We're all just standing, staring at each other. Although, I can't help the feeling that there's something they're not telling me.

"Spill it." I finally say. Breaking the silence yet again.
"What?" Ei looks at Kats. And then back at me.
"Whatever it is you two are hiding" I retort.
"We're not hiding anything." Kats says.
"Liars. Kats, you tend to speak for Ei when there's secrets. Just tell me."
"Well...." Ei starts off.
"We've both been having the same feelings as you."
I feel like I could faint. Did I hear him correctly. Traces words flood my brain yet again.

'Maybe it could be something great'

"It kind of started a couple months ago for me." Ei says. "And a little bit longer than that for me." Kats says behind him. They both look incredibly nervous and maybe a little ashamed? It's honestly the first I've seen them like that. I slide down the cabinet and sit on the floor. They sit next to me.

"So?" Kats looks at me.
"So what?" I ask back. Still kind of confused as to what they're telling me.
"It's like he just turned back into old Sho" Ei laughs.
"We're telling you that we like you dumbass" I feel a slight punch to my shoulder.
"I think we shut his brain off" Ei says again.
I hum back in response. Still feeling shocked.
"We broke him. We shouldn't have bombarded him like this." Ei says feeling my forehead.
"Well it's his dumbass fault for bringing it up if he wasn't ready! I told him to drop the conversation. But you just had to engage in it, idiot. I knew he wasn't ready." Kats says. I'm still just sitting there listen to them bicker. The same way they've always bickered. But this time something changes in me. I grab them both by the wrists. They both look at me shocked.

"Shush" I finally find my voice.

"Did you just tell me to shush?!" Kats looks at me like I've lost my mind.

"Shush" I say again. This time a little more forceful.

"What are you gonna do if I don't, idiot?!" Please enlighten me!" Kats didn't realize how sexually charged that sounded.

Feeling challenged like that flipped a switch in me. I grabbed Kats by his shirt and pulled him closer to me. Our lips meeting for the first time. We finally pull away and the only thing my brain can think of to do, is smirk at him.

"You think you can just kiss me like that and then smirk?! Like you've won?! You didn't win shit. Just you fucking wait!" He screams. His voice doesn't sound angry. It sounded more... thrilled? Like he actually enjoyed what I just did. Dare I test the waters?

I do dare, apparently.

I pat his head "Aw. Don't worry, we'll bring out your submissive side." I lean closer to him to whisper in his ear. "Just you fucking wait, Kats." I pull away. He has an interesting look on his face.

"Damn. That was hot. Now I think you broke him. And all you did was talk to him" Ei says getting off the floor.

"He didn't break me. I'm just wondering where my princess Sho went." Kats says after catching his breath.

"How did I even get that nickname?" I question. They just randomly started calling me that one day.

"Oh we thought you were submissive" Ei says wrapping his arm around me.

"I'm not entirely sure what I am yet. But I do know, that I quite enjoyed the look on Kats face when I whispered in his ear like that"

"Wait. Is that why guys talked about? When you had conversations about me? On whether I'm submissive or dominant?" I laugh.

"Kind of, yeah" Ei replies.

"You good, Kats?" Ei questions. Kats still standing there staring at us.

He continues staring at me. Until he says something under his breath but loud enough for both of us to hear.

"I'm going to break you"