Can you let me in?

Chp 35

Natasha boards the jet and looks at the co-pilot seat. One she had sat in many times before but for some reason she couldn't get herself to sit down.

"Are you going to sit down or what?" Clint's voice broke her from her trance.

"Umm yeah I'll just sit back here." Nat says quickly move to the cargo area of the jet and sit down.

After the plane is up in the air Natasha heard Clint activate autopilot. A few moments later he comes and sits right next to her. She refuses to look over at him staring straight ahead.

"You know we are going to have to talk about it." Clint says quietly, observing her profile for any reaction.

"No we don't." Natasha says, still refusing to meet his gaze.

"I do like the accent coming back. But I know that's not all that did." Clint starts noticing her back straighten.

"I couldn't sit with all of the grief so I did what I was taught, I made it so it wasn't personal anymore." Natasha gets out slowly.

"But it still was Nat. Who you went after it wasn't just anyone they were all personal. Finishing off the red room for you and yelena. Then going after hydra for Wanda and Y/n."

Natasha immediately stands in front of Clint and points her gun at him. "Don't say their names! You don't get to say them!" Natasha screams out as tears threaten to fall from her eyes.

Clint immediately puts up his hands, "I am sorry. I won't say them." Clint says.

Natasha looks at him before turning away and holstering her gun. She goes and sits down on the other side of the plane, staring at the floor in front of her for the rest of the flight.

Once the jet lands Clint stops in front of Natasha and offers his hand to help her up. Natasha looks up and silently observes him as if seeing if he truly is offering to help. Clint stays still not moving, recognizing this is similar to the state she was in when he first brought her in. He is going to have to re-earn her trust, something that will not come easily.

After a few long seconds Natasha places her hand in his and stands up. She follows behind him into the building she once called her home but now she can hardly look at it. It reminded her too much of them, her universe.

Once inside Natasha looks up and notices Tony, Steve, Bruce, Scott and Thor all sitting around.

"Ah the murderer is back!" Tony says earning a glare from everyone in the group but receiving a small smile from Natasha that disappears in a second.

"What too soon?" Tony says, looking around.

"So what did we miss?" Clint asks, looking at the group.

"Scott here was going to do a test run to make sure the how works." Tony explains tapping Scott on the shoulder.

"We only have enough for two test runs, that's it." Scott explains placing the pym particle in the suit.

Everyone watches as he slowly shrinks down and disappears before reappearing again. "One test run." Scott lets out. "Alright I'm not ready for this." Scott says, shaking his head.

"I'm game." Natasha says, causing everyone to look over at her. "I'll do it." She adds looking at everyone.

"Umm, alright let's get you suited up." Tony says, eyeing the rest of the avengers.

Natasha quickly gets suited up into one of Tony's new suits he had created for this test. She quickly nods to Clint before going to stand on a weird platform as everyone else watches on.