Can you let me in?

Part 37

Natasha didn't sleep a single second. Instead opting to hold her girls tight and looking over each of them. Trying to rememorize their faces.

Even though she thought she had an amazing memory in the last five years she had forgotten about a couple freckles on Yelena's checks, the way Wanda scrunches her nose when she dreams and how y/n mumbles when she sleeps. Some may think these things are tiny but to Natasha they mean the world.

Five years. In those five years they haven't changed a bit, but she knows she has. Natasha feels herself tense as she replays moments of the last five years. What happens when they find out? Will they still be cuddling her like this? Would they even want to be here?

Natasha's mind starts to spiral quickly panicking over those thoughts. She feels her breathing become more erratic as her body starts to tense and curl up. Before she can stop it she is sucked into flashbacks of the red room.

"You must forget that mission Natalia." Madame B's voice plays in her head.

"That's not my name." Natasha insists, refusing to meet her gaze.

"Yes it is. That is not your family Natalia. You don't have a family, you will never have a family." Madame B says as she lifts Natasha's chin to look at her.

"And if you do I will make sure..." 

"Natasha?" A voice cuts through her thoughts.

"Hey Natasha? Baby? Come back to me." The voice continues.

Suddenly Natasha feels a hand brush at her cheek. Without thinking Natasha quickly grabs the hand and pins the person beneath her as she grabs their throat.

Before she can squeeze tighter Natasha feels herself being lifted off the person and slammed against the wall. She goes to fight but a voice stops her.

"Natalia Alianovna Romanova, stand down."

The voice was strong and commanding, Natasha quickly knelt down to her knees awaiting instruction.

She heard whispering happening around her but knew not to listen unless she wanted to be punished.

Yelena watches Natasha for a second to make sure Natasha won't try anything before going to check on Wanda who is still laying down gasping for air.

"Are you okay?" Yelena quickly asks sitting Wanda up.

"Yeah" Wanda pauses, still trying to catch her breath. "I just didn't expect that." Wanda says looking over to Natasha who is kneeling with her eyes cast down.

"Is she okay?" Wanda asks quietly, looking towards Nat.

"Yeah she's just stuck in a flashback. It happens." Yelena says, biting her cheek a bit anxiously.

"Is there anything I can do to help?" Wanda asks.

"No it's okay I've got her. You and y/n can stay here tonight. I'll bring her to the spare room just to be safe." Yelena says.

"Are you sure you two can't stay in here tonight?" Wanda says before looking at the clock realizing it's actually morning.

"Wanda, we both know she wouldn't want to risk that. It's okay. She will be better by the time you two wake up I promise." Yelena adds.

"If anything else happens you come and get me. Understood?" Wanda says a bit sternly.

"Yes mom." Yelena says, emphasizing the word.

"Very funny." Wanda says looking back at Natasha.

"I know. But really I have her. Get back to bed. I've got this." Yelena says, helping Wanda back to the bed. Yelena smiles quickly, noticing how y/n quickly cuddles into Wanda.