Day 8: things that make you sad
How cute. Today... is even St. Valentine’s Day. xD <3 TAS TINATANONG MO AKO NG GANYAN? LOKOHAN? LOKOHAN?
Haha. Indi, joke lang.
Sadness? I’m not really the kind of person to dwell upon that. Most of the times that I’ve cried were because of frustration and annoyance – not because I was truly sad. But... of course, I’ve been sad.
And these, would be reasons why:
Friends only during fair weather. I... don’t know. It just irks me: I have given to these friends my understanding and patience but they were able to desert me without any second thoughts. (hahaha, bitter.) Or maybe it’s just me – maybe I’d been too blind that I haven’t seen they weren’t really friends. But either way, it still... sucks.
Incompetence. Failure. Falling short of limits. It’s not that I measure my self-worth by the number of accomplishments I made. I just think that I’ll live this life but once; there’s not much time for missing opportunities. I’ve always been independent – ever since pre-school I’d been doing homework by myself, so maybe that’s why. O kaya naman feeler lang talaga ako. Whatevah.
Not having said goodbye properly. I feel so strongly about this one. Twice has this happened to me, and I never could forget. 'Twas when an uncle and a mentor of mine died. I mourned not so much for their passing, for I know that they have gone to a better place, as for the fact that I haven’t been able to bid them goodbye. I wasn’t able to thank them for what they have done for me. I wasn’t able to say to them how I appreciated their goodness towards me. It had hurt. Even now, while I recall, a sober feeling comes over me.
I remember what an English teacher of mine told me about this: that it would be so much better if people took the time to say goodbye. It’s true. Though happy or sad, we need a closure, don’t we? Even songs won’t be beautiful without a proper conclusion.
The romance that there is at the end... of songs, of the day, of life... Why, it makes everything more satisfying.
~Ang drama talaga. Sabi sayo, iyakin talaga ako.~
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Happy Valentine's daaaaay!
